"My Husband Doesn't Match My Expectations"
Looking for extra money
"Your son is bon", at the end of this month you can buy a bag, I said to Ibon friends 1 campus.
"You're good too, you have kids and I..." Ibon said while bowing languidly.
"That's Ly's life" he told me
I just heard him keep saying the word while looking into his eyes, occasionally sipping the drink that was in front of us, and nodding a nod.
"Sometimes what we see doesn't match the reality, you see I can buy bags at the end of the month with my own money, Instead I see you happier than I already have children, soon your son Junior High. I am not even one child"
"shopping this shopping is also my outlet, to take away my cravings. My in-laws used to ask me 'when to have children', it was such a burden. I also saw the saturation and boredom of my husband. I can only give up and continue to hope that the time will come for God to grant our prayers.
We haven't seen each other in 10 years. Now meeting at Martini's wedding a college friend as well, among the five of us who are friends 1 gang. Martini was the last one married from among us.
I and Ibon promised to come to Martini's wedding, after coming home from the party we intended to chat in the cafeteria near Martini's wedding guesthouse. Because soon we will go home each and continue their respective routines, although 1 province but we rarely meet because each has their own business.
I already have 3 daughters who are each 9,8,5 years old, while Ibon is married 9 years but has no children, she is a working woman who has her own income not only ask for the same husband.
I do not regret my marriage, nor regret my husband's meager salary, I am only saddened by my husband's inconsiderate and selfish treatment.
'I want to have my own income, what if I sell online, I will offer clothing products through social media'. I am in my heart thinking. I have a group friend in a worship meeting, he has a clothes sale at home try later I go to his house and ask him, a myriad of plans have been in my heart.
Tiur is my friend, he wants to give me some clothes to sell, he prices each one of them, I sell them after I take some profit, how much did I sell directly to Tiur.
I sell clothes I take from Tiur I rent to the mother of my child's friend's mother school, some of which I sell through online I post pictures through social media Facebook. I set the size of the clothes and the price.
Thankfully it turns out that the mother of my son's friend's mother is interested but on average they pay her no weekly installments, pay at the end of the month, there are 2,000/day installments. I just want what mother's will, as long as my goods sell. But to my friend Tiur the owner of the clothes I paid cash, and my earrings 2 grams I pawned without my husband's knowledge.
Sometimes if there is a kitchen need that I do not use the benefits of the results of selling online, and even then I do not tell my husband, if it is urgent to ask again to the husband, if it is urgent, then the angry husband that makes me sometimes hurt. It's like my husband doesn't want to know how I feel.
Take goods from Tiur only last up to 6 months, the need for clothing is not every day, and I think seasonally, coincidentally want to enter a new school year, he said, the mother's mother's need is to buy the child's school equipment and supplies. I also do not have many relationships.my scope is only limited to mother mother of a child's Kindergarten, after they finished, I have rarely met them.
Selling online through social media Facebook I still continue, but not from Tiur. Because Tiur rarely posts in groups, I post from others his term dropship system. Not bad there is a practice of 2-3 strands of clothes per month, I also open the carpet for mothers around the complex, I do not dare to profit a lot of good things that are important practice that is the principle.
Selling online does not necessarily make me rich, at least I have a small deposit of money, and I can use it in the moment of sudden, during the holidays to the village because the husband also only gives enough for the cost of commuting alone.from a little savings from selling online when the mother asks to buy fish and kitchen needs, just to pay for the money, I can give to my mother, it is a satisfaction for me, although not how nominal, because all this time I could never give to my mother.
I want to have a real business there are goods, not by dropship. Sometimes in the dropship shortage we only see in photos, information needed by customers what good or not we can not information to the customer, sometimes the customer is disappointed, sometimes the customer is disappointed, old goods arrive, goods do not fit the model, do not fit the color, smallness, greatness, when it is real is not our fault, the customer so disappointed, it makes me lazy to sell online.
If I complain about all the problems to the husband, the husband even angry angry "That's why do not be pretentious selling online, if you do not want to accept the risk" I just keep quiet, too, fear of aggravating the atmosphere becomes heated and prolonged.
In the heart is actually disappointed with such a response, not the intention of not accepting all the risks and consequences, just want to share or want a real sense of exchange of thoughts, actually, not want to ask for a solution or solution.Just share unek unek actually means.
But that's my husband, what we're telling you is always being negatively responded to and angry.
though it should be supportive, can not my husband feel how much pain I feel a scholar does not have a job?, not lazy not to apply for a real job, actually, but there is a lot to consider children who take care of them, how to do homework and so forth.
What husband can not feel, if women do not hold the money for a thousand circumference. That's how my husband is. Support from the husband what I did was never there, but always insinuating, if I only ask for money, the year just squandered money, wasteful.
Very contrary to the statement of the husband said I was too wasteful and stingy. The cut of the side dish for eating is very small, even though it means reducing shopping money, because the shopping money given by the husband is actually not enough. Children's snacks alone can not I give 2000/day, I replace it by making snacks at home, porridge, fried sweet potatoes, fried bananas, compotes, and so forth. I really do not understand the mind of the husband, not thinking or insightful like him, even though my husband is an academic person.
O Lord, may you open the door of your provision for the servant, I will always say to the Lord, hoping that the time comes for our lives to be better. Children can also be children that Sholeh can make pride for the family.
Hoping like the story in a new soap opera a few months already rich. Dreaming while smiling to yourself.
