"My Husband Doesn't Match My Expectations"

I always said extravagant

"Pak ask for money" I said to the husband while thrusting my hand like asking the husband because he meant to cook side dishes and vegetables turned out the gas was exhausted.

"Oh, I'm dizzy if this is the case, it's over apparently your money handle?" asked the husband a little glaring at his eyes.

"What do you mean, yesterday you asked for 2.5 million money to hold for shopping, now still the 18th has said no, what does it mean?The husband kept asking, as if I was squandering the shopping money.

"Father will know, what our side dishes are everyday, it will mean I've been ironic" I try to keep explaining

"That's your business, I don't want to know anyway" the husband then passed away leaving me

I keep following him" Continue today we want to fast until the end of the month?" I kept talking while I was beingwitching like a beggar

Husband then gave a fraction of 50,000 two pieces while saying "Don't know say it, Gini gini aja we".

Before the young date of payday husband time, I begged my husband so that I was given a round direct shopping money of 2.5 million per month, because the husband so far after 13 years we married the husband gave the initial shopping money to be given 500,000, if there is need again ask for 200,000 if you want to pay the tuition request, if you want to pay the school tuition, not given for 1 month, though,

When I asked for that nominal amount, the husband was angry, I knew he did not agree, and he thought it was a very large amount, all night he did not talk and innate speech and emotion, he said, though I should ask for above 2.5 million because if the count is less sure not enough, because the first child just pay the tuition has 500,000, electricity 300,000, rice mandatory 30 kg, because the first child has to pay the tuition fee is 500,000, electricity 300,000, rice required 30 kg, already the range of 300,000 is already the cheapest rice. the rest is already 1.4 million. Have not bought toiletries/wash, kitchen supplies, buy side dishes/vegetables every day. If you are curious, your husband should calculate my expenses, even though he knows the cost of electricity, rice and tuition, it is a fee that must be spent, not even angry, cursing and mocking.

Finally, the husband agreed to the nominal, but always insinuated me while talking to the child's son "mama rose the salary, even though the father's salary is not"

I also just smile.

Inevitably the husband finally gave me more shopping money if I asked, and ready to be ready if angry.the husband said "the money in my account is up, my account is up, there's nothing else to swipe, don't you think it's still there" while handing over a few bills for use until the end of the month.

Though if in total all from income to all husband installments, from KPR installments, Hp/AC installments. It is better to buy in installments rather than having to be in kumpulin to buy goods for example, will not be able to collect even run out. Therefore, if you want there are goods, you must buy nyicil.

The husband should still have money, because I know the husband's salary and all the expenses.

I can't say any more words my husband so royal to others and his parents, without telling me. If in total everything issued by the husband should still be lacking.

I asked in my heart, where is the husband's money why his ngaku has run out, even though I think it has not run out.

If I ask that to the husband, surely he will be angry, but the husband has been a few months dishonest spending.

Really strapping husband, able to buy for the purposes of his online games, even though he knows that our living costs are not enough, sometimes the husband also wants to participate in football betting, half betting system, one, one, or one and a half ahh my brain cannot digest how his betting system is. I'm not interested and it makes no sense that the husband tells his betting system. Which in my brain is just how to make tomorrow can still eat.

I'm sad to see my daughter who is all three bodies very thin, indeed her child is very difficult to eat But if given to drink milk she can certainly be fat. What power, I can't afford milk. My husband has no understanding.

I have to have extra income, continue to want to expect the husband's salary, it is difficult, sometimes I lie to my husband I say the money is out of shopping, meaning I want to set aside 100,000/month to save, sometimes I lie to my husband I say the money is out, the fact is at the end of the month that the rules for savings are instead used for living expenses.

Not ungrateful for what God has given now, but it is still lacking for the cost of living, wanting to be able to bring children occasionally to eat in restaurants is not a luxurious lifestyle, not a luxury snobs, but it is very hopeful to eat well together with children, take children to the playground or to the pool that we almost never do because it is not enough financial constraints. When can I make all that happen, expecting a husband's salary is very unlikely.

What work can I do, my online sales are not selling. Want to apply for a child's work can not be independent, I am the one among all children leaving and coming home from school on a motorcycle. If I work means having to pay for child school transportation, then I have to have a fairly large salary.

God is a dilemma, what work can I do so I can earn extra money, and hope that our lives can be better.

I tried searching on the internet, what do you think the work I can do online and of course I can make money online is indeed clumsy.

Because often see Facebook and sometimes there are advertisements milling around on Facebook and Instagram about novels.

It flashed through my mind how yes, if I made a novel about my household life.

I can't put together the right words, I just pray that God opens the door of sustenance for me, and that God gives me creative ideas, and may the Lord bless and give me the pleasure so that what I plan and aspire to may be realized and delivered. Can only surrender