Black Blue

Episode 25's

The POV Shena

"Mas, what do you mean? you know, you can drop talaq, Mas." I'm a little disappointed. I can't believe Leon could say that word.

"I haven't dropped a talaq, Shena Assegaf. I'm still asking you. I need a witness here, if I really want to take him down." Leon's tone sounded relaxed.

How could you possibly be this relaxed?

I am disappointed to hear your statement. Like for no reason you used to ask for me, and now for no reason you want to separate from me. Is this just your game?

"Then what do you mean to offer me a farewell, Doctor Leon Zack Mc.Kanzee?"

"Then what should I offer you? Heem?" ask Leon gently.

"When I saw my wife, Shena Zein Assegaf cuddling in a public place with her ex-boyfriend?" his tone did sound soft, but I heard there was anger in his pendam.

I was shocked to hear the words Leon said. Him, where did he know?

Oh my God how do I explain it to her?

So this is the reason behind his attitude lately.

"Mas ... Mas. I-I-a-I can explain. You misunderstood, Mas." I stammered. I was so surprised Leon knew this.

"Why? why didn't you explain it from the beginning?"

"Mas, I'm just afraid of hurting you, Mas." Obviously carefully.

"Why don't you tell me anything, Shena? Why now?"

I don't know, Leon was very angry, but he seemed very good at hiding it. His tone was even still very relaxed and gentle.

"I think there's nothing between me and Randy, Mas. So I don't want to tell you." I really feel guilty.

"Where or not, you should tell me. If you're just silent, you have something else." Leon's eyes look red.

"Mas I could have sworn, there's nothing between me and Randy." my tone started to rise.

mas Leon's angry but I'm the one who spoke it not selow.

As Leon walked closer to me, he threw his ass at the lip of the bed. Looking at me with a sad face. Leon grabbed both of my cheeks and kissed my lips.

Is this how you vent your anger?

Then do as much as you can if it makes you calm. It was like there was a deep disappointment in my heart.

Slowly Mason began to release his kiss from me. He turned around and went back to the window. I don't know how to explain it, so you can trust me. But seeing you like this also made my heart so broken.

I walked closer to Leon. I hugged Leon from behind. Slowly my tears began to roll down my cheeks. I was wrong but I was also the one who felt pain and disappointment. I don't know what Leon is feeling right now.

"Mas, please believe me. I am no longer bound by my past. I beg you, Mas." mas Leon just fell silent and stared blankly out the window

"Mas, please don't say that sentence again, Mas. I'm so scared."

I let go of my hug and I grabbed Leon's face. I looked at her face fixedly, she was angry but why was her anger just a silence. Believe me a scolding when angry is better than silence when angry.

I grossed both my legs and I bowed Leon's head. I kissed Leon's lips gently and slowly he started to hug me tightly. I don't know how to get you to scold me, but if this is your way, then I'll do it your way.

I felt Leon's hand gently caressing the tip of my head. He lifted this tiny body onto the bed. Leon whispered to me in a barely audible tone.

I could have rejected it, but why is it like there is a desire in my heart to accept it. It's like there's a turmoil inside me that wants this to happen. Desire that was asleep and never awakened all this time, slowly began to reveal its presence.

I'm sad? no, I'm disappointed. Disappointed because Leon vented her in anger. If Leon wasn't angry, would he do it like this?

Maybe angry or not, Leon will do it anyway, but Leon has been holding it for a year, where maybe he can hold it even longer.

But why with anger? if not, maybe I will be happy, because I have accepted you in my heart.

The morning sunlight greeted my face warmly. I didn't find Leon next to me. The clock next to my bed was shown at 8 a.m. Why didn't my alarm go off?

I got off the bed and rushed to the bathroom. Oh but it still feels a little sore.

I grabbed my phone and I sent a message to Leon's place, but let alone in reply, not to look at it. Huhhhh yes, maybe he's still a little annoyed at me.

Uh... wait a minute, she's still upset by what she did to me last night?

I'm the one who was harmed why is he still angry?

That man is confusing. Sometimes their hearts can't be guessed.

I cleaned up the house and tidied the trees in our little garden. But it could not reduce the anxiety of my heart, I was so agitated at the attitude of Leon mas like this. He was silent and it confused me how to deal with it.

I waited all day for a message from Leon. But Leon did not send anything, not even read it.

The night was getting late, but Leon had not yet shown his face. How busy are you there, until you don't read my message?

I saw the clock showing at 11 p.m. Where the hell are you mas?

I lay down my body and I looked at my phone screen hoping Leon would send me a message, why he was late coming home. Slowly my consciousness began to disappear and I fell asleep.

I woke up in the morning with Leon who was no longer beside me. Didn't Leon come home last night?

I looked around my room, I saw several pairs of clothes in the dirty laundry basket and Leon's towel that was on the clothesline. He came home but why didn't he wake me up. Not even my alarm went off this morning.

Again, Leon also has not shown his face even though the night is getting late. Again he came home late at night, but I couldn't even reach him even if he was just asking his circumstances. Why am I starting to feel, you are avoiding me. I feel like I lost you, Mom.

And this incident continues to repeat for up to 5 days. I didn't meet even Leon. We're still asleep in the same bed, but why is it so hard for me to see him. I didn't even get out of the house for a while, because I was afraid to see Randy again. I'm afraid our misunderstandings keep tapering.

I always see breakfast arranged at the dinner table every morning, but Leon never made any messages, even the thousands of messages I sent none of them saw. What the hell happened to you?

Why are you so mysterious, I think I know you. But it turns out that I don't know who you are.

Mas, I'll explain it to you, I'll tell you every detail if you ask. But please don't do this, I'm lonely. I miss you, can you feel my heart?

I feel like I've lost you.

Even Leon left me on Saturday. He left me here alone. Don't-don't Leon already have another house to go home?

Did Leon just make this a reason he wanted to separate from me?

No, Leon can't just look at me. Leon can't just leave this marriage.

I need to talk to her. This matter should be clear, but how can I talk to him. Even on this Saturday night he has not come home yet, but the clock has shown at 11.30 pm.

Did Leon play around with the women out there? mas Leon please give me a chance to explain mas, I beg of you