Being a Connecting Mother

Forgive Yourself

Noah set foot somewhere foreign to him. After learning of his Daddy's intention to bring Adira back, Noah has decided not to just stay silent. He realized that all he had been doing was silence while he was the eldest child in the Brown family.

Noah walks into the grounds of the house, confirming again the similarity of the house with a photo sent by his men that he sent to follow Zein two days ago.

He doesn't know how Adira reacts to seeing him but he must talk to her.

Geck! Geck! Geck!

Noah decides to knock on the door because he doesn't find the doorbell.

“ Wait a minute..” heard a voice from inside the house.

Deg!!

Noah recognizes that the familiar voice belongs to Adira.

“ Who? ” said Adira so open the door and have not seen with certainty the face of his guest.

After he raised his head and saw the person in front of him his eyes immediately widened unexpectedly he would see Noah standing in front of him.

“ I want to squeeze the bell but can not find the doorbell is there where, so I knocked on the door ” said Noah flat.

“ Is that the right thing to say in a situation like this?! ” , Inner Adira was stunned to hear Noah's remark.

“ How can you be here?! No. I mean for what did you come here?! ” Adira can't even say things right now.

“ I want to talk to you ”

Adira was more surprised to hear Noah's relaxed reply.

“ Actually what's wrong with this guy? He was still talking with a flat expression like this. Why am I the one who feels weird and intimidated? ”

“ I think there is nothing we need to talk about, go home do not waste your time to come all the way here ” reject Adira he should also be able to maintain his stance.

“ True coming here is quite a waste of time, especially when the company is busy. The problem is maybe you choose a place that is far enough ” Noah fondle relaxed.

“ Hah?! I thought I was wrong to think you were weird, but it's not wrong to go from here ” Adira grew annoyed to hear that, she didn't ask Noah to come to this place, she said, the man who chose to come and wasted his time. But instead casually said Adira was wrong to choose to stay here.

“ Wait a minute I've wasted my time coming here, at least let me talk ” intercept Noah.

Adira squeaked in hearing that.

“ So go quickly and don't waste your time here! Just get upset that I forced you to come here! ”

“ I was wrong again yes, why suddenly he was angry. Was my speech wrong? I just confirmed his words ” , Noah said in his heart.

Adira is astonished to see Noah's change in attitude he can catch the awkwardness and stiffness of the man.

“ Is it because he who is usually cold suddenly wants to respond to the conversation casually so the answer is so chaotic like that? ” , Adira increasingly do not understand.

“ How much I practiced to say good words, still did not work ” Noah a little regretted messing things up, he indeed could not start the conversation well, he did not, Moreover, giving a warm response to his interlocutor.

Adira realizes she is alone at home today, so Noah's arrival will be safe. Because if Helena was here then it was certain that the boy would be kicked out of this house as fast as lightning by Helena.

“ Come with you only half an hour ” Adira said and invited Noah to sit in a simple guest chair in the house.

“ This place is not comfortable, therefore do not come here again ” Adira said as soon as she saw Noah who looked around the house as if analyzing the state of the house with a flat expression.

“ Not exactly strange I just know a simple house like this turns out to be comfortable ” replied Noah.

“ He's too honest or what the hell? ” , Adira was upset in her heart because she always couldn't guess what Noah was thinking.

“ Remember your time is only for a moment so quickly tell me what you want to talk about? ” Adira is cold to Noah because it forms a defensive wall that he builds so as not to look weak again in front of the boy. She knew clearly Noah disliked her and had always regarded Adira as a greedy woman.

“ I know Daddy came here and intends to take you back home ”

“ Take it easy I refuse that, I will never return to your homes again. I didn't think you should come here to warn me ” cut Adira didn't hear Noah finish his words.

“ You are wrong I came here not to forbid you to return home, but I beg that you want to return home ” Noah keep saying that without any changes at all remain flat and cold.

Noah's cold attitude which is his true nature seems to affect Adira as well.

“ I will not return to this house until anytime, no matter what the reason is ” Adira reply no less cold.

The atmosphere there is like a room filled with cold snow that makes other people there may shiver cold. The gazes of Adira and Noah were both fighting let out visible flashes.

“ I should have apologized correctly but I don't know how to apologize, because it's not something I'm used to. Since childhood I have had a bad attitude in getting along and talking. Mommy said it was because I was too introverted. I may not say it well to you, and it sounds insincere but I am truly sorry for all my deeds and words that have accused you for no reason. I'm the one who made you suffer so much staying at home that time ” said Noah slowly not in a hurry and just flowed as he could say.

Adira listened to the boy in silence, and never once took her eyes off Noah.

“ You should not forgive me, because my actions are really evil. It's just that after your departure home it feels like death there is no life at all ” continued Noah.

“ You think I left this house because I have not forgiven your mistakes, no. I decided to leave because I had forgiven and let go of everything. Not only you but I also learned to forgive myself. That's why I go and move on, now that the choice is on you it's not my forgiveness that matters but are you able to forgive yourself? ” says Adira seriously.

“ How to forgive yourself? ” asked Noah looking forward to Adira's reply in earnest.

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