Black Blue

Episode 33

I took out a couple of pairs of Leon's clothes and I put them in a suitcase. While Leon mas still fun to play his device, while lying in bed.

Huf ... I let my breath, just a moment standing I was tired, I sat on the lip of the bed while cleaning the clothes that would be brought Leon mas.

"Tomorrow before going to the airport, we go to Sakiy's house first. USG first."

"Yes, Mommy." I answered briefly.

I could no longer hold back my tears, from now on this clear circle always flooded my cheeks. But I try not to voice my cries, let him flow by himself.

Mas Leon wrapped his hands around my stomach and buried his face in the bed. Without him saying anything I know he's also hard to go. Should you go Mas? can't you just stay here?

"Mas, you're there to take care of your health." I said breaking the silence.

"Hmmm." replied Leon mas who still buried his face in the mattress.

"Get the food too."

"Emm."

"Take care of your heart too."

"Yes, bring it." He's wriggling his body.

"Remember me, Mom."

"Yes and yes. All your questions I'll answer are yes, dear." I smiled at Leon's reply.

"Prepare all the clothes for tomorrow, yes." he continued.

"Yes, what do you want to wear tomorrow, Mas?"

"Well, what kind of clothes do you like to see?" leon asked me again.

"I love to see you wear black, you're hot in black."

"I like to see you don't wear clothes. Sexy if you don't wear a shirt." Leon's eyes glanced mischievously.

"You did, Mas." I laughed, but the clear circle kept flowing with my laughter.

Mas Leon grabbed both of my cheeks and kissed my soft lips. He hugged my body very tightly. After a long time I let go of his embrace, moved away from Leon and opened a little room window.

I breathe air just to refresh my feelings, my chest feels so tight because it holds back the crying that I don't want to spill.

I came back crying and this time I didn't want to hold her back. Let there be a little relief in the chest. A rather painful contraction from inside my stomach began to feel. The baby knew I was not okay.

"Ah... Au.." I held my stomach that felt a little hard.

"Shena." Leon got out of bed and held me. He put my body gently on the bed.

"You okay? does it still hurt?" ask her to worry.

"Yes, just a little cramp." I knitted my eyebrows together with pain.

"We go to the hospital." he asked.

"No need, just a contraction. It's also quiet." I replied calmly.

"I beg you not to be too sad, remember your content is weak. Keep our son inside ya." mas Leon gently caressed my forehead.

I grabbed Leon's hand and kissed his back. I put the back of Leon's hand on my cheek. Back the clear circle adorned my cheek which from yesterday was wet and never seemed to dry.

"Based on the whiny, don't cry on and on. I don't like it."

"So how should I go? he won't stop." Leon smiled and pulled my head back, hugging me.

"Will you go to work, not die, why cry?" I pinched Leon's chest hearing his talk. Just indiscriminate by the way.

"Tomorrow morning cook breakfast fried rice."

"Yes." I wiped my eyes again.

"But the taste must be bland, like you first cooked for, Mas." said Mas Leon while teasing me.

"Ih, nasty. That day said it was good."

"Whatever your hand makes, it'll taste good." tease.

"Gombal you, Mas." I pinched Leon's arm and chuckled.

"That dong laughs, don't cry on."

I can't laugh Mas, even when my lips laugh though, this clear circle still accompanies my laughter. Losing you from my sight is heavier than anything I've ever experienced.

There are many things I have realized when I am with you, and one of them is that I have fallen in love with you. I don't know since when, but when you're by my side I'll continue to feel complete and light.

***

This morning we went to the hospital before leaving for the airport, I did an ultrasound ahead of schedule. I held onto Mas Leon's hand tightly from the moment I was in the car. I jolted my head over Leon's shoulder. Enjoying these moments with my husband.

"Ri, last night Shena contracted. Is that not a problem?"

"It's okay if there's no introduction. But Shena should be able to take care of herself, not be too stressed. Because the content of him from the beginning is weak." explained Riany shortly after the USG was done.

"No, don't stress, don't cry." Leon told me.

"Are you leaving this morning, Leon?"

"Yes." replied Leon's heavy. " Don't bother Andra, he's doing a lot of work while I'm gone." Leon continued. Welcomed Riany's pinch on Leon's arm. They laughed while whispering.

This sight made me stifle, but Leon was so friendly in front of me. What does this mean, Mas? I cried for you last night and you can still laugh jokingly with the other woman in front of me.

Again, a circle of tears again adorned my cab cheeks. There's a tightness in my chest that I can't make a sound.

"Kok crying again anyway?" ask Leon while wiping my cheeks.

"Leon, you better not stay in this state of Shena" Riany said as she realized I was crying.

"Keep what should I do, Ri? The chief doctor has said, inevitably yes must be lived." explained mas Leon, firmly.

"Yes, I printed the USG photos so you don't overdo it."

After coming home from the hospital I continued to imagine the attitude of the Leon mas, Leon is insensitive is there really something in hiding to me anyway? she could be as familiar as Riany, ah I shouldn't be stressed or this could be as bad as my baby.

I tried to let go of the incident earlier paddy.

I saw Leon sitting next to me in a black shirt and black jeans. Very charming look, you have to go back mas, whatever happens you have to go back mas.

"Shena, after this you go straight home where you are, let someone take care of you as long as I go" said mas Leon softly.

"Yes" I replied. Actually I want to stay at home, but I have to obey the orders of my husband.

"Take care of our baby, don't worry. I'm there to do work, not play." he explained.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Shena, can I ask you something before you leave?" ask Leon for doubt.

"What, Mas?" many confused.

"Again, I want to hear you say, you love me." I was stunned to hear Leon's words. Has she not felt that I love her all this time?

"Shena, do you love me?" I nodded my head. It's not difficult but I'm not used to saying love to a man. I never even said love to Randy.

"Don't just nod, but say, Shena."

"I'll say, if you come back to me later."

"Well, if that day comes I'll ask for it with a lot of extras."

"What, What addition?"

"Secret." whispered Leon in my ear.

After thirty minutes on the road we reached the airport, I looked back at the face that was about to leave me for three months.

"You're not alone, are you? which friend are you?" my many.

"It's not possible, you're fine" said mas Leon lirih.

"Your mom's going home, right?" ask me with a loud voice.

"Yes, I must be home."

I'm tidying up Leon's shirt shoulders, not really tangled but I want to touch him for longer. I hugged and I hid my face in Leon's chest. Again I can't hold this clear liquid from flowing.

Mas Leon broke out my embrace and kissed my forehead softly.

"Wait for me to come back, and I'll perfect your story. But if I don't return, then my heart will still return to its place. And it's only in your heart."

"Mas, you should go back. Whatever happens, you have to come back to me." My tears broke again hearing Leon's words.

"I also have a hard time leaving you alone, but I believe that God is able to take care of you better than I am." - Leon stroked the tip of my head.

"So you must also believe that God will be able to bring me back to you." I nodded and hugged Leon back.

Oh, my God, can't you stop here? so that I will not part from this creature that you have given me as a protector. Can time stop here, so that she'll always be in my arms.