Black Blue

Episode 32

"I, must go, Shen." Like there was thunder greeting my heart.

"I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you. The hospital has been asking me to go to the disaster area for three months." Leon's tone was worried.

"I can't dodge, Shen. I swore before the Lord before this work." Leon continued to explain, but my lips were twisted. There was a sense of not wanting to let her off my side.

"Shen, you let me go, right?" ask Leon for doubt. I looked at his face fixedly, if he couldn't dodge why ask me for permission?

"Shen, don't shut up. Talk something."

"What do I say? if I told you not to go, you would still go, right?" I hold this clear circle so as not to fall. Mas Leon just bowed listlessly.

"Kalok I want to be selfish, I want you to stay here, I also need you Mas, I'm pregnant and soon I give birth, can you stay? Don't you?" I saw Leon's face expressionless.

"Well, you don't have to ask my permission, do you?" I walked up and entered the room. I turned my body sideways, and slowly my cries broke.

Why should it be now? I also need you here, Mas, and how could you forget to tell me something as important as this. I don't know how to behave if this happens all of a sudden.

I felt Leon's hand wrapped around my stomach, he buried his face in my back.

"Don't cry, Shen." said Leon.

She said not to cry, but her voice was like she was crying. I turned around and hugged Leon, this time he was the one who buried his face in my chest.

How should I let you go Mas, if your attitude was so spoiled like this.

"I don't want to go either, but what? I beg you to understand." Now his voice sounds so sweet.

I just hugged her tightly, I let this night pass with this kind of atmosphere.

The sound of Adzan woke me up. I moved and immediately carried out my duty. I see Leon still asleep. I looked at his face and I grabbed every inch of his face with my finger.

God created Leon with beauty in every inch of his face. She looks so sweet with those eyes of mine. I kissed her lips gently and passed to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

My lyric clock on the dining room wall has shown half eight in the morning, I walk into the room and intend to wake her up. But the mattress was neat, Leon was no longer in the room.

"Mas.." I said softly.

"Mas.." I shouted again, I turned my room and living room, I did not see him out of the room.

"Where is he?" lirihku himself.

"Dar...."

My chest grip when Leon suddenly appeared before me, Leon's behavior sometimes exceeds that of a boy.

"You want to make our children born sooner, huh, Mom?" I said a little upset.

Leon just laughed like a child who was angry with his mother.

"Let's have breakfast."

Leon carried my body and led me into my room.

"Mas wants your breakfast." He plays his eyes flirtatious.

"Morning, you've been naughty huh, Mas." I pinched both cheeks.

"Bad Mas, what are you?"

"You dong."

"Who likes to steal kisses, when Mas sleep is who?" mas Leon rolled his eyes, trying to remember.

"Ih ... You're awake but still pretending, Mas." I pinched back his cheek.

Mas Leon has always been like this, if the night is late with problems he will be able to wake up in the morning without the slightest burden.

Leon is always warm like this, love me one reason. Why should I let you go. I want to keep you here, just for me to have.

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Afternoon. I cleaned up the rest of the dirty dishes for lunch. Leon is still in front of his laptop. That's how he is if it's a holiday. Busy with his work.

I put my hands on Leon's shoulders, I put my chin on Leon's left shoulder.

"Mas, take me away with you." I asked gently.

Leon took a breath and took my hand, he sat me on his lap. Her hands gently caressed my hair.

"Go to work, honey. Not a vacation."

"Me, come with me." I said spoiled.

"The disaster area, Shena. Not a tourist place. How can Mas take you, and jeopardize the situation of you and our son?" said sad.

I put my head on the chest of Leon's mas field. I felt Leon smelling my head and putting his chin there. Both of his hands held me tightly.

"Mas is also heavy leaving you alone here, you live where Mom is temporarily?" her words are soft.

"My burden is heavy in there, Shena. Don't add to my burden by thinking of you alone here."

I hugged Leon tightly, I hid my face, slowly my tears kept falling across my cheeks.

"Don't go, Mas." I replied in a raucous voice.

I heard the sound of Leon's breath that sounded heavy, I knew he was also heavy to leave me, but I also needed him to accompany my pregnancy that began to grow.

"The promise is to go home before you give birth."

"I want you to be with me, I'll be pregnant again, Mas." I hit softly on Leon's chest.

Mas Leon wiped both of my cheeks that had been wet from tears that never stopped. A few times Leon kissed me to calm my feelings, but my feelings would not calm down as long as Leon still had to go.

Until I got too late in my crying and fell asleep in Leon's chest. In a position still sitting on his lap.

I woke up from my mind and was in the room, I saw Leon was not next to me. I ran out of the room and called Leon.

"Mas.." I shouted as I opened my room.

"What's up, Shena?" sahut mas Leon at the end of the living room.

I ran and hugged his body, but Leon straight away broke my arms and took my body away from him.

His eyes pointed towards the living room. Oops ... There were some guests from the place where Leon worked, they smiled bitterly at the incident.

I immediately ran into the room, geez, what a shame it felt. Why didn't Leon tell me, I'm why the hell? how do you want to stick with Leon's mas?

I patted my forehead and listened to a little talk of Leon and some of his co-workers in the living room.

"It looks like we came at the wrong time huh, Doctor Leon."

"I'm sorry, Doctor Sandi. Maybe a baby."

Geez, Leon must be ashamed of me. I rolled my body on her shady bed.

Why am I becoming more like this? Stupid you, Shena. You can ruin your husband's image.

I sat on the lip of the bed, holding my nails. The lyrics of the clock on the nightstand are almost maghrib. I heard the sound of Leon's feet approaching, and then opened the room door.

"Aren't I lost for a second now from your sight?" ask Leon gently but firmly.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know you had any more guests, Mas." I looked down embarrassed.

Mas Leon sighed softly and sat on the lip of the mattress.

"I like your potent nature, but don't look at it in front of other people. Enough in front of me." said softly.

"Yes, Mas." I answered softly.

"Must look strong in front of others. Don't look on everyone's weak side. Understood?" tanya was soft, yet firm.

I shook my head without looking at his face out of shame and guilt.

"Alright, here hug me." Leon held his hand open.

I approached and put my head on his chest. It's a side I've never met from inside any man. He was always gentle and calm even when he was very angry. He is very good at controlling his emotions.

I asked for a reason that I could let you go, not a reason to keep you here with me.

What am I supposed to do when I'm away from you, man? I always depend on you. You've always been the person I rely on the most. How am I supposed to get through the next three months without you?

Give me strength so I can survive on my own here. Give me something to support my weakness here.

the voice of the adhan maghrib reverberated, we prepared to do our duty and Leon was always watching me.

I heard the soft voice of Leon teaching after, praying. Again my tears flowed, and Leon stopped his reading and closed his Koran. He wiped my eyes.

"Your tears are a lot of yes" she rubbed it with a smile on her lips.

"I'll be gone for a little while, and I'll be back here again" he said.

Yes, for a while, but somehow my heart felt so heavy to let it go. I'm afraid he won't come back.

"Mas, you promised you'd go home, right?"

"Wherever Mas goes, you're the only place Mas comes back" she replied calmly.

I hugged her back while Leon stroked my stomach gently.

"Strength inside, son. Take care of your mama. You have to wait for Dad to come home." he said sadly.

I don't know, I'm not sure you'll be home before our son is born. My heart says you'll be gone long. Whether or not it will come back, may God bring you back to me.

May all my bad premonitions be just a mistake, I don't want you out of my life.