Black Blue

Episode 44 (END)

"Dear one." said Leon while hugging my body from behind.

"Morning, Mas." I replied still busy with my activities in the kitchen.

"Here, Sera Sama Mas. You focus on your cooking." Mas Leon pulled Sera in my sling.

"Eh, Mas Sera does not wear diapers, how dirty will Mas's clothes be?"

"You can change." Leon pulled my head and kissed me gently on my forehead.

I just smiled, watching Leon's big back leave the kitchen.

I prepare a plate of rice and soup, breakfast every morning for Kyra. I placed it on the floor right in front of Kyra who was currently playing.

Due to the habit of having Sera, Kyra always eats by herself.

After I finished cooking, I set some dishes on the table.

"Mas, breakfast first." I ordered when the jam served some dishes in front of Leon mas.

"Aren't you eating Shena?"

"Later, I'm not hungry yet Mas." I pulled Sera in Leon's lap and gave her breast milk.

"Kyra, here go up. Eat with Dad."

"Mas, don't take care of Kyra's breakfast, she used to be alone."

"Kan, you are again."

"No, what time is it? how late are you?"

"Yes, Dear Mama. Later if Mas's late salary is reduced right, Mama does not want the salary Mas reduced." replied Leon a little upset.

I just smiled and shook my head. Leon began to feed the rice in his plate.

"Shena." call me Leon gently.

I put my head up, a bribe pointed at me.

"You have to eat, I don't want anything to happen like yesterday" said Leon as he put a mouthful into my mouth.

"Kyra here Daddy's bribe." call me Leon gently.

"Mas, a real breakfast. Later you are late." I said bring home.

"Right now I need to pay more attention to you. Because it's free to work hard if you're abandoned. So don't take it and follow Mas's orders." Leon's back to feeding my mouth food.

I just smiled and went back. Leon is not someone who is difficult to work with. Leon is also a very sensitive man.

Actually at this time my burden feels much reduced, maybe because of the attention of Leon's more pronounced. It's not difficult to invite Leon mas to work together to take care of the house, but somehow I was silent and did not want to invite him to talk.

I looked at Leon's face, his lips smiling widely while eating with Kyra. Could it be that Leon's not tired if I burden him again with homework?

Before long, Leon glanced at the watch on his left hand. Quickly his hand greeted the water glass and downed it.

"Dad goes to work, baby." She said to my little girl. A kiss landed on Leon's cheek.

"Mas is leaving, Shen." Now Leon's mas turns to say goodbye to me. He stretched out his hand to kiss me.

"Be careful, Mommy."

"You don't push yourself too much anymore yes, if you can't just let it work, I'm done working together."

"Yes, Mas." I replied.

"When Kyra and Sera sleep you also go to sleep. Take care of your health, because if you get sick, this house will lose its heartbeat."

"What the hell Mas, so much so." I pinched Leon's arm, furious.

"Shena." Leon pulled my face and put his lips on mine.

"Mas don't do that, there's Kyra there."

"But it doesn't have to be that way either, Mom."

"Huh ... You make Mas males go to work."

"Mas." I said a little pressing.

"OK, okay. I know, Honey. Yasudah we are leaving. Love you Shena." said Leon as he walked out of the dining room.

****

I opened my bedroom window, I pulled my muscles which felt a little sore.

Prannks

The noise started coming from the kitchen. I immediately ran before the kitchen became even more messy.

I saw Mas Leon who was serving breakfast, was busy cooking while talking about Sera.

"Morning is war." I said walking over and took Sera from her trunk.

"Are you awake, baby?" asked Leon, his eyes were still busy flipping the food he was cooking at this time.

"Just think about it, the sound of cooking is noisy" I said as I walked away.

Mas Leon asked for my duty to prepare breakfast on holidays. At first I didn't agree, but Leon couldn't be about either. So you feel it.

Before long I heard Kyra whining, waking up from her fussy voice all night long.

I approached my oldest girl and took her to the bathroom. After being ready to bathe Kyra, I pulled one of the chairs on the dining table.

It's been a well-organized western food that hasn't touched my tongue in a long time.

"Have not eaten your cooking for a long time, Mas." I said passion.

"Give it up Shen. Just pantes your emotions are often unstable, it turns out cooking while carrying a child is difficult."

I smiled when I heard Leon's words.

"So if it's my weekend I'm the one who made breakfast?"

"No dong, still Mas. But you take care of the kids yeah, let's not war anymore like that."

I smiled and fed the food on my plate. While Leon is still looking after both of our children.

Actually all this feels beautiful if we accept each other and enjoy each other's roles. Work together and try to share problems with each other.

If you just stay quiet and want to be understood, then everything will be a problem. Good communication is necessary. Because neither he nor I would know what to want if not talked about.

Marriage is not just about happiness. But also how to give in to each other and understand.

I thought I could do it all without Leon's help. Turns out I was wrong, I'm not without Leon's help either. Many times I was angry because Leon mas who did not understand my situation.

I am the one who does not want to understand, I am selfish and always want to be understood. Leon and the other man, the same, must be talked about in order to understand.

Even though we are married, our minds are different. The problems we face every day are also different. It is only necessary to be open to each other, the desires of the heart or what we think.

"Darling," call me gentle Leon.

"Yes,"

"Help me eat dong, ak." Leon opened his mouth wide.

I rolled my smile, and started feeding the food into Leon's mouth.

You said, Our happiness is a time like this. We work together to keep our homes warm.

After what we've been through, the bitter, sweet that I swallowed myself as long as you're gone. I didn't think I could get through it and take it back.

Maybe if I were selfish then, I would never be as comfortable and happy as I am right now, when I am with you. Because without you I'm incomplete, without you I can't laugh nor cry.

I will try and keep trying, for the wholeness of our family. I will continue to walk side by side with you, to reach jannah with you.