Black Blue

Episode 22

Me, where might fall in love. My heart has broken enough that it never heals, I no longer want to feel the pain of love.

I tried to open the arms of Leon's coiled in my stomach.

"Mas, isn't it you want to go? why are you still here?"

"Why? You kicked me out of my house?" leon's breath sounded heavy.

"It's not so, Riany's waiting for you."

"It wasn't you just now, who didn't want me to go with Riany, right?" He's sticking his body to me.

"Mas don't do this"

"Why indeed?" Leon buried his face in my shoulder.

"Mas, do you want me to die young? My heart, not good, my mother."

"Hour, why?" mas Leon put his hand on my chest. I quickly hit his hand. He heard her voice laughing quietly.

"Your hand, Mas." I'm upset.

"My hand? wh why? I just want to check your heart. Take it easy, your husband is a Heart Doctor. Nothing's gonna happen to your heart, as long as I'm here."

I'm not sure my heart won't be okay, if he continues like this. This made my heart beat irregularly. Pumping blood faster than usual.

I even broke out cold sweat from earlier.

"I'm sultry, please let me go." I tried to persuade him.

"Just let's take a bath together."

"Mas.." I said a little embarrassed.

"All right, kiss me. Then I'll let you go."

Huuhh this kind of trickery? he is really.

"Well, let go of your arms first, how am I gonna kiss you if you're behind me?" I smiled cynically.

"No, I'm not a kid who's easily fooled by you. You can kiss me like this."

You're either too smart or I'm too stupid to get caught up in a situation like this. I'll beat you to death if you're not my husband.

"Just loosen your hands, I'll turn to kiss you."

Mas Leon loosened his embrace that was very tight. I turned my body back and took a step back to make some distance. I put both my hands on his shoulders. I put my feet together to match her lips.

But I was still not up to match him, Leon smiled and bowed his face.

I stroked Leon's forehead gently and I grabbed his right cheek. He smiled gently and closed both of his eyes, as my face began to draw closer towards him. I put my lips on her lips, then I quickly let go of her embrace and ran out.

There was the sound of Leon laughing.

"Bas with you."

This isn't true, he's not Leon, definitely not. Where could Leon be that aggressive. Is he a demon that resembles Leon?

Like in those movies.

But how could the devil be so fragrant as Leon. Cook the hell, cook it? there are demons.

I patted my own forehead and smiled amusedly remembering the incident earlier.

Geck...Geck... The sound of the kitchen glass door on tap. I saw Leon was dressed neatly behind the door.

Oh my goodness I locked the door.

I ran to open the door, before Leon pounced back, I took a thousand steps to leave. But his long hand quickly pulled my hand.

Oh, my God, that's enough, I can't keep up with the game anymore. Or else my heart would run out fast.

"I want to go, you're home careful" he said seriously.

How did Leon get well?

"You call ojol to deliver the order."

He grabbed my head and kissed it gently.

I grabbed Leon's forehead, I put my back on his forehead, to check his body temperature.

"You're healed, Mom?" I was surprised to see him so calm and relaxed.

"Why? You want us to continue with that?" leon raised his eyebrows next to his.

I shook my head. Leon's not healed yet, he's just a cool ass.

"I'm the one who goes between you, yes, I want all of Mom's place."

"Yes, I'm going first. You be careful." he stroked the tip of my head and passed quickly.

I hurried to get ready to deliver the order.

Huft... I took a deep breath after Leon passed away leaving the house.

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"Sir, I'm sorry. I've been very rude to you, Ma'am." Shima's voice sounded regretful.

"You go, Shima. Mbak has forgiven you, but you have to promise to study really, yes. Make mom and dad proud."

Shima nodded and hugged me tightly, before long she passed away.

"Nduk, all good right? I see you're different today, what's wrong? story to Mom."

"There's nothing, Mom." I smiled shyly.

"You're lying, I know you're closer than anyone. Your face is like someone in love. You've fallen in love with your husband, haven't you?"

"Love? I can't fall in love anymore, Mom. That love will no longer exist in my heart."

"Don't keep lying to yourself, Shena. Falling in love is not a bad thing. You don't have to keep avoiding it. Your husband's a good man, I believe he can make you happy."

"No, ma. I'm not in love. I don't want to fall in love. Love is only happy in the beginning, Mom. After that he will continue to make wounds in the heart."

I walked back to Mom and stared out the window.

"Leon is a sincere young man, he's so sincere to you. Even when he's angry he still treats you very well. You won't find a guy like him anymore, Shen. Don't let you regret it later."

"He's very nice indeed, Mom. But my heart never loved her, how would it?" I heard Mom take a long breath. He grabbed the end of my shoulder.

"His sincerity will overcome the rigors of rejection in the chest. You must be able to make peace with your past, Shen. It's been a year, how come you keep sowing vinegar on your wounds? Leon and Randy are different. Leon won't treat you like Randy."

"But, ma'am." I haven't had a chance to speak yet, mother cut my sentence first.

"You fell in love at the wrong time. You love someone you shouldn't love, Shen. You love Randy who is not halal for you to love. It's not her love that's wrong, but you're the one that put her place."

"Yes, I know, Mom. But Leon and I... Our marriage is without love, ma'am. I just take it."

"You love her, I know. But you always refused his presence. Your mind and heart are out of line, Shen. Ask your heart, not your mind. You'll know the answer."

After the afternoon, I decided to go back to my house.

Along the way I always thought about what Mom said.

I fell in love with Leon. Ah no. Mommy must be wrong, I might fall in love with her. I'm just used to it, that's all.

I'm sitting on a bench in Mom's garden deck. My mother's words still ring in my ears. I love Leon?

I smiled and shook my head, there was no way. My heart feels enough pain first, I'll protect it. I will not let my heart be taken away again, and then be shown again.

"I've always missed you, Shen."

I turned my face to where the voice came from. I saw Randy sitting next to me.

Oh my goodness, let alone him.

"Randy." I turned my face away.

"Shen, please don't go. I just want to meet for a minute."

"Sorry, Randy. But we shouldn't have met." I refused him.

"I still love you so much, Shen. Even your shadow is still playing in my memory."

"Oh my goodness, are you talking about love? I don't think you know what love is."

I got up from my seat and left. Randy wrapped his arms around me and hugged me from behind. Suddenly I let go of her embrace and slapped a hard slap on her cheek.

"Remember! Keep your boundaries, Ran. I'm a man's wife!"

The moment the hue of his face changed, which had been showing a sad face, now turned red with anger.

He had not been together for a long time, but he was still unable to control his anger.

"Oh... Was it the man who taught you to do this? As far as I know you're a very gentle woman, Shen."

"It's none of your business."

I left, but Randy's hand grabbed mine. He held both my shoulders firmly.

"Shena. who is she until you have to defend her like that in front of me?"

"He's my husband, and you... You're nobody."

"Yes, he is your husband. But can he replace me in your heart?"

Randy's words were right about my heart, how did he know this? I tried so hard to forget you, Ran. Please don't make this any harder for me.

My lips are cuddly, I don't know what to say.

Randy's words are true, but me? I don't want Randy to go back to destroying the fort I've been building all along.

I removed her hand from my shoulder, and quickly left her.

"Shena's. Divorce her and come back to me. I'll accept whatever your status is."

I stopped my steps. I turned my body and walked towards it.