Black Blue

Episode 31

Today we held a study event, for the content of me who has entered the fourth month. Mother says when the womb is 4 months old, God will blow the spirit into the fetus. Then that's it, then,

Mother suggests a recitation event to welcome the spirit of the fetus.

I listened to the chanting of the holy verse read by ustadz with wisdom. Until when Leon taught me a few verses, and my tears flowed. Not sad, but there is a different taste when hearing Leon mas teaching. It seems like my fetus is listening to her as well, and is cheering happily at the voice of his future father. He keeps moving actively, kicking there and here, sometimes I feel great because of his activeness.

I don't know, maybe it's not the father who is pregnant, but from the womb the baby has eaten his father's sweat. Maybe that's what makes there a mind between the child and the father.

The voice of Leon mas still there his French medok while talking. But he can teach eloquently, not inferior to the tahfidz voice of the Koran on the tv-tv. It's just that the rhythm is still a little discordant.

With a all-white bandage from the top of the head to the tip of the foot, making Leon mas look more radiant than usual.

The light on his face flashed brighter today. I couldn't take my eyes off her.

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My mother and two twin sisters cleaned up the remnants of the mess of the event earlier. While Mr and Mr. Leon are still sitting in the living room with Mr. Ustadz and some guests from the hospital where Mr. Leon works.

I put my ass on the sofa in front of tivi, geez this stomach is already a bit bigger but not too big. But I'm starting to have trouble moving and breathing. There is always a lump in the heart, making me boast, even though the drunkenness has diminished.

I stroked my stomach, not expecting I'd be Mama any minute. It turned out that the woman was very heavy, from the beginning of pregnancy until now, I was tired. What if he was born?

"Shena, it's on its own. Which mother?" my father's voice surprised me.

"Oh, still behind Shima and Shine" I replied.

I went into the kitchen and I was soon out with Mom. Then Shine and Shima followed.

"Mother, go home first anyway, Nduk."

"Well, how come you go home anyway? just have dinner here, ma'am." I asked.

"Your father is not at home, he wants to rest" he said." Mother explains.

"I'm like anybody's house. Let's get some rest inside." I moved from my seat.

"No need, Nduk. You want to take care of the night, you can not sleep soundly, not on the bed Mr." explained Mr. firmly.

"Yes, you must be tired anyway. Take a break." Mom's chimps.

"Yeah, Mom, you be careful. You guys also deck, slowly take the bike, Shine."

Mom and Dad kissed me while my sisters hugged me and then passed.

For a moment the house that had been crowded immediately became quiet, as usual.

I lay down my body and play with my gait, I saw some incoming messages on my phone. A few of my former co-workers congratulated me on my pregnancy. My eyes widened when I saw a message from Randy.

I deleted it without reading, I was afraid there was even a misunderstanding between me and Leon. It could be that Leon will later put suspicion on my pregnancy, if he sees Randy still contacting me.

"Shen," I threw my gawa when I heard Leon's voice calling. Fortunately, it fell on the bed. I stroked my chest.

"What's wrong? Are you wasting your phone? ask for a new one?" ask her a little joke.

"I-i-I there's a ghost video there." I said stammering. My heart is so tight, I'm afraid Leon knows.

"Oh.." Leon took my phone and put it on the buffet.

He sat on the lip of the bed, and stroked my stomach. There was a different reaction when Leon's hand touched my stomach. Like there's a kick inside, sometimes it hurts me.

"Mas, where can you study?" tanyaku relax.

"My mother was a very good Muslim, Shena. He taught me religion from my childhood. Although I used to like to run away when Mama was talking." There was a bitter smile on her lips.

"Mom is the hijab woman, I think that's what made papa fall in love first. My mom is beautiful when she wears hijab. His face always looked radiant like the moon." his eyes looked at me blankly.

"I hope you can teach our children about the Qur'an from childhood." Leon dyed my forehead softly.

"Insha Allah, O Mas." I grabbed both cheeks of Leon.

"Give me a little wound, Mom. I'll wash it gently, I want to heal it."

I looked into Leon's eyes. Mas Leon took my hand and kissed gently on his back.

"Don't, my dreams are beautiful with you. I don't want to make him deformed, even with just one black dot from my past."

"But, Mas."

"No, Shena. Nothing will change from my past. Enough of me, not with you." mas Leon moved from the lip of the bed.

"Indeed nothing will change from your past, Mas.but something will change from your heartache, believe me, I will become that person. The one who will wash away your past wounds. Not instant, but slow."

Leon turned around and smiled, he kissed my forehead, again. Then pass away. It is not easy to open a wound that has long since set. But if the wound is not opened and cleaned, then the wound will become rotten inside. And it will be much harder to heal.

Maybe it's a very painful thing for you, but believe me because of that wound we were found and united. If you hadn't been hurt in the past, then maybe you wouldn't have seen me here.

Maybe you and I were never met, because our meeting was to heal each other. Not to hide each other.

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I enjoy the afternoon atmosphere by relaxing in front of the tivi, watching the afternoon event. I saw Leon come in with a slightly grim face. I went up and kissed the back of his hand with reverence. As usual Leon would kiss my forehead, but this time he forgot about it. He went straight into the room.

After an hour, Leon came with a glass of milk for me. He put his head on my lap.

"What's up? you seem to be tired?" I asked when I saw her little weird.

"When's the USG schedule again, honey?"

"Sunday, ahead." I answered while correcting my sitting position. Already proud because of his son, now his father also followed for his mother to begah as well.

"That's the fifth month, right?" leon kissed my already rather large stomach.

"Yes, Mas." I kept changing my sitting position because it went awry. Leon did not understand either.

"Do you want a boy or a girl?"  I asked, intentionally I did not see her gender just yet. Let's be a surprise later.

"Well, what's important is that you and the baby are healthy" she replied with a face that was getting bent.

"Mas, let's find yuk's name. What do you want to give us by name when our boy is a boy?" many happy.

"Not yet." she replied.

"Women, I want Kyra's name, Mas. Kyra Mc.Kancee's. Nice no?" I spoke with a fiery tone.

"Good." she answered briefly.

"What the hell are you, Mas? how is that spirit?" I was surprised by his attitude.

Leon sat down, scratching his head. He took a deep breath before starting the conversation.

"Shena, look." she hung up the sentence.

I looked at him confused, what the hell is it? this must be something bad. Slowly my heart began to break. Leon would have said something bitter. Otherwise, it would be impossible to shake him like this.

"What's up, mas?" I try to calm down.

"I.." mas Leon scratched his head and threw away his face.

"I, I have to go, Shena." said Lirih.

Right now, my guess is something must be wrong.