"My Husband Doesn't Match My Expectations"

Must be optimistic and enthusiastic

A lot of costs that we spend on treatment and recovery of husband typhoid pain, so far we have no savings or savings money.

So we sacrifice the installment of the house money this month we are forced not to pay, where else we seek a loan, if for important things such as the cost of treatment is not an important problem husband quickly recovered, he said, money can be sought, but if it can no longer condition the body to find money it is fatal.

Almost 1 month the husband does not go to work, fortunately the company leader can be understood, the husband does not cut his salary or get an SP letter.

I was afraid, do not let the husband even be put away because it has not been in work for too long.

By forcing yourself the husband can finally go to work, his condition is still not too fit,

"It must be forced, it does not feel the same Mr. Rudi as part of company personnel" said the husband to me.

"Yes, it's easy that the work in the factory is not too busy meaning you can relax and not get tired" I replied to my husband.

Indeed sometimes work in the factory if the engine problem can seize power, can also relax if the engine is smooth.

The one who is often sick and affected by harm is the husband, thankfully all this time I have never been seriously ill, I feel it is karma because the husband is too zolim with me, I feel like I am, but my husband never realized it.

I once told my husband that he doesn't smoke anymore because of the wife's prayer.

Emotionally she said"It wasn't because of your prayer, it was because I thought, and realized rather than for the cost of cigarettes it was better at eating" the husband emotionally clarified her to me.

Again I speak only a thousand languages, I no longer extend, only God knows. From his clarification it was as if he stated that my prayer was not granted, So difficult is the husband to humble himself before his wife. The success and sustenance he has received so far is for his efforts there is no connection with the wife's prayer.

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Once I was sick after giving birth to a second child, that's because I often forget the time to embroider the Kristi cloth, meaning to want to make a display of the walls of a larger house, which is more, I sometimes forget the time when it's cool to be late at night and dawn, because it's the right time because the children are asleep.

I could not move, even to sit hard, I was overwhelmed to breastfeed my child, because my second child was still breastfeeding, I am also bothered because sad also see children become fussy, with conditions that are difficult to move sometimes I force to breastfeed, even though the pain is forgiving.

Even then there is no money, want to prick but there is no money. It just so happened that brother-in-law frista came from the village so I borrowed his 50kb for the cost of kusuk.

My husband also warned me, there is no more money if I want to prick again, I also have no money if continued therapy.

Through his ultimatum as implied, if I am sick my parents are the ones who take care of me, if my pain gets worse maybe I will also be sent back to my parents.

I cried and always prayed that God would restore my health immediately, and my prayer was answered, once I could do normal activities, no need to prick anymore or therapy.

From that experience I was afraid of pain, if I was paralyzed I would have returned my husband to my parents' house.

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I tell all the parts of the pain to the prick, after almost 1 hour of pricking, I can sit back but a little sideways can not sit perpendicular, very sick if straightened, I can sit back, I lie down first, maybe tomorrow can be more exercise again so that it can be a normal activity.

Even in pain I still sorted out the house, cooking and others, but because my condition was not fit, I did the routine slowly, the clothes I let accumulate, and because my condition was not fit, later if I recover I can get back to work on it.

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From the experience that many sat yesterday, I no longer want to sit much, even do the embroidery of Kristi cloth.

From that experience, I also told my husband not to sit too much, because the husband had a lot of time to play games, and now he also often suffered from back pain, sometimes to stand normally he's hard to do.

But the husband is always angry if I remember not to sit too much, finally if the husband complains about his pain I am also silent not to comment. Wrong comments he would be angry angry I am silent a thousand languages.

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Problems problems that occur in the household, and the nature of the nature of the husband that is not in accordance with our expectations does not necessarily make us desperate, and want to ask for a divorce, and the nature of the husband that is not in accordance with our expectations does not necessarily make us desperate, can only resign and pray that his mind changed if the husband can realize that his provision is his wife, should be more royal to the wife than to others, the feelings of the wife instead ruled out.

As a wife can only do what can be done positive things of course, if God opens the door of sustenance, everything that is aspired and expected to be accomplished immediately.

The wheel of life rotates, sometimes below sometimes above, if we are at the bottom maybe when the time comes we will certainly be at the top, can only be optimistic only.

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cring.kring.

The ringing sound of my cell phone, I immediately raised, there was a number that means the phone number is not stored.

"Hello" I answered with a question mark

"Hi Lily" she replied

"Who is this?" I was still worried because I did not recognize the voice that called me.

"It's me Kori" replied the caller

"Kori who" I answered and was still covered in question marks and tried to remember who Kori was.

" Campus buddy, I got your phone number from our friend catrin" she replied answering my question mark.

" O Kori, yes yes I remember (smile smile, Kori is indeed my college friend)" I replied after remembering now who Kori is.

Kori invited me to go through the business of selling anchovies or salted fish, Kori lived in the coastal area, he will supply or send anchovies or salted fish to me without me having to pick up the salted fish from his hometown.

I think there is no harm in trying, irit also if directly sent his goods can save spending so the price can compete, not too expensive if if sold my germs in the heart. My friend Kori will send you a photo of anchovies or salted fish, whatever I want.

I also agreed and wanted to do business with my friend Kori.