(May) I Fall in Love

About Farrel

"What did you order, Ra?" farrel asked the sweet girl who was sitting in front of him. Haura researched around the meatball stall where she and Farrel were now. The teenager's second favorite meatball stall since the past year. Located not far from the High School where Haura attended first. But lately they very rarely visit the place.

Remembering a year ago when Haura and Farrel often enjoyed meatballs at the place when they returned home from school. Almost every day Farrel always pick Haura home from school. But never once did Farrell pick up Haura in her school uniform. At that time Haura considered Farrel a handsome and kind street child.

It was roughly the nickname Farrel had in Haura's eyes before Haura knew that Farrel was attending one of the city's elite schools. Though if you think about it now, it is not the time to go home from school at Sander International High School. Somehow Farrel could pick her up every day, Haura did not know.

"This place is still the same, brother. Nothing has changed" Haura said. Instead of answering what food he wanted to order, Haura instead commented on the meatball stall.

"Yes nothing has changed" Farrel said. "That's what changed was you, Haura. Now you have no more time to accompany me to eat here."

Farrel's words were truly striking to Haura. What the man in front of him said. Now he and Farrel very rarely visit the place. Since living in the Sander family residence, Haura and Farrel have rarely played together. Haura also felt uneasy if her friend came to visit her place. Because for Haura, she and her mother just hitchhiked there. So it was fitting for Haura to restrict her friend from visiting.

Haura felt guilty towards Farrel who had always been kind to her. Always there for him. Accompany him in difficult times.

“Sorry yes Brother Farrel,” says Haura sincerely.

While Farrel just smiled sweetly at the girl before him. Swiping the top of Haura's head. That's what Farrel always does with Haura.

“So what did you order, boy?”

A call that Haura dislikes. Farrell still thinks of her as a little girl.

"Ordinary kayak."

"OK...." Farrel already knew what Haura used to message. Meatballs urate and iced orange. The order is always the same every Haura visits the place.

"Sister Farrel why would you want to eat in a place like this?" asked Haura astonished.

"Such a place like this how do you mean Ra?" Farrell asked back.

"Yes a regular meatball stall like this." Haura was convinced that Farrel was not from an ordinary family. Otherwise Farrel could have been able to attend the elite school where they are now. The monthly fee alone is fantastic. Even Mother Haura's salary will not be enough to pay her tuition fees every month. Moreover, Farrel is not a student who is registered as a scholarship recipient like himself.

Farrel never mentioned anything about his family. Haura once asked because she was very curious about Farrel's background. But Farrell did not give a definite answer.

"I don't have a family. If I may, I want to be part of your family." That was Farrell's reply to Haura at that time.

Haura asked again afterwards. Farrell says he is an orphan. There is never a definite answer.

In addition to the distribution of the report, Farrel sat alone at the VIP table without being accompanied by his parents. Haura was getting curious about the handsome and kind-hearted man before her now.

"Sister Farrel, why was Farrel alone that day?" asked Haura was no longer able to stem her curiosity.

Haura has known Farrel for several years. Their relationship is so close. But Farrel seemed to close the meeting about his family.

It was not that Farrel did not trust Haura. Nor was it that Farrel did not want to open up to Haura. There was a wound that Farrel had buried deep. The man did not want to open old wounds about his family.

"Raport's day. Why isn't Farrel with the family?" ask Haura again.

"Emmm... Because I'm an orphan, Haura," Farrel replied.

"What time is it, brother? honestly dong same Haura," whined the teenage girl again.

"Keep why Brother Farrel can sit at the VIP table?" haura asked still curious and hoped there was one question that would be answered seriously by Farrel.

Farrel smiled knot. Apparently Haura's curiosity was so great about her. "Because the table was empty, so I sat there," Farrel replied.

"They... Brother Farrel. Seriously dong, Haura is really curious."

"Little children can't be too anxious. If you know a lot of it, it'll be quick." Farrel scrambled Haura's shaken hair.

"Can be a mess of Haura's hair. Farrel nyebelin ikh."

"Some of you want to know too much. Nothing interesting about my life." Farrel looked at Haura who was tidying up her hair.

"Indeed Haura is big... Bummer of Farrel."

The girl Farrel always called as a child has now stolen the man's heart completely. But Farrel realized that his love was only one-sided. His love will never be returned. Haura's heart had completely belonged to Nevan.

However, Farrel still wanted to protect Haura with all his heart. I don't want the girl I love getting hurt. Even by Nevan. Farrel does not want to bother whether someday his love will be reciprocated or not. For Farrel, Haura's love is far more important than her own feelings.

"Sister Farrel open dong same Haura. Farrel can tell you anything, Haura is ready to be a good listener and Haura is ready to be a place for Farrel to complain," Haura was still not satisfied before getting a definite answer from Farrel. Surely everything the girl said was a sincerity. Farrell knows that.

"Open how Haura.... Should I undress here? Are you so curious?" god Farrell.

"Ikh Farrel what the hell." Haura clucked resentfully at her interlocutor. "It's not open that's Farrel's brother. But about yourself, Farrel. Why doesn't Farrel want to share Haura's story?"

Farrel simply smiled at the girl before him at this moment. "There are a few things you don't need to tell me. Not because it does not want to share the story, but better the story is just stored neatly for yourself. Part of the story will hurt. Better to forget or pretend it never happened to protect yourself from pain."

Farrel's words silenced Haura. The girl took a closer look at what Farrel was actually trying to cover. Trying to find answers through Farrel's eyes. Looking further at the kind-hearted man before him.

Haura could not guess exactly what had happened to Farrel. About the Farrel family, about the story of the man's journey. Also about what injuries Farrel had been responsible for.

Farrell looked out of nowhere. His mind wandered at some unknown time. Time is the hardest part of his life. The man clenched his jaw. Resisting sadness is also anger. Haura found out that the man was not okay.

Haura clasped Farrel's hand tightly. Trying to give peace to Farrel who has been considered as his brother.

"Haura here Brother Farrel," said the girl shrieked. Hinted that he was there for Farrel.

Farrel looked at him, smiling at Haura.