"My Husband Doesn't Match My Expectations"

Saturated Taste

Saturation in marriage I often experience, how not. Given the treatment of a husband who does not care about my family, do not buy new clothes, underwear has been married for 4 years never change. Boro boro for clothing, ask for kitchen needs should only be asked, "has run out what I gave you yesterday?", very sad if asked like that. Not to mention when looking at the lives of 1 college friend, they were working women while I was just a housewife, their lives were arguably very decent. There was also indeed a college friend who as a housewife like me, but she was delicious. In addition to her life is arguably very worthy of her husband also attention and understanding to her. I want to have my own income.

How-to?. Want to apply for a job, married women will be a consideration for the company. They reasoned that married women especially if they already have children, will often miss work, the reason children are sick, there is no child care, and so forth. Because I have also tried to apply for a job and after the interview they asked me if I was married or not. I answered honestly, they immediately said the reason.

If opening a business, capital does not exist, confused also want to open a business field what field?

I was thinking, If I had a sewing machine.

" There is an offer of unsecured loans from the workplace with instalments of three hundreds for 3 years, how about", asked the husband to me. "Maybe that, agree" I said to the husband (in my mind maybe this is the way, how about I ask to buy a sewing machine so I can open a sewing business at home, I searched google, portable sewing machines can already embroidery, sewing edge, and so forth the price reached 2 millions). Husband Urus various KTP equipment and all sorts.

A few weeks later the liquid loan money kerekening husband with a nominal of 9 million rupiah. I'm happy and I say my point, hoping the husband agrees. What I got was far from hope. Husband hesitates, later in vain think his might in his heart, he doubts my ability, short his husband does not support me.

For 1 month only the loan money runs out, whether buy buy anything, which way way, buy a fan, I ask to buy a plate rack with various reasons, rather heavy like her, I ask you to buy a plate rack, until finally agreed. That's the only thing that can be real there is.

That may be very ungodly if the wife is not ridho. The loan money is up, the next 3-year installment is just finished. What to say, inevitably must be lived.

Kring.kring.kring Call from in-laws if Asti's sister-in-law wants to get married. As usual, should give the handover of ulos, rice and gifts. Husband asked "what gift we are", "ordinary, nyicil hp" I replied. Husband agrees.

The price of HP with a sewing machine does not seem far away very, the husband is quick to approve it, for my needs it seems difficult to enter the logic of my husband. I can not say any more words, maybe because my husband who is looking for money so for any decision for the family is very fast and willing to sacrifice, if for the needs of the wife is very difficult to sacrifice. I never sued or forced anything on my husband.

It was time for the wedding, Dinar and July my daughter was 5 years and 4 years old, I was also 5 months pregnant, they were very clingy to me not wanting to be with anyone even to their own father (not infrequently they also sometimes heard and saw, our quarrels), maybe that made them afraid of his father.

Months 1-3 of my pregnancy was very difficult to go through, nausea vomiting, dizziness, food was difficult to enter, what was eaten vomit, stomach was often empty, dizzy, worry also with fetal conditions that are less able to intake nutritious food. Fortunately, entering the 4th month, nausea and vomiting disappeared. Now it's like he wants revenge. Even want to eat. If the control to the gynecologist I never, only control to the village midwife, drinking pregnant milk is also not routine. But thankfully my children from children 1-2, all born normal and healthy with birth weights of 3.5 and 4 kg.

It was time for the birth process to run normally, without being accompanied by his father, because it had to work. I was also hesitant, said the same husband may be either afternoon his birth, maybe the husband still had time to go home from work. There was Friska accompanying, because I called him to come to the house, because he wanted to be born.

Friska did not pass the public college test, she is now studying at a private college with a very high cost, some guarantee the youngest sister of Krista's husband who has worked, his name is already working, have a high income and not married. He will help help the cost of Friska's lecture, if we ourselves are still not able.

After waiting for the opening, I finally gave birth to our 3rd child, normal and not too painful. There was a sign of birth, I immediately shouted to his midwife" sus I want BAB," just want me edannya, finally midwife panicked, immediately shouted "dah loathed, his head", said the nurse in a panic, swiftly assisted by another midwife.

Born is the 3rd child for us a daughter. You say disappointed yes indeed laugh, But what else, do I have to hate our newborn daughter?, as a mother of conscience, of course, I still love my newborn daughter, because it is not her fault. He could not choose parents who gave birth, were born rich or poor. I also chose to stay longer in the hospital, so that I could have a complete rest, because there was a nurse who took care of my baby in the baby room. Unlike the second child's birth, there are in-laws.

I prefer that in-laws do not have to interfere in caring for children, because sometimes it is very different from the habits of the past with the habits of now, used to be tightly wrapped, Now it should not be tightly wrapped, now it should not be, Nor can his mother move her body to the right and to the left, but now she can.

Experience The time of the first child's birth, a week after my first child's birth was bleeding, my in-laws were furious. I was accused of moving and doing a lot of activities. The fact is I'm bleeding because the doctor who handled me didn't clean out my placenta. Even though it's good actually to go out, if not out maybe I'm no longer there at this time, because it will be a tumor for me. Even now my in-laws don't understand that. After giving birth she always reminded me "don't move much later bleeding again", I just nodded and kept quiet.

With the birth of this third child, it does not necessarily make me to stop giving birth, there are still plans to give birth again, just time not to know. Before I gave birth to a son, I imagined to get pregnant and give birth again actually tired, it should be enough 3, because the current tuition is very expensive, because the current tuition is very expensive, all three can be schooled already grateful because the husband is only a private employee.

Then think again my mummy in the heart, anyway 2 or 3 years to get pregnant again do not dululah, bothered, wait for the husband's salary has somewhat increased, that's my plan.