Want a Life of Heaven

39. Must get used!

The wound needs more time...

Still to be treated, though,

Still need to get used to..

Wherever the wound is located,

This heart becomes immune to it.

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Agnia returned to her classroom, sitting in her chair with a troubled face. In his heart was raging at this moment. It is not envy or resentment that reigns, but the fact that their relationship is no longer the same is painful.

How should he behave? Even just looking at Raina, it was enough to make those painful memories return to the surface. Agnia could see Adi's eyes and Alisya's smile on the boy.

What was most painful to Agnia, was the fact that Adi and Alisya, they were living happily together even after leaving lasting wounds for her.

Agnia took a deep breath, trying to strengthen herself. Because from now on, he must get used to meeting people in his past. Maybe even Adi.

Undifferent unrest was also felt by Alisya. There is a sense of longing, for him Agnia remains the only friend. There was also guilt, he realized that he had hurt Agnia very much. There was also the pain, Adi recalled being at the table this morning offering their child a school elsewhere.

Turns out Agnia, that's the reason.

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Akbar departed for the campus with a jiggle of ojeg online, getting off the bike with a lethargic face. Not because of the prestige of riding ojeg, but this morning he has been lectured because 'not careful'. And Akbar can't defend himself much, his little heart confesses wrong.

Akmal who came first, just a few minutes earlier smiled, waiting for Akbar to approach. While Akbar, bowed lethargic. Abai will be Akmal's existence.

"You should call me.. I can pick it up."

Akbar looked up at last, staring back at Akmal.

"Don't get along!" akbar said, joking. "People can misunderstand!"

"Who?"

Akbar turned to a group of girls who were watching the two of them from the campus corridor. Akmal followed Akbar's gaze, smiling. It turns out.

"Don't smile!" pelototik Akbar, can see the enthusiasm of the students after getting a smile from Akmal. "They said your smile was unsettling." Akbar added, chipping at the end of his speech. Disagree, feeling sweeter than Akmal's smile.

"That's.. Spontaneity."

"Damn.. Handsome guy.."

The students who saw the scene were amazed, the two people with the best reputation on campus walked together. Like idol stars, they are the center of attention.

"Oiya.. You haven't contacted Agni lately?"

Akmal shakes. "Why?"

"Cuman.. But you should have dong's effort.. Seriously." said Akbar, sniffing his shoulder. Emphasize the word 'serious calories'.

"the problem.. Brother you don't work with things like that.. Should slow down, his heart pulled slowly. After that, let him decide." Akmal replied. Then slow down. "For some women, they prefer to be given a point of contempt. Didn't you?"

"Stop it.." Akbar sniffed his shoulders, did not understand, did not want to understand, did not know, and did not want to know. "Gue's not a girl, I don't understand how they feel."

"Yes.. So, understanding the feelings of women takes more than a lifetime. Only women can understand the feelings of other women."

Akbar snorted, smiling bitterly. Remembering something else. "Although, women can also be the most hurt for other women."

Akmal nodded, understanding what came to Akbar's head until the sentence was thrown from his mouth.

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Classes for early childhood have begun, Agnia like the first day of school every year, helping children recognize objects around first.

In playing classes, it has not been taught how to read and write. They're still very small, they don't understand much more than they focus. Some crying, some fighting.. That is the most important process in this prodesi.

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Alisya waited, sitting with the other guardians in the courtyard. They are busy talking, one or two bring clothes to food. Alisya quickly mingled, joining in on every chat. On her lips was a smile, yet her heart was as raging as Agnia felt.

"Si Ade means in the same teaching Mis. Agnia, yes." said one of the student guardians, asking Alisya.

Alisya. "Yes. Raina just entered this year, just entered today even.."

"How old is he?"

"Three and a half years.."

"Oh.. A little girl, the age of her son Bu Tami. Indra's name.."

Alisya nodded again, for in the next few topics also just nodded and smiled. But when the chatter of the guardian mothers of this student arrived to discuss Agnia, Alisya spontaneously stared without blinking. For so long he did not hear news of Agnia, here he knew at least a little something related to his best friend. Or the.. If presumptuous, maybe an ex-friend?

"But, which I was horrified.. He said Mis Agnia had failed marriage. That's why he's still alone now.."

Alisya sighed, these mothers really..

"What connection?" the other timpal. "I'm afraid of doing it again.."

"Who knows how deep someone's wound is? There may be trauma.. Who knows?

"Want to.."

"Could indeed.. What we don't deserve is our mouth. What about Bu Agnia Denger?"

The mothers finally kept quiet, nodding. Each one thinks what chat topics are right for them to start with. So did Alisya whose heart was equally unsettled. Hearing the chatter of the mothers in front of him this made one corner in his heart also sliced.

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"Hello.." Agnia approached, looking at the ponytailed girl with a smile. "Raina.. Want, yeah.. Up front? Let's introduce ourselves." said Agnia, convincing the girl with the puffed-up cheek to stop the manyun.

"And if you don't know, then no dear.. Later so that his friends know. And Raina had many friends." persuaded Agnia, trying as gently as possible on Raina who hid her face.

"Where?"

The boy got up, received his teacher's hand. Walk with Agnia towards the front of the class. It seems that Raina is no different from Alisya, always able to be conquered with soft words.

Alisya silently looked at it from behind the glass, remembering how Agnia each time persuaded him.His heart ached even more when she saw Agnia smiling carelessly, treating Raina the same as the others. Even though he knew, it was not easy for Agnia to deal with it. And Raina, is a reflection of her and Adi. It was inconceivable how hard Agnia held back.

Agnia, though her heart was sliced every time she saw Raina who had Adi eyes and Alisya smile, kept smiling. Support Raina. Not one bit in her heart was disappointed, and if there was, then Raina should not have had the effects of that disappointment.

For her already strong, magnified, and affectionate self, Agnia was grateful. Give her the best appreciation for herself.

"You did it, Agnia.." as if she were talking to her other self. The inner voice of the one person who cares the most. That man, is himself.