(May) I Fall in Love

Start But Back

Elsewhere Nevan looks so riled up that he has contacted Haura since then but there is no answer at all. Some messages had also been sent, but only in reply by Haura.

Worry is so controlling Nevan. It was not usual for Haura to ignore herself. Nevan thought it was possible that the girl was busy with her work. But after a few hours Haura did not contact him.

Nevan has never been off her cell phone. Repeatedly tried to contact Haura but her phone connection was never answered.

Nevan's attitude is of course very attractive to everyone who feels there. They are gathered in the family room. Enjoy being together by sharing stories about everything. On the sidelines of the conversation sounded happy laughter from them. Not with Nevan. The man could not even digest well what the others were talking about.

Nevan distanced herself from the uproar of the ongoing talks. Trying to calm his mind, hoping Haura is okay there. The man looked at the street out there through the window of their house. Through the dim lights, Nevan can still see the snow has enveloped the entire city streets. Since this morning, a snowstorm has been raging in the city. That's why they just stay home.

"You go where Haura is," the man murmured. His gaze was adrift on the white crystals that descended in succession.

"You're all right, Ra." Nevan looked at his cell phone again. There was still no incoming call from Haura. There were only a few message notifications from Mr. Liam and also Zayn. Nevan opened the message and replied to the message from his father and brother.

The man's gaze was fixed on a house right next to his house. The house had been abandoned by its occupants a few months before Nevan returned to Indonesia. Until now, there seems to be no sign of residents there. Nevan was there for almost a week, but never once did she see the inhabitants of the house.

It's not the house that's the center of Nevan's attention right now. But the man's mind was completely fixed on a girl who was far away. He saw the clock on his phone again. The time shows almost midnight, which means in Indonesia it is also night time.

Nevan had already memorized that the hours now should have been Haura in the back pavilion, since the girl's work had been completed. I don't know what reason Haura ignored him all day. It felt like Nevan was coming home at that moment when she didn't remember anything else. Nevan doesn't want to be selfish. Moreover, after returning to Indonesia, Nevan will take a long time to meet with his grandmama.

"No news from Haura yet?" a voice breaks Nevan's daydream. The one who asked was Niko. In Niko's hand were two cups of tea. One is for Nevan and the other is for her. The two handsome teenagers looked out the window. Smoke was seen billowing from both of their cups.

"Haura hasn't heard from you since?" ask Niko again.

"Hmmmm.." That's just Nevan's answer. The rest is silent. Niko sipped the hot tea that was in her hand. Nevan again tried to contact Haura. This time even Haura's phone was unable to receive calls. That means Haura's phone is running out of power.

"Where are you going Haura? Don't worry me" Nevan murmured again.

"He'll be fine. Tomorrow we'll go home."

Niko's words weren't enough to calm Nevan down. Waiting for tomorrow seems like a long time for Nevan. It's still a few hours away.

"Lo was too worried. Haura just lost the news for a day." Niko smiled mockingly towards Nevan. Then he went back to sipping his tea. Likewise, Nevan also sipped his tea which had been in his hands since.

"Worrying is too much. Just one day, what if Haura disappears forever?"

Degs....

Nevan's heart suddenly thumped because of the last sentence Niko said. "What if Haura disappears from her life? No, that's not going to happen," Nevan's inner self rebelled.

"Haura is not going anywhere" Nevan replied confidently. Nevan turned her eyes to look at her interlocutor Niko. "If Haura disappears, I'll make sure that I find her wherever she is and by whatever means."

The corner of Niko's lips formed a small smile. Niko was very sure of what Nevan said. His cousin and best friend never messed with his words. It was done by Nevan.

Now the three friends stand parallel to each other facing the window that displays the city street view at night. The snow storm is not over. Niko and Gian stand on either side of Nevan.

"Lo loves her Van.... And don't deny it" Gian added.

Nevan looks riled up. The look on his face changed immediately because of Gian's words.

"Love?" Nevan didn't believe those words. She is in love with Haura. Falling in love with a girl who always makes her heart restless when they are far apart.

"Lo fell in love with Van. Admit it," Niko agreed with Gian's words. "It's time to forget him" Niko added.

For a moment they were silent. They knew very well that she meant Niko was a girl who had been present in Nevan's life. A girl Nevan once loved.

"I think your feelings for Alesha were just a pity because of Alesha's life at the time. Don't torture yourself rich gini. He left without saying goodbye. And you're still waiting for him?" gian said at length. Gian and Niko know enough about Nevan's relationship and a girl named Alesha.

Nevan's mind tries to recall Alesha's face. The girl who broke her heart before she returned to Indonesia. But the shadow of the face was faint. Also Nevan has forgotten Alesha. Never once did Alesha cross Nevan's mind. Not even in a dream. Like Nevan has completely forgotten the girl.

It was precisely Haura's face that flashed through Nevan's mind. The simple girl who always smiled sweetly at him. The girl who always cries for it. The girl who gives a different color in Nevan's life. Even the girl who could never be forgotten even during their ten years apart.

Maybe it's love. Nevan began to accept the word as a form of affection all this time to Haura. "Gue fell in love with Haura?" Nevan muttered.

"Lo kangen Haura? Lo is agitated while away from Haura. Lo gets angry when Haura is with Farel. That's Van's love. Don't pretend to be stupid" Gian explained about Nevan's feelings. It was as if he could feel everything Nevan felt.

Everything Gian said was true. That's what Nevan always felt. "Then what should I do?" the plain question from Nevan just came out of his words. Just contact makes Niko and Gian laugh at his stupidity.

"Tell him," Niko hugged Nevan's shoulder. Convince her best friend to express her feelings for Haura. "Honest in your feelings."

"And I'm sure, Haura won't refuse you" Gian said, winking one eye. How not sure, Gian and Niko can guess with certainty that all this time Haura loved Nevan and harbored her feelings. It's just that Nevan's been acting so stupid all along.

"Good luck, bro. Tell him," Niko ended their conversation that night. Niko and Gian leave Nevan alone. So did the others who did not know when they had left the family room. Because the clock was already showing past midnight. Leaving Nevan still standing in her place, the man's gaze was fixed on the empty house next to his house.

"I hope you're okay wherever you are" Nevan monologue with herself as she gazes at the house before her.

"Hauras.... I'm in love. I love you."

In his daydreams suddenly lights up from the house that has been the center of Nevan's attention since. Nevan widened his eyes. Since the beginning of his life in the city, no one was seen in the house. The silhouette of a person was clearly visible from behind the window curtain of the house. Nevan could not see who the silhouette belonged to. But the man's heart was racing.

Everything seemed to be being played with by their own feelings. There is a love that has been confessed. There is someone waiting. There is also someone who is heartbroken. There was also someone coming back.

Everything will never be the same as before. When you want to start with a new page, the past comes back with certainty. Though hope is dim, many hearts will be wounded.