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"Let's take this up, together", my husband ordered his cousin who helped us move our house in a new lease.
My two sisters are no longer with us. They had moved first, living closer to the campus so they could walk. He means without riding the angkot to be more efficient.
"Don't be forced, Li lifted him up, heart-hearted, we'll just lift up" my husband rebuked in anger.
Because I told my husband I might be pregnant, I was 1 month late but not yet tested for pregnancy. With the condition of young pregnancy so I can not lift heavy weight.
After venturing out for a pregnancy test and it turned out to be positive. I was really pregnant.
Not my joy, I was so happy and moved that I shed tears, so I knew I was positive.
I preached this news of joy to my in-laws, they were very happy. My heavy burden was partially released. I was most afraid to contact my in-laws.because they always asked "has it been filled?".
My sister-in-law whose marriage age is only 5 months apart is also not pregnant, if I remember the words of my in-laws at the salonan at my sister-in-law's fiancee's event.
"It's over the deck" said the salon owner.
"Not yet brother" I replied in a soft voice.
My in-laws immediately chimed in on "His sister-in-law will get pregnant first,
I don't know if it's filled anymore" he said, insinuating me.
Because it's been 5 months of my marriage I'm not pregnant yet. Those words really make me sad. So not infrequently I always cry in prayer asking God to be given a baby immediately.
Until I had thought to be up to it if it should be divorced because it can not be hereditary love.
But God is very good, God granted the prayer of his servant who always begged Him.
Thankfully with my pregnancy, my husband was more considerate and easily unselfish.
My husband has not yet got a job, I am still the backbone when income has been reduced.
The meal money from my two sisters is no more, because there is no longer one house. The income only depends on my salary.
Though the expenditure is increasing, the money needs of the household, plus the cost of freight to commute to work, and the cost of smoking my husband.
My condition is pregnant, and how tired it is to come home from work. My husband is not open heart to want to be involved in helping me who still have to clean the house, cook and wash dishes, he is always cool playing games in front of the computer.
My sister used to live 1 house with me, she was angry because my sister had no communication and no work, now karma has turned to her.
He's sitting around playing games, washing dishes can't. I tried to say hello, or just release the strands to him.
My husband only answered, yes, no, and sometimes he didn't focus on hearing and answering my questions. I immediately left her and went to sleep.
At 3am I saw my husband still in front of the computer, after I rebuked him he ended the game. That's my husband's routine every day, even months.
"Tomorrow I have an interview call" my husband said excitedly.
I am also very happy to respond to him.
"Will it work or not" asked my husband.
"Ease the work directly yes", I also continue to encourage it.
Given the distance of the test and interview is very long there is an interval of 6 months,
We were together out of the house that morning, I went to my husband's work for an interview call. While praying in my heart, I hope my husband gets to work soon.
As usual the afternoon after work, I saw my husband was at home and was busy doing a routine that is playing games in front of the computer.
I sat down next to him and asked, "How was the interview today?".
"Wait for the next call", interrupted my husband in a low voice,
I'm very disappointed, I really hope at least next month to come to work, but the truth is not.
I can't show my displeasure in front of my husband. I also keep encouraging him.
At least I am grateful for the interview call. Now just hope and pray hopefully there will be a next call.
I encouraged my husband by saying, "Well, we'll wait for the next call".
The seven-monthly event of my pregnancy went well, attended only by the closest family of both parties, namely the party of me and the party of my husband.
All the cost of eating together was borne by my in-laws, the party from me also brought the goldfish handover as well as the cost from my side, we had no expenses at all.
Prayer prayer is offered, so that the process of birth is smooth, the hope of the child who will be born is also healthy. A few days later all the family came home, the situation back home as usual just me and my husband.
The condition is now calmer, because my two sisters do not live in the house with me anymore.
No one else wants to be scolded by my husband. I once asked my sister's news to my mother, my sister often returned home.
"you can, is there no course?" I thought to myself.
Though again no campus holidays, neighbors also have students, they do not have holidays. I didn't ask at length anymore, afraid of thinking.
I am sad if my husband can be more patient in responding to the nature of my sister, even though Andi is my youngest brother. It's no use keeping a grudge in the heart, so illness happens.
At the end of December my husband was able to post after 3 months from the time lapse at the interview call stage, he was told to come to the office.
"I finally got a job, I was told to go in early January. My husband said excitedly.
I said, "Thank God, you finally got a job".
A month before my father left the workplace, I was very tired of the old pregnancy and my job was very heavy.
Sometimes I have to lift a fairly heavy paint, because I work in a paint factory.
My mother came with me,
I'm very happy. Mothers buy a lot of household needs, ranging from toiletries, to the kitchen.
I also bought baby supplies, and I know my mom is a little sad because my sister doesn't live with me anymore, but I can't tell you what.
I'm glad my mom is with me, there's also my sister-in-law, she works in the mall, just like a friend to sleep with, go home early at 9 in the morning, go home at night, a week later go home at 11 pm, so alternated.
Mother who washes clothes, I said no, there is a sister-in-law, but the mother of the person is impatient, still in the wash. It was time for my birth I borrowed my mother's money, I said "later when my mother came home my mother who gave me the fare" my mother agreed. My in-laws came too.
After a week, my mother excused me to come home, I asked for money for my mother's fare. Whether she forgot or didn't know what she had given us, she told her mother that she was asking for the fare to go home.
I hate my husband who does not consider my mother's sacrifice, indeed the mother does not talk too much, if there are in-laws mother goes to the kitchen a lot, sometimes just want to join.
I'm lazy to argue with my husband, he's always tempramental. I once also argued with my husband sister-in-law no longer need to accompany me, I can be independent because I have 1 month of birth, pity he came home at midnight, he said, besides, I do the house business.
My husband immediately negative thoughts, I was kicked, "don't know thank you, you don't care about my sister yes", I cried my husband misunderstood, but that's not what I mean, he sensitively responded to her. That is if there is a relationship with our side, it hurts.
How do I feel about my sister who is always angry when it is only a trivial affair, even though my sister-in-law who does not have time to do business sometimes, I never protest or talk to my husband. My sister-in-law doesn't pay for food. Does he not want to know my feelings?, I do not know if he regrets having wronged my sister, only God knows his way of thinking.