Black Blue

Episode 13's

Shena POV.

"I'm sorry I didn't sell it." I tidied up the plastic cake.

But as Randy quickly stopped him, he pulled my wrist.

"Shen.. don't donk." he said.

"Deliver!" I said a little hard and pulled my wrist.

"OK.. I'm off! but I beg you not to go." persuade me.

"Sorry, Randy. We shouldn't see each other again." I said, taking the order cake away.

Randy quickly pulled my hand back.

"I beg you, Shen. Give me a little time, just five minutes!" persuade me.

"All right." I said give up.

He took me back to sit on the park bench. He took out six hundred thousand pieces of money and put them on the chair next to which I sat.

"For your cake payment" he said.

I glanced at the money sheet, it was too much. Randy is a royal, but I don't need that right now.

I just took four pieces of the money.

"This is enough" I said, pushing back the rest.

"Why are you like this, Shena? Did your husband not give you money?" ask her in a soft tone.

I who sat down and threw my face away from him, did not pierce even the slightest question. Males, I don't need to explain to him either. If Leon even provides for my family.

"This is new, Shena. You can stay with him. I won't dispute your status."

I who was surprised to hear his words immediately looked at his face fixedly.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss that face. The face that for five years always accompanied my day and night. Even though that face is also a lot of wounds in my heart.

Without saying a word, I got up from my seat. He hugged my shoulder from behind. Slowly my tears came.

There's a longing for the white man behind me, a sense of guilt too if I remember Leon's kindness.

I broke his embrace and turned my body.

"Enough Randy, this is enough. Let me keep the memories of you, don't bother me." I said gently, waving his arms.

"Shena, trust me. I love you so much, I really love you" Randy said, holding both hands.

I know it's Randy, but there's already a fortress between us. I just learned to love Leon. But mercilessly now Randy is breaking it down quickly.

"Why? why do you always cheat if you love me?"

"I really love you Shena. You are a sincere woman. But I'm also an ordinary man, sometimes I just want to follow my passions. I just wanted to keep you, so I never touched you." Randy spoke with a lethargic face.

I walked over wanting to approach her, but my steps stopped on the second step. I wanted to hug her, but there was already a barrier that I could not pass.

"I'd love to make you my wife, Shena. For that I always look after you, I never touch the slightest bit of your physique."

"But you don't take care of my heart, Randy. You hurt me by touching a lot of women out there. You should also be able to keep yourself from touching others."

"I'm just a regular guy, Shena. I'm a normal guy. I have lust." he said justifying his mistake.

"I'm also Randy's regular woman, I have feelings too. I have a heart too. Naturally I am disappointed with your attitude, right." I said softly but squealed.

I saw Randy who was just down, he smiled occasionally laughing at his mistake.

"Why? why did you ask another man to marry you? I could have married you back then, if you had asked for it." said Randy, trying to find fault for my mistake.

"Keep, what about your mom? you forgot your mom doesn't like me. You forgot I'm just an ordinary girl who's not on par with you?"

Randy laughed at his fate. This situation is very difficult to explain. Many questions arise from this event. But the more in search of the answer will be more painful later.

"Randy, marriage is not just about two hearts. It is also about two families. I can't see my parents being insulted by your mother. You forget, my father is just a housing complex security guard." I explained once again reminded between my caste and he who is much different.

"But Shena. I can persuade my Mama." he said defending.

"As a result, you will be crossed off the family list. You're willing to live with Ran's hardships? Now you are still at the expense of Mama. What if you marry me and your life gets tough?"

For a moment Randy fell silent and bowed lethargic, he threw his butt back sitting on a park bench. I know, his heart must be very sick right now. But she's a lot of women by her side, why don't you try to forget about me.

Randy's shoulder that was bowed lethargic, he just bowed his head down.

"I beg you to live happily, Randy. Don't remember me, don't look for me anymore" I said, stroking Randy's shoulder.

I turned my body and slowly walked away. Clear droplets began to explore my cheeks. I also don't understand why I accepted a foreign man to marry me. It's a game of Randy's destiny, I'm powerless against all this.

I know you still love me so much, I actually do. But I also know you can't afford to lose your comfortable life. If you marry me, you will lose everything.

Losing me won't make your life doom Randy. Because you can easily find my replacement. But if you lose your life, I can't imagine how you'll live it later.

You are used to spending money, you will not be able to leave your habits. I know it.

I walked straight to Mom's house. Every now and then I wipe my tears, I feel guilty right now with Leon. How will I tell you later. I'm confused, I'm scared. Is this how I repay all of Leon's kindness?

Oh, my God, Shena, what the hell are you?

I went in and said hello to Mom. I saw Mother who was still struggling in the kitchen, I immediately embraced the body of Mother who still smelled of sweat. I spilled everything there.

I am also not a great woman who is able to toughen up on my own, I am also weak like other women.

Heart business, I also do not know why I can be so weak. I also wanted to reveal Randy from my heart, just as I had revealed him from my life.

"What's up, nduk? did your husband hurt you?" ask the mother who is stroking the tip of my head.

I have to how, Mom would be angry if she knew the truth. I was crying in my mother's arms. Without me realizing that you were there too, I have not memorized the schedule of the Father working.

Patiently you took my tiny body and moved it on his stocky chest. The more broken my cry when remembering the face of Leon mas so sad. He tried to make ends meet, he tried to understand me, but why am I like this. Tega found another man behind her.

He was indeed a stranger, but now the stranger was trying his hardest to make a living for me. I'm a foreign woman who can't repay her kindness but tries to ruin everything.

I'm stupid, stupid. From any side Leon is much better than Randy. But why, why can't I learn to love her.

"Why, honey? Did you hurt you, son?" He broke my arms and wiped away my tears that were still flowing.

I just shook my head, I hugged my thick body again. Patiently, I stroked my head. I let him spill all my tears, he invited me to sit in the living room chair and then back to break my arms. Trying to stroke my cheek so I stop crying.

"Sorry father, I'm sorry I hurt you, son. Please don't hurt me with your tears."

"What the hell is Father. How come I'm talking about it all of a sudden." I said by pinching Dad's fat arm.

"What the hell are you, son. Come along crying." said the father comforting.

"I hurt Leon, sir. I sinned with him Sir. But I didn't intentionally, sir. I trust Shena, don't you."

"Yes. I believe dear. You have always believed in you." said the Father to calm me down.

This is how you extract information from me. You have information scraping skills, maybe this is your expertise as a security guard. He always blames himself and says he believes everything I say. Though I know, it's a trick for him to extract information from me.

He was trying not to corner my position. Makes me feel free to take out my whole heart. I told you everything that happened today. Not a single thing was missed. He listened carefully to my story and occasionally took a breath.

"Look, kid. Shena was not wrong, accidentally met too. But what makes Shena wrong, why doesn't Shena refuse when she hugs you, boy! There's a line between you and him now. Don't break that limit."

"Shena knows, sir. Now what should Shena do, sir." I'm confused.

"Tell your husband, son. He should know."

"It's impossible sir. Shena sir can be heartbroken mas Leon sir." I replied surprised to hear the advice of the Father.

"You have to do it, son. You have to be able to tell it, unable to you have to dare son."

"Father." I said spoiled.

"Shena." Father's tone was a little pressing.

How could I hurt Leon, imagining his gentle face that would be shocked to hear my story. Well, imagining that face makes my guilt pile up.

Cruel as I am, his innocent face is always in my eyes.

Slowly the tears flowed again.

"Shena, son. You have to learn from your experience. Don't be a coward, you should be able to say even if it's poison. It's not good to keep the poison in your body, Shena. Better that poison you spit out of your mouth, though the bitterness will last long."

"Tell it from your lips, lest Leon know it from someone else's lips. Don't like to keep your own time bomb."

"But what if Leon's mad, sir. How about Leon divorce me." I asked worriedly.

"You cook don't know your husband. Leon is a mature man. He has his own thoughts. There's no way he's careless in deciding what's important" said the father casually.

I kept thinking about this, how I could explain it. I'm afraid Leon misunderstood. But if I don't say it, it'll end even worse.

Afternoon. I waited for Leon to come home with an unrelenting anxious heart. This heart splinter feels irregular. What words should I give to explain later.

Oh gosh. I was confused, confused to face this situation. How many tears have flowed from this day.

"Assalamualaikum." Leon's voice came in from the door.

I answered her softly, I kissed the back of Leon's hand. Still smelling the scent of blood on the back of his hand. O God, the more sinful I feel, the more tired this hand makes a living for me. What I did to avenge him.

My cry broke as I lifted my head. I ran to the kitchen to shed my tears. I saw Leon trying to get close to me.

"What's up, Shena. Why are you crying?" tanyanya's confused.

I have to what, do not know how to arrange words that can explain this situation, without causing misunderstanding.

"Shena, did I hurt you?" he said while grabbing my head from behind.

Oh my goodness. How I should hurt her heart. Even his words were very soft.

I turned my body around and I saw Leon's face that looked confused. I grabbed both cheeks of Leon using both hands. But I refused to touch it with my hand that had touched another man. I gripped my palm before touching her clean cheek.

"Pardon me, forgive me." I bowed my head in shame.

Mas Leon pulled my head and landed it on the chest of his field. In his hand and in his heart. I could feel his irregular heartbeat.

She let me cry so much. He gave me space to calm myself down. But the calmer the atmosphere, the more scared I was. Afraid of a storm hitting my defenses hard.

He broke my arms and grabbed my face. Removed my tears that were still very wet. I kissed my forehead softly, then went down to the tip of my nose. He stuck his forehead to my forehead.

"What's up, baby? tell me anxiety. I'll listen to him." he said softly.

Receiving such a warm attitude, coming back again and again my tears rained down my cheeks very heavily. I can't bear to see him hurt, I can't possibly let go of this perfect man.

"Mas...if I make a fatal mistake, can you forgive me?"

"Whatever your fault may be, I'm sorry. Just don't ever decorate your beautiful eyes with tears again" he said to calm me.

"Mas.. I. I. I'm sorry. please forgive me, please trust me." I really can't say it.

"Just say, don't be afraid. I'll believe whatever it is that comes out of your lips!" said relaxed.

"Mas.. i..."