Black Blue

Episode 5's

Leon POV.

A few months ago, I accidentally met Shena. I can't believe after two years I've been back here and only today I saw him again.

Missing, yes definitely. Shena was the only person I always wanted to see.

I tried to get closer to her place, but she was fighting with someone. Maybe it's her boyfriend, it's been five years, but Shena is still at home with him.

Indeed, I have seen the man many times, driving Shena to his father's post when they were still wearing white gray uniforms first. Shena was unconscious, but I always looked up to her.

Five years ago I met him by accident. Her lips smiled softly, reminding me of someone I had long missed.

His eyes looked so soothing, I saw the figure of a person in those eyes.

He who walks past me and just smiles kindly while staring at me, makes me baper myself. I know what it means, but my heart beats faster because of that smile.

I am just a normal student, still unemployed. Even to eat, I was looking for money.

Because I don't want to burden Aunt Ranti's life. There was no courage to get close to him. Especially since I've seen him being delivered by that guy. I am not brave, even if I just say hello to him.

For years I disappeared from her sight, trying to forget her eyes. But I say his name more and more in prayer.

It doesn't matter to me, she'll be the first sweet memory of my life.

But tonight, after a long time gone. I was reunited with him, and his condition was not okay. There were tears filling his eyes. Her lips were no longer open with a smile. But it was open because of crying.

I'm trying to greet him, uh I don't even have the heart to leave him in that situation. Good intentions are just eating. Eh even keep applying.

There was a confused face when he first heard my proposal. Maybe he doesn't believe in my feelings, but I've never been in fashion. Especially with him, the person I never imagined would be my companion.

Indeed, if people see, the beauty of Shena is ordinary. But for me this Shena is not only beautiful, she is also a healer of past wounds. Her face became even more confused when I said that I was serious about marrying her.

I know, most likely it must have been rejected. Who am I to make him? Maybe he doesn't remember who I am either?

I was only present for a moment in his life, not expecting to be remembered either. Instead of him getting confused mending I ajakin he just go home. Thought.

All the way he looked out the window. I know he's heartbroken right now. I don't mean to make her feelings mixed up either. I just wanted to cheer him up. But I'm not a smart guy to entertain. My life has been flat all along.

want to say proposing just have to work hard nelan spit. Now want to retreat is also impossible, already said, yes thank goodness if he wants to accept.

He got out of my car and tracked down the rocks of his house quickly.

Like he wanted to quickly disappear from my sight. I start the car and play the steering wheel to back off. But my feet hit the brakes quickly, when I saw that he was still standing at the door.

I watched the movements of his face, there must be a problem. Thought.

He turned around and looked at the car. Then come closer to me and knock on the windshield.

I lowered the car glass and pulled out a face to get closer to his face.

"What's up, Shena? Is anyone missing?" ask her.

"No, Mas, it's not, '" he hesitated.

"You ... you .. dare not speak directly to the father about your intentions, mas?"

Oh, is God really? She challenged me to talk to her parents?

Okay, who's afraid!

"All right," I replied quickly.

His face was glued, trusting and disbelieving at my readiness.

Actually there is no preparation, but just desperate for your sake.

I know this is the answer to my prayers all along.

***

And sure enough, yesterday in front of your parents, the witness of the prince, the guests and also God I officially made you wife.

Shena entered the mosque using a light green kebaya. Very graceful and sweet. I couldn't take my eyes off her.

Before Ijab I saw Shena who was so crying. But shena quickly removed it, maybe someone else was unconscious. But I know that Shena was crying earlier.

I don't know why Shena chose me to be her husband, if I was just your escape, I'm sincere.

I looked at her face again before saying Ijab. I saw a lowered Shena as if she knew what I meant. I didn't know it was a sign from her, or shena who wouldn't look at me?

Let it be, right now maybe Shena won't look at me. But in the future my face that you will always miss.

"I received the marriage and the marriage of Shena Zein Assegaf with a gold dowry of 9 grams in cash." One breath but with a million beats from my heart, which was fast-faced. Almost made me die from being too tense.

"Bech .... " Everybody was screaming.

I let go of a little relieved breath. I saw again Shena's face across there, looking a little relieved. Thank goodness she doesn't cry anymore. I thought after Ijab said she would cry even harder.

I looked at the ceiling of the room in Aunt Ranti's house. I used to live here for a few months. And because of those few months, I met Shena.

After five years I returned to this room, but now Shena is my wife.

I used to think that my race towards Shena was just a beautiful story that I would remember in my heart. But all those wonderful memories I'm going to live with now.

All this time I was just thinking about my college and achieving my dreams. After my dream was achieved, I chose to stay alone and try to live well.

I never thought God would unite me with the love that I have been keeping and keeping so neatly, that no one would know.

God always has his own way of uniting and separating people. I didn't expect from Shena's heartache to open up the opportunity for me to enter Shena's life.

I took my phone and sent him a message.

[Good sleep, Shena. May you happily marry me.]

Yeah, hopefully, Shena. Because I didn't see your face happy at our ijab.

***

This morning the reception will be held, I prepared with a black suit prepared by Aunt Ranti.

I saw Shena who was ready with her hair decorated with crowns, wearing a baby blue dress.

It is not too glamorous, but Shena already looks charming even though she does not wear expensive jewelry or fancy clothes. She was not beautiful because of makeup, but she was already beautiful from her heart.

He had only been silent throughout this reception. His expression was always flat, I knew he was unhappy. But I never forced him, I only received the bait he threw. And all goes by themselves following the circumstances.

His expression began to change as his friends came and greeted him. Especially when her ex-boyfriend got close to us, I saw her face start to tense up.

"Yes, you,"

I heard it, but I'm trying to hold myself back here. For the sake of my lady, I don't want to make this reception atmosphere more gripping for her.

I saw my woman smiling bitterly and slowly her cries began to break. He pulled me and buried his face in his chest.

She was crying, I knew she was hurt. But why can't I do anything to calm him down?

The longer he hugged me. I can only stroke his head. No, it's a very happy day for me but I've taken away my woman's happiness.

I'm sorry my wife, I promise you, I won't take anything away from you.

How selfish of me, I can still be happy on top of your cries. Can I still hope for your love?

I promise you every tear I will pay. Every tear I will replace with laughter. Give me a chance to make you happy.

I'll make you forget, how painful it is today. I will make you happy until you penetrate every joint, until you forget that I ever made you cry until this deep.

"I'm sorry, Mom. I'm sorry I couldn't contain my emotions." His voice sounded raucous.

I'm the one apologizing for all this. I made you this way. I should've apologized to you, my lady.

"You're not mad at me, are you?" ask her with a plain face.

What right have I to scold you? I made you this broken. If I wasn't there, maybe you could still be with him.

Can I still be angry over your helplessness?

Give me a reason why I should be mad at you?

While your position is like this I created it.

He took my hand and kissed it with reverence.

Especially this?

Why is he so innocent?

He's my woman but he treats me like a father. He laughed but was afraid he might get hurt.

I was just trying to tease her, so that she could see the joy on her face, which I hadn't seen since I got back here.

He pinched my arm gently. I narrowed my eyes and grinned in pain. He laughed innocently. Oh my goodness, Shena.

Thank goodness you didn't leave that smile five years ago.

He pinched my arm again, this time harder. I was right to endure the pain this time, but his laughter exploded. Some of the guests looked towards us.

"Ssttt .. The guests saw us." I put one finger in front of my lips.

She looked down as if she blushed in shame, unable to bear to see her expression, I kissed her forehead.

But she gently refused my chest.

Oh my God, I didn't mean to scare her. I just wanted to touch it.

"I'm sorry, I .. I didn't mean to reject you." His face looks scared.

I'm not gonna hurt you my woman. It's been enough injuries that have made you cry for these two days. I won't make any more wounds in your heart because of me.

I'm sorry, lady, you don't know how I've been trying to forget you all this time and keep my feelings for me.

Now that you're in front of me, I just want to touch you. So I know you're real to me.

***

I took you to the house I bought with my work all this time. It's not big enough, but it's convenient if we live alone.

I bought this house a year ago. Yes, I did split the house with Aunt Ranti since coming back here.

Accustomed to living alone and alone. So I don't like to mix and be too noisy.

I've learned a lot about cardiology to this day. That's why I need a calm atmosphere to fill my brain.

"Sorry, the house is small, I just have enough money to buy this house."

"It's okay, it's enough" she replied with a sweet smile.

My woman is indeed a simple girl, her soft and submissive style of speech. It's not wrong that I made her a wife.

He entered this house with eyes looking around, there were no fancy items here. But his eyes showed a twinkle of amazement.

Basic ... plain once he.

"If you want to take a break straight to the room, I'll take a shower first."

"All right," he said according to.

I entered the room and saw him chatting in my bed. The mattress that I used to sleep on myself, now have to share with her.

Let alone the mattress even if he asks to share everything I have, I'm willing.

No, all of mine is his.

I walked closer to her, I saw her eyes twinkle, which were beginning to get scared.

The expression on her face that was getting tense, she was not ready to accept me yet, but desperately married me.

What if I'm evil? What if she marries a man modus?

It could be unfortunate, maybe God united me with him because of his innocence.

He was too innocent to be hurt, his face always looked honest.

Basis ... My woman.

I walked up and the closer, his face looked even more tense. He squeezed the end of the blanket.

Her face made me unable to tease her.

Why can this woman be this innocent, at her current age?

"Can you please dry my hair?" ask me when I'm in front of him.

"Huh? what's?" ask with a surprised face.

I know, this woman of mine must be thinking about something else. His face changed when he heard my words.

If this face I could make it, I would keep every expression of the wave.

Why are you so attractive, Shena?

Why is it that when it's mine you still can't touch it?

You're real right now to me, but you're like a dream, too. I can hold and hug, but you can't touch me.

I've been legally yours, I'm willing to treat you anyhow. For the sake of removing the high fortress between us.

But you're building that fortress even higher now.

How do I face you like this?

Should I obey you? Or do I obey my ego's wishes?

You'll get hurt if you think.

Well my woman, as long as I can, then I will obey you.

To replace every tear you've shed since you've been with me, to make up for all my faults.

I will wait for you, waiting for your readiness to love me.