"My Husband Doesn't Match My Expectations"
Everything has its time
If I have a disagreement with my husband he always offends me, "What I hope from this marriage, my son can't be proud of (there's no smart one, no smart one, though I used to start from elementary school to college always ranked 1), the wife did not work, just rely on my salary alone, no effort, want to live better where can only rely on salary, and, it must be just this way of course, boys do not exist, pleasing husband does not know.
How could the husband know the future of children later, he means that now the academic children are ordinary, what is big they will be ordinary, indeed he is God, he is, he should pray easily later his children can be better life than the life of parents now, people who are not optimistic according to me, after all the process of child maturity will be different, different, there is indeed a mature SD so that it can be more independent, more controlled, not to be told to have been his own desire, there is also the maturity of children at the level of Junior High School, High School, and, or at the college level.
The ability of each child is different, every child should not be equated.
It was part of the maki maki of the husband that was thrown at me.
God, as if it were all my fault. I was crying in my heart. Though from the beginning of marriage I want a sewing course, the capital of the sewing machine I asked did not want to buy, even though at that time the husband there can be a loan without collateral, he didn't feel like his money was coming out for me.
My husband once told me to go to college again to take Deed IV in order to teach as a teacher, but I didn't want to. because it was my parents' husband's intention to finance. I don't want to because I'm married, I don't want to burden my parents any more. That's my principle yesterday, but I didn't tell my reasons to my husband.
It's a good thing that I don't want to burden my parents, if I wanted to, it's the same that my husband doesn't care about my family.
Really I still hope to have my own income, one time I want to find a job. Wait for the children a little bigger, at least they can independently cook and want to be left at home.
Age is almost willing to head four, to give birth to children may be very at risk of premature or the mother can not survive. I also intended to get pregnant again and it turned out to be directly given, I was immediately pregnant, this month I was late for the month.I intended to test the pregnancy turned out to be right I was pregnant.
From the first month until now entering the second month I was always not feeling well, always nauseous vomiting, innately always cold, and I always bathed in warm water, could not stand the taste with cold water.
Maybe because it is burdened with the mind of the will that was born must be a man, how about later if the woman again.that's all that is in my brain.so I did not relax, full of worry.
Entering the gestation age of two and a half months, I had blood come out. I checked into the clinic, recommended for total bedrest.
I told you my condition for bedrest, but my husband doesn't seem to care, still expecting me to cook, wipe and wash. I also do the routine as usual, for a while I rest.
The husband always asks "you why", "it's okay" I replied.
I think he already knows my condition, if indeed understanding is taken over all my work should be his, not always asking like that.
He always complained about his waist, his waist hurt because he was too much sitting, he was more important to play games than to think about his health, but if reminded, he was more important, you hurt your waist because you sit too much, so don't play too many games, he's always angry and yelling at me" it's not because of playing games, but because of the effects of the crash time falling off the elevator". That's the reason, sometimes if the husband has complained about his back pain bored I respond, I become indifferent, the husband just does not care about his health how I am required to care. I was silent and did not respond.
Because I might be moving too much, at 11pm, my husband should be working, because he's on the night shift leaving at 11.
The child is already sleeping.
"where should we go for treatment?" ask my husband
"take him to the hospital near Nosta's sister-in-law. Just take me to the hospital now, then call Nosta's sister-in-law to come to take care of the files.
You just go home, so that there are those who take care of the children, confused also they later when seen I do not exist, even scream later" trying to explain in detail to the husband.
"yes, you finish all your clothes, so that we go" replied the husband.
"ok" I answered
I was in the hospital for three days and then I was able to return home. My current condition is like giving birth actually because I am in a curette to be clean, to avoid things that are not desirable, such as uterine tumors, and so forth.
I collapsed, because my waist and back hurt, my stomach felt down and wanted to fall.
Husband then insinuated me, fall fall fall was you, still not recovered huh?. said husband.
What does it mean, asking like that, the husband does not know what is happening to me, he thinks maybe I am acting, pura take advantage of my situation.
Oh my God, I am sad and silent. Indeed, dirty cloth has accumulated in the washing machine, because it has been three days not washing.
It should be with my condition that the miscarriage of my husband should comfort me, because at this time I am very sensitive easily hurt.
I also do not want to be insinuated, it is finally the husband who washed the dirty clothes. I also immediately prepared to take cooking work, sweeping, although actually I was still a bit dizzy, sometimes I rest. I could not stand too long.
Children can not do the activities of cooking and washing clothes.if sweeping children can, but they must be told first, not at their will. sometimes they have to shout.
Should continue to direct children, teach, not instantly they immediately mature, should continue to pray, Only God is able to compartmentalize the minds of people.
Though the husband was bandal often do not sleep at home, so kennek transport driver so abandoned school. High School time, but in college he was more directed and controlled emotions. I can choose for his future.
