Black Blue

Episode 9

I was still awake on my bed, I saw the face of Leon who was sleeping right next to me. What the hell is going on?

How's your past?

Who are you really, mas? Question after question kept on disturbing my feelings. What has happened and I know nothing.

I saw the clock next to my bed showing at 4 a.m. But I was still awake, all night I heard a few times Leon called Sera by name.

Who's Sera?

Who's Riany?

I don't have the courage to ask Leon directly.

My feelings were mixed up erratically, there was resentment, there was anger, and there was a growing curiosity.

Oh my God how can I withstand all these feelings?

my chest felt tight, like something was lodged in my chest and blocked my breathing.

I heard the sound of the Adhan chanting calling me, I walked on the floor of my room and immediately did my duty as a Muslim.

After the prayer I immediately went up and tracked the white floor of my room ceramics to the kitchen. I try to keep myself busy in the kitchen. Just to forget last night.

Pyaaaaar I accidentally nudged a glass teapot filled with water next to me. Oh my goodness Shena, can not just once do not make a noise in the kitchen? I scolded myself hoping this tightness in my chest diminished a bit.

"Are you hurt?" leon's voice from behind sounded anxious.

"Sorry mas, I .. I." I passed away leaving him. I don't know what I'm describing my feelings right now.

I put my body on the park bench next to the house. It felt as though a cold, dripping water was touching my skin. There is no visible sunlight that will soon welcome the morning. Only a vast black sky, with a hint of moonlight still remained faint. I closed my two tired eyes from waking up all night.

I breathed the cool air in the morning cooling the burning soul. Burned because of what? maybe jealousy or... Am I jealous? To be sure, he had not told her anything about the two women. Then he hasn't considered me his wife yet.

I opened my eyes, I saw a slightly cloudy stretch of sky. The morning air calms my troubled mind. Morning can always make my mood better.

"More... Today's breakfast is outside, a good idea." Leon offered a plate of omelets with a smile. It seems like he forgot what he did last night.

I refused the plate, there was no taste for me to eat. How can I eat with tightness lodged in the chest. Was there no intention of making Leon tell me about last night?

"What's up, Shen? You don't like it?" His eyes are looking at me softly.

"I'm not hungry" I answered briefly.

"Okay, eat it later."

Leon turned around and brought back the two plates in his hand.

"Mas.." call me before Leon goes far.

"Yes" she replied, looking at me.

"Mas... I work." Leon sighed and went back to my side, he put the plate on the bench. Fill the sitting distance between me and him.

"Why? how about this again?" He grabbed the tip of my head, and stroked it.

Like ice entering my heart, it was cold, cold, and soothing, every time Leon stroked my head gently.

Like there was something in every touch, he was even able to dispel my uneasiness with just one touch.

"Money at the ATM isn't enough?"

No mas, I was just upset when you called out the name of another woman in your sleep. I was upset when I saw you laughing with the other woman in front of me. If, I could say all those words out loud in front of Leon mas, maybe this sense of tightness would be reduced.

"I just want to stand on my own feet, Mom. I don't want to trouble you."

"I'm your husband, Shen. Nothing troublesome, you understand me. I can't let you be independent."

He realized he was my husband, but why didn't he say anything about the two women?

"So when will I be, Mom. I have to hang my life on you?"

"Your whole life. I can be the crutch of your life, I can count on you, Shen. Believe it." He took my hand and held it.

Cessss like there was a splash of water splashed into the hot coals that were in my heart. God, why is this so much of my heart, how wide is what really happens to my heart?

"I can spend your money in one day, Mas." teasingly

"No problem. Then, I'll be more eager to make more money." he spoke with his lips on his back.

He began to take his breakfast plate, and bribed it into his mouth.

"Mas." call me.

"Hmm."

"I opened Olshop Mas, yes." I said.

"What do you want to sell?" he returned to scooping his plates and this time he bribed me.

"Sell cake."

"Cake slap?" with a soft tone.

My lips are pursed, why do you like to tease me. My mood has just improved, she's back to feed me. I refused his bribe. Then he smiled wryly.

"Yeah, the important thing is you don't get out of the house."

I smiled with satisfaction at his last words. I took my breakfast plate and ate my breakfast quickly.

After breakfast I immediately went to the kitchen to prepare the ingredients and immediately do a commotion in the kitchen again. After half a day, serve some kind of cake. I took photos one by one and I put them into some of my sosmed accounts.

Just wait for the order to come in and I can market my own cake. Who knew I could open my own cake shop. It had only just started but wishful thinking had already floated off in the distance.

Dreaming is good, but in reality.

It's been a few days since I promoted my cake but the orders that came were just a few. I took a deep breath, it turned out that starting a business was very difficult.

I stirred up my spoonful lethargic. Mas Leon came and opened his laptop on the dining table. He noticed my lethargic face with a slightly withered smile. I don't mind him, lazy to argue. I no longer have energy, not tired, but there is no spirit.

"How's your business?"

I just shook my head at Leon's question.

"Don't despair, this is just the beginning, must keep the spirit yes."

I just nodded while playing the flour spoon in my hand.

"Kok, isn't that spirit?"

I just shrugged my shoulders, and sighed.

"How many days has it been, how mushy has it been, Shen? tired of?"

"Capek why mas? I'm not excited because there's nothing cool."

Leon laughed amusedly, this is why I don't want to tell him the same story. He will surely laugh at me. I pursed my lips, he always rubbed me like this. He should have encouraged me, you mas.

"Cock pouting anyway? let me help you with the promo."

I walked over and pulled the chair next to Leon. Mas Leon helped promote her social media accounts.

About fifteen minutes later there were several responses from several accounts. And the average response that comes in is all girls.

"Someone asked for a free fare. How's it?" ask Leon.

"Jaudah has increased the price" I replied listlessly.

"Well, but I told you that price. How about a ride?"

"Jaudah mas paid for his money."

"Why did I pay anyway?" ask Leon back.

"So who's donk?"

"You, you don't want a promotion anyway." Leon smiled little and shook his head.

I really like not happy, when mas Leon promotion really cepet really that response. Even the girls all over again, like there's a sense of sprain. I pouted back to see those responses.

"Kok still pouting anyway?" ask Leon.

I just shook my head. In her eyes my face was fixed. Then he pulled my head and landed a kiss on my cheek.

Mas Leon still noticed the hue of my face, the more embarrassed I looked at him the more red my face looked. Now in added heart beat that fast.

"I'm sorry." Leon's voice sounded soft.

You're sorry anyway?

what's wrong with that?

I looked at the face of Leon who started to show a flat expression.

"Look, during the weekend let me take you, you can make free fare for weekends and holidays. How's it?" leon's voice broke the awkward atmosphere between us.

I think Leon's words are true too, why don't I just try.

"But, aren't you troubled?"

"Son, you can come with me too."

"Thank you, sir."

Mas Leon nodded but his facial expression still remained flat. Why the hell is Leon, sometimes his mood likes to change in a short time. Sometimes I feel like he's so close to me, sometimes he feels so foreign to me. You're always full of puzzles.

In the first week the order was quite a lot. And then downhill, indeed every effort there must be ups and downs. But beyond my expectations every weekend or holiday heart orders always flood.

Until I sometimes ask Shima for help. I think all this time, because the promo is free of charge every weekend or indeed cake I have started to be accepted on the market. There is something else behind it all.

Just like the previous weekend, Leon mas today also came home with a few plastic bags. He came home with a slightly tired face. Today he came home a little more than usual.

Before Maghrib he had come home, today he went home.

Mas Leon put the canteen on the pantry and without saying anything he went straight into the room.

"What is this mbak?" Shima took the plastic bag apart.

"Look at it." I said as I prepared dinner.

"Sir, this is a lot of loh." continued Shima while searching the entire contents.

I came closer and saw the contents myself. There are several kinds of snacks, there are also cakes, flowers and parfumes.

"Mas Leon bought this for mbak? I'm making cake, I'm buying it again?"

I just shrugged my shoulders and passed preparing dinner. Leon often comes home with all of that. But Leon didn't say where he was from, he always put it all on the dinner table or pantry without saying a word.

I saw Leon come out of the room with his black shirt and a slightly tired face. He pulled out a dining table chair and sat down while playing his game.

"How much do you want to go home?"

"Yes, I had a seminar. So as soon as I'm ready between orders I leave immediately." he replied with eyes still staring at his goal.

I immediately rushed to serve dinner, I peeked at a little device mas Leon. Wonder what the hell he saw. Without me knowing it turns out that Leon is aware of what I'm doing.

He rested his left elbow on his thigh and placed his chin on his left palm. He climbed next to his eyebrows while looking at me. I who was aware of his sight immediately passed away, but Leon quickly pulled my arm.

"See what the hell?" he played both of his eyebrows and smiled widely.

"See what? I'm arranging food again." I replied trying to avoid.

Leon took my hand and gave his phone to mine.

"Look if you're curious."

"Ih, no Mas. I don't care." I returned the phone quickly.

"And I didn't say you were nervous. If you realize it means you are really interested." mas Leon laughed exploded.

"I told you I didn't look." I pinched Leon's arm and pinched his waist in turn.

He just narrowed his eyes and tried to avoid my pinch. I tried to cover up my embarrassment by pinching it.

"Ein...?" Deheman Shima's voice stopped the pinch from me.

"Don't forget I'm here" Shima said.

"Don't show adult scenes, mbak" he continued.

"Father let you learn." replied Leon casually.

"Ih.. what the hell is mas." I pinched back Leon's waistband.

"What finger is the crab claw anyway?"

I pulled back my hand that pinched Leon's waist. I just realized, how much I pinched Leon mas to cover up my mistakes.

"Mas, where's this from?" shima asked as she pointed at the parcel above the pantry.

"Oh.it's from her fans Shena. Take it all home."

"Yes... Why my fans? yes the fans are it." I defended myself.

"That's your customer, so be your fan." said Leon.

"Cie. mas Leon kayak Oppa aja many of his fans. I've just given up Idol." ledek Shima.

"Udah old dong me. Children don't have it yet, it's Opa aja."

"Not Oppa that's Mas ee. Oppa idol Korea knows." Shima replied a little annoyed.

"Oh... Don't know." replied Leon lightly.

I smiled when I saw the two of them arguing. Immediately I prepared the dish that was not ready and rearranged it on the table.

"Assalamuailakum mbak." Shine's voice came from the front.

"Wa'alaikum salam. Uh all yuk's dinners." take me when you see him coming.

Without saying much, we ate dinner that night. Sometimes I hear Shima and Leon's mas being teased.

Shima is easily familiar with people. It's different from me having a hard time interacting with strangers.

After dinner Shima helped me clean up the dirty dishes and then they came home.

As usual, Shima will kiss me before she gets home. Same with Shine who still likes to kiss my forehead just like when I was a girl.

After their bike disappeared from view, I also wanted to move back in.

"Shena." call Leon gently before we go in.

"Yes." Yeah."

"I want to ask, but you're not offended."

"What do you want to ask?"

"Shine is Shima's twin?"

"Yes, so?"

"Well, Shine's not your real sister."

"Why are you asking? yes it is impossible, Mother people are the ones who gave birth to Shine kok." replied I defend.

"Abis you're really friendly anyway, like he's not your little brother." replied Leon with a little embarrassment.

"What?" I laughed at Leon's statement.

"Mas, are you jealous?" ask me with full investigation.

"Why should I be jealous?" he answered but turned his face away. Like I was avoiding my sight.

"Cie. mas Leon was jealous." I stuck it out while tickling his waist.

He ran in and tried to avoid us. I chased him and tried to tickle him again. It's funny to see her blushing face, replace me who teased her at this time.

No one believes we married without love. Anyone who sees this kind of view must think that we are indeed a loving couple.

I tried to accept you, but it's not easy to love you.

There is still a deep wound in my heart. I need time to heal her and reopen my heart. I hope you can wait patiently for me.