Black Blue

Episode 24

POV Leon

I knocked on the locked glass door of the kitchen, Shena fled after I teased her. This seminar schedule makes me not free on holidays.

It's been almost a year since she got married, for the first time ever, she's kissed my lips. I could not bear to die alone, almost every weekend I left him alone at home.

Shena, you make me so much more excited about life. Right now I am doing my job for you, to support you, so that you can happily marry me.

I opened this seminar conversation with a beautiful smile. Want to hurry back and tease Shena again. Even remembering her smile makes me so happy.

I quickly tracked down the steps of this building, intentionally leaving the seminar sooner and asking my assistant, Andra to replace me.

Ever since I got married, I've been troubling Andra more. Moreover, he with the status of his single who is still single, a little more time he freely compared to me.

I've been trying to make my wife fall in love with me for a year. Now a little light has shown the light. Will my relationship with Shena progress soon?

I don't know, I'm definitely very happy right now.

I couldn't get my mind off of Shena, I drove my black car fast. I am often busy with this work, my lunch time is still often confiscated to give counseling to various places.

I stopped my car in front of the flower shop, and I picked out a large bouquet of roses.

'Hopefully Shena likes it, and hopefully our relationship will progress.'

I gave her two pieces of fifties money, I quickly got on my car and drove her at medium speed.

In the middle of the journey I just remembered, shena is currently at home her parents.

I turned my car around and drove my car fast.

My eyes caught Shena sitting on a park bench. I smiled with relief as soon as I saw her face, I don't know I missed her even though I just left her.

I parked my car and I quickly stepped foot to catch up with Shena. But I saw Shena being hugged by her ex-boyfriend.

Oh is behind me Shena still meeting her often? how dare he hug someone's wife in a public place. Instantly my anger began to creep, ruling my heart.

I turned my face away and wanted to walk away. But I heard a very loud slap.

"Remember..! Keep your boundaries, Ran. I'm a man's wife."

"Oh was that man the one who taught you to do this? As far as I know, you are a very gentle woman Shen."

"It's none of your business."

"Shena's. Who her? until you have to defend him like that in front of me?"

"He's my husband, and you? you're nobody."

There was a feeling of happiness when I heard Shena acknowledge my status in front of the man. I try to get ahead and get close to them.

"Yes, he is your husband. But can he replace me in your heart?"

My footsteps stopped, I wanted to hear what answer would come out of Shena's mouth. I wonder if that man still means so much to her heart?

But Shena was silent, her lips not spitting out a word. He walked away and left a thousand questions in my mind.

I turned my back and quickly stepped into the parking lot, I placed the bouquet of flowers on the garden fence. I quickly drove my car home. I occasionally hit the steering wheel because of an annoyance that I cannot describe as being lodged in my chest.

I lay my body on the sofa and I turn on the tivi to just enliven the atmosphere. Shena what all this time has not the slightest love grown in your heart?

Can't you forget that past?

I saw the watch in my hand, it was thirty minutes but Shena had not returned. I grabbed my jacket and I put my feet out. Before I got to the door, I slammed my jacket onto the sofa.

"God ... There's no point in me catching up, I'm just a destroyer between them."

I messed up my hair. Back I sat on the sofa, I heard Shena's footsteps at the door. I trim my messy hair and try to calm down.

Shena came back with a smile so bright on her lips. Oh, I don't know if Shena still loves that guy.

I was waiting for Shena to tell me about her meeting, but shena didn't even tell me about her meeting this afternoon, she kept quiet, even at dinner she just kept quiet.

I opened my bedroom door and tried to ask, I want to get an explanation of what happened this afternoon.

But Shena laughed to herself with her phone. Are they on chat?

Even I can still smile. My mind had begun to soar, my feelings of curse for Shena began to affect my mind.

I lay down my body and I pulled the blanket, I slept my back to Shena. He gently dipped my forehead.

Is this Shena? is there no guilt for me?

I walked quickly away from Shena who was preparing breakfast. I'm speeding up my car fast, I don't want to eat one table with you, Shena, before you tell me about your meeting. You should have explained it to me even if I didn't ask you.

I parked my car in the hospital parking lot and I walked my way into the hospital.

Geez my mind is so messed up, how can I check on the state of the patient like this?

I flipped through the papers on my desk to take my mind off.

Geck... Geck... The sound of my door knocking. Before long, a Sister came inside.

"Excuse me Doctor Leon, the Doctor is called the Chief Doctor" he said frankly without further ado.

Geez, I haven't prepared the seminar report yet. I rubbed my face with both hands. Is this Leon? why are you being so unprofessional?

"All right." I replied briefly.

I walked down the hospital corridor and knocked on the wide open glass door.

"Excuse Doc. Doctor called me?"

"Oh yes, please sit down Doctor Leon."

"Look Doctor Leon, do you know that our Hospital has been working for the past 2 years with a charitable foundation? so our Hospital will send 4 best Doctors to the disaster area for 3 months every year. And the Hospital will send 2 people every 6 months. And I want you to participate, Doctor Leon." explains in detail.

"You are one of the best Doctors in this Hospital. The percentage of your failures during surgery is very small. You can even take extreme measures in surgery and the results are perfect. The hospital actually wanted to send you last year, but since you were newly married the hospital canceled."

Yes, I remember, last year there were some of my colleagues who were sent there. I can't avoid it, I've sworn before God, after all maybe my marriage and Shena won't last much longer.

Shena already has her own love, as good as I should be able to move on and find my own life.

"Alright, Doctor I'm willing."

"Alright, next month the hospital will send 2 people in the first wave, and you will leave in the second wave, I will prepare your departure file."

I came out of the Doctor's room with a lethargic face. My mind is still disturbed by yesterday's events. I pulled my phone and I saw some chat messages from Shena.

Is he worried about me? then why didn't he explain anything to me?

"Andra.." call me when I enter the room next to mine.

"Yes, Leon." The answer is short while checking some of the results of the patient's lab tests.

"Can you help me today? My mind is screwed." I said lethargicly as I threw my butt in front of him.

"Can, as long as half your salary, for me" he said without looking at me.

"Damn it.." I smiled wryly at it.

Andra threw her eyes at me, she seemed to smile softly at the look on my face.

"Well, what a mess you got on your face, sir? wh why? not in your rations, huh?" tanyanya.

"Sotoy lu. singles acute diem yes, relax."

"Let's be single but I'm qualified." Andra played both eyebrows.

"Udah do not need most styles, apply it's a child of people. Don't be fended at it, later in the person samber nyesel seven derivative of you."

Andra let out a heavy sigh, he closed the document that he had been waiting for.

"Weight, Leon. Sultan's son mah him, I don't dare, now I'm just your assistant."

Andra and I were one campus first, she could be said to be pretty close to me and Riany, but she still continued her S2 at the same campus, while Riany and I moved overseas.

I studied my S2 in London, probably because it is also, at this time my position is better than Andra.

"Don't wilt before blooming, bro. You have to be brave, son of the sultan or son of a maid has nothing to do with it. Background is identity, Andra. I'm the same way different, but still happy."

Wait, did I say that?

Be happy? I was happy before Shena ruined everything. My mind went back to chaos after remembering it.

"Gue know, but I don't dare."

"Try it first, don't know before you try? I was reckless first, fortunately I was not rejected." back my mind mengawan to the past.

"Obviously he wants, see you? You're successful, you're well established, handsome, no lack. Well me?"

"Don't be too pessimistic, Andra. You don't know sometimes fate says otherwise."

For a moment Andra fell silent, he began to fight with his own thoughts. I shouldn't have made his mind messed up like I did.

"Andra, I'll be out all day. Can you please replace me? you can call me if there's any surgery on the patient."

"Good, Doc. But half the Doctor's salary for me." he smiled at the horse. But I want to end this conversation.

"Thank you." I immediately gawked out of the room.

I got out quickly from the hospital corridor and I quickly drove my car. I stopped my car in a park a little away from the city. I put my body on a bench facing the lake.

What's wrong with me? I left my job just for a woman? But how can I work, if I'm fucked up like this. I can't even think of anything but Shena.

You are indeed Shena's poison, you poisoned my whole world. Even you were able to make me lose my spirit to this extent. But how is it possible? you're not even trying to explain.

I stayed here for hours, from noon still providing warmth, until night greeting with silence. I checked my phone, no more messages coming from him. Shena also didn't ask why I came home late.

Like this I am in your heart, you just ignore me. Is there no meaning to me in your life? Is there not a single bit of love in your heart for me? even though love is just saying hello to your heart I'm very happy, Shena.

Oh God, what should I do? Shena should be able to understand her mistake, but I'm afraid of hurting her heart. Shena should be able to leave her past behind, she's been living with me for a year, she should be able to leave her past behind for me. Yes he must choose, leave his past or leave his future with me.

I drove my car fast, I parked my car in our yard. I opened my door and Shena was still sitting there. God I can't hurt him, I'm afraid of losing him. What should I do, God?

I opened the window of our room and looked blankly ahead. I tried to put together the word I wanted to tell him.

I'm sorry Shena, but maybe this way you can realize who I am in your heart.

"Shena's.."

"Yes, Mas." His voice was so soft, how could I make her hurt.

"If you want, I'm ready."

"Ready? Ready for what?" his face looks very confused

I'm sorry, God, I didn't mean to play the talaq, I just wanted to educate my wife so she could understand who she was. Let him know his limits. I can't guide him well. May you forgive me.

I walked in front of him and sat right in front of him. I saw his face, making me unable to punish him. The risk is too great, I can't afford to lose him. But if not, as long as he won't understand.

Bissyllah...

"I'm ready to divorce you."

"WHAT?"