"My Husband Doesn't Match My Expectations"
I was always wrong
This feeling is sometimes lost to the husband, little by little reduced by his nature that does not appreciate me and is very inconsiderate to me, every day just feel scared, afraid to start a conversation afraid to talk wrongly, talking, regarding the news on TV can also be the topic of our quarrel. Sometimes my husband wants to relate my scholarship "just you are a scholar", "where your logic is", so the husband always talks, his nature always wants to show our ugliness, so that he looks smart, so that he looks smart, whether in public or in the crowd he always does that, I can only smile an annoyed smile.
After he passed away, no one helped us financially. Without debt it is impossible, because to save was difficult, want to try to save always there are expenses. After the installment of Hp paid off, continue nyicil to buy a sofa, because shame is also If the house is leaping, now is the right time, mumpung children still sitting at the elementary school level, the, it does not require a large fee, later if they have been sitting at the high school level must have cost a lot.
"We make the canopy" said the husband to me"maybe, but the cost must be expensive" I replied
"Yesterday I asked the neighbors, they did make their own total costs up to 3 million more" the husband continued our chat
"do you know?", I answered with a question mark.
Husband does have a basic education in the field of machines, the method of design images he has mastered, maybe not difficult anymore he applied in his real picture. I also approved it.
"As for you, who is the best" I replied
"If we make it ourselves, indeed we still have to buy a drilling machine, cutting tools, at least we already have a tool, we can use it to make other equipment" said the husband explained
"Yes, yes, we have done it ourselves" I continue to give him spirit.
Behind her tempramental husband is still her positive nature, the husband no longer smokes after a work accident fell from the elevator, he rarely even almost never hang out in the shop with friends, he said, when he came home from work he always went straight home, if there went to see a sick friend, or there is a sudden interest he always informs him through hp that he was a bit late home. The academic value of the husband ranging from elementary school to university is always high, even he can graduate cumlaude at the state higher university teacher's department.
Maybe because he feels smart husband so arrogant, like to underestimate others do not even want to be criticized.
Finally the process of making canopies is completed we do, if others who have the profession of canopy maker may be completed for 2 days. The husband completed his almost 1 month, because of time constraints, if the husband works the morning shift, almost never in the work because the responsibility of the husband home from work is already afternoon, if the husband works, if the husband works the day shift can only be from 10 hours to 14 hours, if the husband works the night shift, the husband can total work his morning to afternoon. If you imagine during the manufacturing process, my husband and I often quarrel, must rush to apologize so that the process is not long. What I can't control is my heartache when my husband says ketus, "take this first, lama' you don't know this, use the brain, use logic, put the eyes", many more harsh words that come out of his mouth if what we do is not as he wishes.but it could be because of our ignorance, besides which field we also know the carpentry section.
Husband anyway according to me if learning new things quickly know him, the spare time of the husband is actually a lot, because the husband works shift and shift. He should be able to make a dish rack, fish cabinet, shoes, helmet and so on, but the reason is a lot of money, no money to buy materials, my back hurts, I have a lot of money, I'm afraid to make a fuss with my husband. It's up to him that my grunts in the heart, if I remember right, the husband even negative thoughts, he thought I forced work, even though at work he was tired. I remember once and then he was immediately angry "you think I'm in a quiet workplace just calm". So ngawur I think, immediately I leave my husband, but he was angry.ask for clarity why I talk like that. Whatever my explanation, still he'll be hard to move on, so I'm sorry "
Maniac game husband in my opinion is ingrained, both games on the computer and games on mobile. Sleep always overnight until dawn, sleep already at 1 am, suddenly wake up to continue playing the game at 4 am, body position sitting up to hours, so now the husband suffers from back pain, so that the husband suffers from back pain, it's hard to stand up straight and sit up straight, he always complains of his back pain, I remember that" it's because too long sitting, less sitting for hours", he then talked while burning fire" not because of that, because of a work accident that fell from the elevator.".
I was just silent, the husband was unconscious and did not remember before he crashed from the elevator, the husband had already suffered from back pain, even I had pricked because he could not say anything. Before marriage, the husband was already a game maniac, lingering long sitting in front of the computer to play games.
I was afraid we became a big fight I immediately rushed to take another topic of conversation. Husband could not be criticized.
The habit of the husband who linger long playing games, in imitation of children, the husband is not aware that he has set an example that is not good, again he blamed the child and I who can not control the child, even though he himself installed the game in his child's phone. Instead of giving games in the form of educational lessons or quality things even give war games, even though the daughter is female.so formed the mental of children who are rebellious, irritable, lazy, and less social.
Again the husband blames me for teaching the child, too soft.
Even though you want to be shouted at to be reminded of children, so as not to play too much hp. the same time just be done later or tomorrow it has been repeated again. I can only give up and pray, may God change the minds of children to be better, wiser, and more mature. That's all I can do instead of my husband getting angry and blaming me.
With such an attitude makes, my mood is cold to the husband, never mind, Do what you want, I also do what I can do. Let it flow and walk as it is.
#hampa and empty. Because everything I do seems wrong in the eyes of my husband, managing my finances is considered imprudent, even though I think I've been ironic, even the side dishes in the form of tempe know, already in katain, "that's it", "i'm too stingy".
Should my husband count the numbers, make the details of how much he gave me with my expenses, I complained about the increase in groceries in the market husband did not care.
If I count how much he spends on bird feed, buy caterpillars, and crickets for a total of a month. I have never enjoyed it myself.
