Black Swan's
Unexpected Feeling (One Hundred Thirty Nine)
Srak Sruk's! Srak Sruk's!
“Ahh, I can't sleep!” erang Olivia was frustrated with her disheveled hair and distended stomach. The woman continued to ruffle her hair irritatedly while occasionally rubbing her distended stomach which had turned six months old. Since a week ago Olivia began to often feel soreness in the back. Sometimes he also felt his back could not be moved when he woke up from his sleep in the morning. But he could do nothing but massage her slowly because the doctor said it was natural for pregnant women like him.
Even according to the doctor, the ache will increase more torturous as the age of the womb is getting bigger.
“You're so noisy. Can you sleep peacefully? I had just closed my eyes thirty minutes ago and you were already teasing me with your noisy movements. Can you calm down and just close your eyes?” snapped Scout ferociously with her huffed face. Olivia returned the man's gaze sharply while rubbing his back that felt sore. Then suddenly her stomach rang loudly in a very embarrassing voice, making Olivia undo her intention to reply to the man's snatch because she felt embarrassed.
“You hungry?”
“This is all because of your son. I can't sleep because my back hurts! And now I suddenly feel hungry, but I ate all my dinner greedily this afternoon. Arghh, I hate to be pregnant! I hate this kid!” shouted Olivia frustrated. Scout stared at the woman flatly, and suddenly he immediately got up from his sleep while extending his hand to Olivia.
“What?”
“Do not hate the child, he is innocent. Come on, I'll make you food.” said the man flat.
Olivia looked at the man with a happy gaze and instantly pulled the man's hand down. Though a few minutes ago he had just been screaming and blaming the baby in the womb, but when he saw the attitude of attention Scout, he was, the woman seemed to have forgotten all her anger just like that. And that has happened often in the last few days, making Scout must always be extra patient in dealing with Olivia. Because after all, the baby is his son. He will not waste his child and wants to see his child born safely later.
“What will you cook for me?” asked Olivia enthusiastically from the direction of the pantry table. The woman seemed to be propping her head up on the table while observing every deft movement of Scout who was preparing various kinds of foodstuffs from inside the refrigerator. The man then glanced at Olivia at a glance and spread his shoulders indifferently at the food ingredients he was preparing on top of the kitchen container. Scout habits when doing something, he does not want to be disturbed by any voices.
“Why are you just putting out a shoulder, I want to hear your answer.” grumbled Olivia was upset. For more than four months of living with Scout, the woman was always annoyed with Scout's cold and flat attitude. Not infrequently Scout ignored him when he asked until he finally gave up and chose to ignore the man all day. But the kind Wills always accompany Olivia and make the woman laugh and forget her regret for Scout. But not always that man will be there for her. Like tonight, Wills would not appear before him if Scout was with him because the man felt he would interfere with his closeness to Scout. Though in all honesty Olivia prefers that the man is always nearby when Scout is with him, because that way he can get rid of his tedious boredom while with Scout.
“Scout, what will you do after this?”
“Cooking food for you and keeping you quiet.” replied Scout directly in a flat tone. Olivia rolled her eyes irritatedly while playing with the salt box that was in front of her in a huff. That's not really the answer he wanted. He asked seriously about the fate of his family. Last time Scout talked about Sian who was still busy looking for him here and there like a madman, and Justice who is now safe in the house of Eden. No matter where the man got the information from, Scout never said it. The man only told him that if in time, he would be returned to his family intact. After that he never discussed it again and just kept quiet with all the Scout plans.
The longer Olivia found it very difficult to distinguish between comfort and love. Now he feels very comfortable with Scout. The man wasn't as bad as he thought. Scout is good, although it often nags because it has a lot of requests. Slowly he makes use of Scout's existence to
fulfill all his desires. Something that he had rarely obtained from Sian. Attention! He may have been too thirsty for the attention of Sian who demanded more understanding from him since the man was injured by an accident.
“What do you think?”
Suddenly Scout asked Olivia while chopping up salmon. Interested in Scout's activities, Olivi walks over to the man and immediately grabs the large knife used by Scout to cut the salmon.
“I'll cut it. You just boil the paste and also the mushrooms.” Olivia commands indifferently with a little pushy. Scout then put the knife in place and just left without saying anything. Sometimes he feels guilty for Olivia for dragging the woman into his troubles. But she can't just let go of Olivia because she's pregnant with her child. If she let go of Olivia now, she was worried that she would do reckless things and harm her child.
“Scout, what happened to my family? Why haven't you talked about it like you used to? How are Justice and Sian?” olivia asked with a face full of questions. Scout glanced at Olivia at a glance, and after that she returned to her almost ripe pasta and mushrooms.
“You don't have to think about them. You better watch your health and my son's, I don't want him to get hurt.”
Reflexes, Olivia immediately turned around while scrambling her waist behind Scout's strapping body. Anxiously, he threw a tomato on Scout and followed it with another tomato toss and also some green vegetables to be cooked by Scout.
“Basic guy cold, stiff, selfish! Why it's as if I'm just a robot to give birth to your child. He's also my son, so don't assume he's just your son. Ahh, I hate you!” olivia yelled annoyed as she continued to throw vegetables at Scout. While Scout looks so overwhelmed in front of Olivia while continuing to fend off the attack of vegetables that have now littered the front of her blue shirt.
“Stop! What are you doing. Olivia!” scout's memory was firm, but completely ignored by Olivia. The woman continued to shower Scout with a variety of vegetables that she could expect while sticking out her tongue mocking.
“I won't stop. Let's reply me if you can.” taunted Olivia while running away from Scout. Disenchanted with Olivia's childish attitude, Scout finally decides to avenge Olivia and immediately runs forward chasing after Olivia who has run away from her.
“Hey, stop! You must feel my vengeance.” Scout shouted loudly with a tomato in his hand. I don't know what the man is thinking right now, but he looks really silly with a red tomato in his hand. Though all this time he had always been cold and had never been interested in silly things like this. But in an instant, Olivia can smash through that rigid wall and make it look more human than ever.
“Scout, chase me! Hahahaa, you suck.” tease Olivia from the direction of the living room. Scout growled softly and immediately sped up his run to catch up to Olivia. A Scout Voyage could definitely catch Olivia easily, let alone the woman being pregnant. It would be a shame for him if he could not catch the woman and let her continue to ridicule her with that disgusting face.
“Awas you Olivia, I will make you pay for all your deeds to me.”
With a quick movement, Scout darted straight ahead, crashing through all the furniture that was inside the living room to get Olivia. The noise of falling things and things shifting from her place was completely indifferent to her, and she just kept running to get that nimble Olivia.
Meanwhile, Olivia seemed to be laughing loudly in front of Scout while continuing to step her legs up and down so that the man could not catch her. It turns out that playing chases with a stiff guy like Scout is quite fun for him. Even he felt like he enjoyed it and did not care at all about his distended stomach that was swaying to and fro along with his very agile footsteps. He is sure, the content must be strong and will not be problematic just because he ran around here and there. Moreover, according to some articles that are often read lately, running is very good for smoothing the blood flow of pregnant women.
Hup!
“Because of you!” grinning Scout with a horrible face. Olivia who was inside the Scout's decapitation was immediately suffocated in shock as she thrashed loudly with her ear-splitting voice.
“Yak, let me go! Scout, aaa.”
With a prickly Scout immediately tickled Olivia's waist and increasingly made Olivia scream loudly because she felt amused.
“Huh, taste! Here's your reply for dirtying my shirt and messing up my kitchen.”
“Hahahaha, geez.... I hahahahaa, will not do it again. hahahaa.” please Olivia in a disjointed voice. Scout then removed her hand from Olivia's waist and allowed the woman to take in as much air as she had just left the woman out of breath due to too much air.
With staggered steps, Olivia began to walk away from Scout, but her unbalanced steps made her almost fall to the floor, slumping over, yet Scout swiftly caught him and looked at him full of worry.
“Note your step, you can fall.” Scout advice is flat, but implies a thick tinge of worry in his tone. Olivia smiled wryly and immediately walked slowly towards the sofa that was in the middle of the room.
“You know, sometimes you're so considerate and so sweet. Honestly, I love it.” Olivia said sincerely with a gentle smile on her face. Scout twitched his shoulders indifferently and immediately walked away towards the kitchen. His closeness today with Olivia was not something he had to respond joyfully to. Let's just say it's just entertainment in the middle of his heart's immortality.
While stirring her cream sauce in the pot, Scout began to think about her future as well as the baby who was currently in Olivia's womb. To be honest all this time he lived just following the life path outlined by God to him. There was no future, and there was never any plan for the future because he did not want to plan anything. For him the future is uncertain and at times can hurt him. But after Olivia's presence in her life as well as Olivia's pregnancy, her thoughts about the future gradually begin to change. Now he feels like planning
something for his little family. Sometimes her little heart screamed to keep Olivia next to her along with the child she was carrying. But she once promised Olivia that she would let go after she gave birth. And he certainly could not do anything to attract it all. As a true man, he must always keep his word. Even if he is not a good man and can be said to be a jerk, he will not withdraw his own words.
“What's with me?” muttered Scout quietly with a blank look forward. At first glance the shadow of his beautiful childhood immediately swirled around in his head, complete with the sound of his laughter that sounded loud as he was playing base ball with his father. The memory never leaves his head, and it will be a reminder that feels so sad for him. Sometimes he also imagined the same thing about his son later. He wanted to raise the child with an abundance of love and he wanted to have a happy whole family. He did not want the child in the womb Olivia to feel what he felt so far. He doesn't want that to happen. Enough of him to feel it, not for his son.
“Scout, where's my food? I'm hungry.” call Olivia from the front. Suddenly, the woman walked towards him with her hand stroking her stomach gently. Whether it was a conscious gesture or an instinctive gesture as a mother, Scout clearly felt her heart warm to see that. Olivia seemed to love her son too.
“Sit down, and eat your food!” scout orders are flat and cold as usual. The man placed a plate of pasta with cream sauce and salmon meat on the bar table, then helped Olivia to sit on a fairly high bar stool.
Seeing the results of Scout's mouth-watering cooking, Olivia's round eyes immediately shone with interest with saliva that almost dripped from the corner of her lips. I felt so happy just looking at the food. His stomach that was initially a little turbulent, suddenly the taste disappeared instantly, replaced with hunger and the desire to devour all the food greedily. He then immediately grabbed the fork and spoon proffered by Scout, and after that he immediately ate the paste with greed.
“Scout, this is delicious. Thank you very much.” said Olivia cheerfully while continuing to devour her paste. Scout smiled wryly and muttered to sit next to Olivia while gulping down her can of beer. Suddenly Olivia thrust a spoonful of pasta right in front of her mouth, but then she shook her head because she did not want to take Olivia's nutritional rations.
Nutrition of his child
“Open your mouth, you also have to eat.” command Olivia a little pushy. Scout took the tiny hand away from her lips and pointed it right in front of Olivia's own lips. He did not want to eat the food because it was for Olivia, not for him.
“That's your food. I'm not hungry.”
“But I want you to eat it. Try it, it's very tasty.” persuade Olivia again stubborn. Scout still shook her head in annoyance next to Olivia and turned her face the other way. But as she did not run out of sense, Olivia immediately rose from the top of her high chair, and the woman circled Scout's body to force the man to eat her homemade pasta.
“What? Why are you so stubborn. I don't want to eat it, the food is yours and..”.
Suddenly Scout hung up his words as he felt hesitant to say them. Sometimes he himself felt strange to say the word my son in front of Olivia, and make Olivia as if only as a placeholder for the growth and development of his son in there.
“And what?” ask Olivia curiously. Scout exhaled slowly and chose to open her mouth as quickly as possible so that Olivia would shut up and resume eating.
“And my son. The food was for you and my son.”
Instantly Olivia turned to Scout with teary eyes and almost cried. Perplexed, Scout then touches Olivia's face while trying to string the words together to explain to the woman. But unexpectedly Olivia actually hugged her body tightly and immediately cried on her shoulders.
“Thanks, thanks Scout. Even though you're evil and have kidnapped me from my family, but you've always been watching me and watching my pregnancy. I really feel more appreciated here. All this time I never got an overflow of love from Sian. Whereas I have no family since childhood.” isak Olivia on the shoulder of Scout. “Keep being a good Scout like this. I know you're not a bad guy. You were just obsessed with me at first, but you became in love with this child as time went on. Suppose
we are found in a better way. I never regretted knowing you, Scout. You're a good man.”
Scout was silent in place with his hands hanging in the air. His intention to return Olivia's embrace came to a standstill after hearing all the words that the woman had said to him.
So all this time he thought it was all because of that baby?
Scout feels exactly what Olivia said was a little wrong. He did not treat her well just because of the child. He sincerely treated Olivia well because he felt guilty for her, and also felt he had to do it. Since he took Olivia away from the house, he immediately thought that Olivia was his responsibility. He had never known Olivia or the woman before. But he felt like he had known Olivia for a long time. He feels an attachment to Olivia, which he never realized all along.
“Scout, will you let me go after this child is born?”
“Later I will definitely let you go. Returns you to your family.”
Those words felt a little heavy for Scout to say. She did not want to let go of Olivia and wanted her to be next to her, along with her son. But he felt he had no right to keep Olivia by his side because Olivia wasn't supposed to be with him from the beginning. It is that
robbing the woman of her life and forcing her to hang on by her side with the child. So does she have the right to have Olivia stay by her side?
Meanwhile, Olivia was in pain and disappointed with Scout's remarks. During these two weeks he continued to think about his fate after giving birth later, he then felt unwilling if kept away from his son. A speck of tears involuntarily welled up in Olivia's eyes. His feelings are confused now. Sian and Scout are two men who now have a thin different position in their hearts.
There's nothing wrong between Scout and Sian, which is what Olivia thought after months of following wherever Scout took her. His heart was worried after feeling all the attention that Scout had given him was like an opium. Salah himself used to scold him harshly. Sometimes it's what infiltrates Olivia's heart if she feels heavy about her future that will be separated from Scout. If Sian knew, the man would definitely regret having wasted it all the time trying to explain everything. Isn't it completely wrong? Huh, again Olivia tried various ways to secure her position. Obviously, he was wrong to enjoy all of this.
In the end both Olivia and Scout are only able to hug each other to channel their feelings that they never expressed. They just hope, hopefully one day they can say it and be honest with each other.
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Eden put her nightgown together, walked quietly out of her room so as not to wake up Aciel who had just fallen asleep an hour and a half ago. The cold and the silence of the night immediately greeted Eden as she managed to safely exit her room.
Poor Aciel, Eden thought nothing. It had been months that Aciel had not rested properly. Her husband is busy helping Sian find the unrevealed Olivia. Though all the ways they have done, but the results are always nil. Sometimes Eden thinks, maybe Scout is a smart guy that they can't underestimate
just like that. It was evident that the man's movements were more slippery than an eel though. Strangely, however, he never received any messages from Olivia. She used to think that Olivia could at least send her an SOS message while they were stopping somewhere on the run. But as months went by, the woman never once sent her an SOS message. Even now Eden is sure if Olivia's stomach has grown increasingly enlarged because the age of the fetus has almost entered the seventh month.
Eden paused briefly in front of Ciara's room when she heard Justice's faint whining.
“Nightmare.” murmured Eden and immediately entered into her daughter's room which was only illuminated by the light from a sleeping lamp. In the middle of the big bed with a dominating pink color, Ciara was seen sleeping soundly facing Justice. But Justice did not look as comfortable as Ciara as the little girl continued to furrow her brows while letting out a small whining sound from her little lips. Eden then walked up to the bed and tried to stroke Justice's head several times so that the little girl was calm again.
“Sshhh... mommy is here.”.
Having lived too long in the house of Eden, now the call of Justice for Eden has turned into a mommy, just like the other children of Eden. Eden felt sorry for seeing Justice who had not felt at home for more than six months. Sometimes Sian comes to see Justice if the man
missed daughter. Or if Sian wanted to take his daughter for a walk, Eden would have allowed him and never forbade Sian to do anything with her daughter. He quite understood the feeling of Sian who was getting crushed by the day. The hope that Eden had seen was very turbulent from the face of Sian, now increasingly dimmed. Perhaps the man no longer had any hope for his wife. Given that Sian also often snapped at Olivia before the woman was kidnapped, she became increasingly faced with a deep sense of guilt in her heart.
Eden tidied back the blanket that slumped to the chin of Ciara and Justice. In silence Eden hopes that the two sweet girls are always protected by God. Do not let them suffer the same fate as their broken mother. Yeah, it's broken. She's a broken and abandoned little girl.
While tiptoeing, Eden exited her daughter's room and closed the door quietly. When he was about to turn around, he was suddenly startled by the appearance of Aciel behind him while bare-chested. The blue striped pajamas that the man was wearing had slumped and was only held back by his sturdy pelvic bones. If Eden was another woman, she would definitely cheer up over Aciel's sexy performance in the middle of a very disheveled night.
“Nightmare too?” asked Eden gently.
“I lost my sugar, mom.” Aciel tries to imitate Louise's playful, yet unsuccessful, style of speaking. The man actually ended up feeling disgusted by his overly contrived tone.
“You want coffee?”
“Susu.”
“Aneh.” said Eden while sipping shoulders slowly. Aciel was seen walking after him as Eden walked first to get down to the kitchen. “Why do you want to drink milk?”
“I haven't drank it in a long time. Being a baby again seems fun.”
Eden chuckled at the end of the last staircase, his steps deliberately made slow so that he could walk in tandem with Aciel and hug his sturdy arms. “I'll bet, you must have last done something like this when you were five.”
“Entailah, but maybe your guess is correct.” replied Aciel indifferently. The dimly lit kitchen landscape with the shadow of expensive furniture refracted by moonlight became the first sight as they entered the kitchen. With a definite step, Eden walked towards the light switch and turned it on in one jolt.
“It's better. I'm afraid I'd be wrong to put salt in your drink if I let the atmosphere stay dim.” cluck Eden slowly. He deftly prepared the kettle and filled it with water. After that he cooked it on a stove four furnaces that every day always rubbed by his servants until shiny. It seems like a pleasure to be in the kitchen all day. Eden could imagine that happiness when he saw his very complete kitchen utensils. Just as seen in a professional kitchen belonging to a renowned cook.
“Much sugar or little sugar?” eden asked as he prepared two medium-sized cups on top of the kitchen container. The agile movement of Eden to move from one shelf to another became a very pleasant sight to see Aciel who was sleepy on his desk.
“Very little sugar. Do you know what, Ed?” His eyes could not be separated from the slender body of Eden that was so tempting. Then as Eden turned her head towards her, Aciel immediately whistled flirtatiously while pointing towards Eden's slightly exposed nightgown. “Sexy. The lady with the nightgown was slightly open and was moving agilely in the kitchen. I like that.”
“Yes, basic!”
The sound of a boiling water kettle distracts Eden from Aciel. He quickly turned off the stove and poured the hot water into the glass he had prepared. “The longer I worry about you and Olivia. Has there been no sign of Olivia?” While stirring milk in a glass, Eden tried to open the topic of conversation about Olivia. It had been two days that he had not talked about it with Aciel. The man is preoccupied with factory construction projects, economic shocks caused by massive demonstrations in Washington, trade union demands asking for wage increases, and various problems that Eden cannot underestimate. Aciel takes care of all that outside, plus Olivia's problem never finds a bright spot. That's dizzying.
“Still the same. Sian hires slow people. I've done it as you suggested.”
“That's great.” Eden walked over to Aciel and gave a gentle swipe at the man's head. “If you interfere too much with deploying people you know, Sian will definitely be offended.”
“Indeed.” Reply Aciel lazily. Feeling that he had the opportunity to indulge in Eden's waist, Aciel immediately used it to hug Eden's waist as much as he wanted. Now Eden's attention is clearly divided and cannot focus on him. The opportunity to buy Eden like this is a rare opportunity that he cannot get if the five children wake up to enliven his world that is already too crowded by problems.
“Why did Olivia never send us a message to report her condition?”
“Why do you think?” ask Aciel to ask. He wanted to make Eden guess with his own way of thinking. After all what can make a married and childlike woman kidnapped by her captors without ever thinking of seeking reinforcements?
“That I'm afraid, that man hurt Olivia to the point that Olivia didn't have a chance to send us messages.”
“I don't think like that.” Aciel's voice sounded like a murmur to Eden as Aciel uttered it while immersing her lips on the surface of her nightgown.
“What did you say, Ace?” re-energize Eden again.
“Sini, sit!” Aciel pulls Eden into his lap and traps his beautiful wife with his firm hands. “In time, I think Olivia will go home by herself.” whispered Aciel casually. Eden tried to observe Aciel's face solemnly, and the man had absolutely no worries for Olivia.
“You look very sure.”
“There is nothing better than a belief. Confidence makes you calm. Confidence will protect from fear.”
“Although I was lazy to admit it, but you were right. I felt helpless when I had no faith in my heart. The disappearance of Olivia caused a lot of uncertain speculation in my heart. Bad things often float in my mind and make me unsettled.”
“Then you have to be sure that Olivia is okay.” said Aciel trying to calm down. He pulled out Eden's head and forced her to lean against his chest. “You have five children who need your protection. If you get sick from thinking too much about bad things, who will protect you? Olivia's business, leave it to us. Later if the time comes, he will definitely return by himself.” whispered Aciel softly full of seriousness. Somehow Eden felt that Aciel's words were the truth. Right now Olivia is definitely living a more than good life out there, and she is waiting for the right moment to go home.
