Black Swan's

Maybe I Love You (Fifthy Four)

        “Jjjjdon't hurt Anthony, I was wrong for asking him to meet.”

            “Ssshhh... I won't hurt her baby, I just gave her a warning.

            “Jjdon't, please don't!”

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            “Let go of him jerk, that woman is mine.”

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            “Kyaaaa!!”

            “Come go!”

            “Let me go! Why do you always mess up my life?”

            “Huh, because I was destined to do it? Let's go home, we continue this quarrel at home.”

            “I hate you Ace!”

            “I know and I don't care.”

            “You hurt my friends! You hurt Zyan.”

            “Yes, because he exerted a bad influence on you.”

            “No, you ruined my life! Zyan loves me! And I will marry him!!”

            Eden woke up with sweat pouring profusely from his forehead as well as breath that seemed to hunt. Quickly the woman reached for a glass of water beside her bed to wet her dry throat from the nightmares she had been having since she ran away from the man's house, the man who claimed to be her husband, Aciel Lutherford.

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            “Eden, are you awake?”

            “Yyya, I've woken up.” replied Eden stuttered when Anthony knocked on his room door several times. The woman then immediately uncovers her thick blanket and walks towards the large window that is in her room to breathe in the soothing morning fresh air. When he opened the window, the sunlight

instantly panned his face shamelessly and made him instantly narrow his eyes due to the glare. He then stared at each passing pedestrian who walked under Anthony's apartment that looked quite attractive to him. From up there he could see those people looking happy and as if without a burden. Unlike him who is always haunted by nightmares to make his sleep uncomfortable. Even the longer he was with Anthony, the more ghostly the dreams continued to terrorize him every night. And not infrequently he experienced insomnia because he could not close his eyes again if the dream about the man was always present in the middle of a deep sleep.

            “Why does the dream feel real?” eden murmured softly at the empty air around him. The tail of his eyes then swept back the state of the pedestrians down there who were at least able to divert him from the nightmares he experienced. But from a distance he can see a man with a black suit stelan being

standing under the street lamp while staring at him intensely. At first he thought the man was just a fad by staring at him randomly in the middle of his activities waiting for the bus or whatever, but gradually Eden began to realize that the man was indeed looking at him deliberately. The bespectacled man even gave a terrible grin to her making her flutter with a pale face. He fears that the man is one of the spies that Aciel hired to find him. But after a while he looked at the man, suddenly the mysterious man lowered his glasses a little and grinned at him with a horrible face to make his face pale.

            “Aciel.... Impossible!”

            Eden took a few steps back while shaking her head to clear her mind which was starting to be poisoned by the figure of Aciel who often haunted her deep sleep. He then ventured to look down again, but unfortunately the man had disappeared from his place. Now the man's place was replaced by a young woman who seemed to be waiting for the bus to pick him up. Eden then cupped his face in frustration while shaking his head many times so that he did not need to think about the fears that did not necessarily occur. After all, he had managed to live well for ten days without Aciel or his men looking for him, so he had to be sure that everything would be fine. The man couldn't have found it in Anthony's apartment

which is hidden because Anthony did choose to live in an apartment far from the city center.

            “Eden...”

            “Haahh!!”

            Eden was in shock when Anthony touched his shoulder and looked worriedly at him. The man saw a look of fear on Eden's pale face, then he pulled Eden into his arm to make her calmer.

            “Are you okay?” anthony asked quietly which Eden answered with a headband.

            “I saw the man down there. He was looking at me with a terrible grin and I was so scared. I was afraid that man would come and lock me up again in his hell-like home. Anthony, I'm afraid.” said Eden softly while crying in the warm embrace of Anthony. Anthony then tilted his head slightly down to confirm if what Eden said was true, but unfortunately he did not see anything suspicious looking down there. He actually saw a group of teenagers were joking while shouting noisily with their disturbing voices. Feeling that Eden was getting dissolved in his fear, Anthony felt the need to straighten it out on Eden. He did not want Eden to be constantly haunted by the shadow of the man and turned into a mad woman who constantly hallucinated about something that was not real.

            Anthony forced Eden to look up by pulling the woman's chin towards him.

            “What you see is not real. Aciel can't possibly find you here because this place is very far from the city center, so you don't have to worry about anything while you're here. I will always protect you Ed, I promise.” Anthony said solemnly as he stared at the caramel bead deep. Anthony then brought his face closer and began******Green's lips were soft. While Eden reflexively closed her eyes while enjoying every vibration that Anthony gave her lips. However, when he closed his eyes, again the shadows that look blurred began to race to infiltrate in his head to make him dizzy.

            “I will name our second son Louise because he is like an angel who has come to shine a light on our dark lives for many years. Thank you Eden, for giving me something I've never felt in all this time.”

            “This is for you, I thought it was your birthday because according to my men you were born on the thirtyth of May. Happy birthday.”

            “Thank you, this is a beautiful gift.”

            “Eden, although I have never expressed my feelings of love like the other men out there, but trust me if I will always give my life and my loyalty to you. Please never leave me, stay by my side as my wife and mother of my children.”

            “Eden and Ciara, you are very precious women to me.”

            Suddenly Eden pushed Anthony's body and broke the lip link between them forcefully while looking at Anthony with a sad look and a feeling of guilt.

            “I'm sorry Anthony, I.. I seem to feel dizzy.” Eden said with a messed up face that looks sad. Seeing Eden again overwhelmed with depression made Anthony want to hold the woman in his arms again, but Eden rejects him and asks Anthony to leave him alone in the room because he wants to clear his mind for a moment from the strange shadows that re-introduce into his head.

            “Please give me a minute Anthony, after which I promise I will go out to breakfast with you.”

            “Are you okay? You want me to get you a cup of tea?” hail Anthony with a worried face. Eden shook his head weakly while cupping Anthony's cheeks with both of his palms feeling cold.

            “I just want to lie down for a while, I promise after that I'll be fine.”

            Anthony nodded in understanding while dipping Eden's hands alternately and immediately went out of the room of the woman he loved.

            After leaving Anthony from his room, Eden's body immediately decayed beside the bed while bowing his head between his knees. Although he currently could not remember anything in the past, but he was sure that all the shadows he saw lately were pieces of past events involving him. And after seeing all that, now his heart felt doubtful. He doubts if he can live his life with Anthony if the shadow continues to haunt him until it feels almost crazy. He could not possibly live happily with his lover, while the shadow of another man and his biological son continued to dance inside his head.

            “Argghhhh!!! Why it feels painful.” said Eden frustrated while pressing his chest that feels tight. Maybe he can't keep hiding with Anthony, he has to get out of his hiding place and solve his problems with the man, or he will live a lifetime of suffering from bearing such a heavy mental burden on his heart.

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            “Eden I hope today you will be happier.”

            “Uhumm, but... where are we going Anthony?” eden asked as he stared enthusiastically at the pine trees that were missed by Anthony's car which was traveling at medium speed. Tonight they decided to go out and breathe fresh air to expel the fatigue that is plaguing their minds these days. Anthony also wants to prove to Eden that the woman's fear is not real. He wanted to make Eden forget all her past with Aciel and just look at her as a man she loved so much. After all now he had an ally that would help him to take down Aciel so he would not have to worry if the man would destroy him like he used to.

            “Today I will take you to where we first dated.”

            “Dating? Wait, where did we first date? Wasn't that time

we met at an electronics company party that used me as a brand ambassador?” Ask Eden while thinking. The woman tries to search for the remains of her memories in the past regarding her relationship with Anthony, but unfortunately what came to mind first was Aciel and the man's athletic body after they had a forced hot romance that night.

            “Eden... are you okay?”

            Anthony held the palm of Eden's worried hand when Eden was long enough silent beside him with a frown and a troubled face. But Eden quickly regained consciousness and smiled in front of Anthony to show that he was okay.

            “I'm fine, just thinking.” lied Eden smoothly. Finally Eden chose to give up and not continue his activities to think because every time he uses his brain to dig into the past, it is precisely his memories with Aciel and Ciara that appear in his head.

            “Alright, I'll tell you. Tonight we will go to a sushi restaurant, a restaurant that has been your favorite place so far.”

            Anthony took the hand of Eden perched sweetly on the dashboard, then he smelled the fingers of the lentik one by one to make Eden giggle because amused.

            “It's a pity I don't really remember how our first date was Anthony, but I hope I'll always remember our date today.”

            Eden put a big smile on Anthony and looked so enthusiastic about their dinner. From the side, Anthony smiled with relief as he was finally able to see the beautiful smile of Eden that he had long missed. Ever since the woman lived with him, Eden has more often looked gloomy and pale because

the attack of a nightmare that the woman thinks is very disturbing, but she hopes her plan this time can arouse the spirit of Eden to forget her past and start living her future with joy.