Want a Life of Heaven

30. Alisya & Adi; Trouble lighter?

How should trust?

Not by being by your side,

Then I'm just yours?

Can there be trust without being convinced?

Maybe I'm tired of convincing you,

You're tired of listening to me.

***

A tall man with a handsome face and a charming bangir nose was currently getting out of his car.

Adi, the father of one child, walked quickly to his house. With his big step impatiently met the two people waiting inside there.

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat.." Adi pushed open the door of his house, reading his greetings cheerfully.

"Wa'alaikumsalaam.." replied the curly-haired woman who was sitting in the middle room of the house. Smile with dimples that are also charming. That is Alisya, the woman who has given a beautiful girl to Adi.

"Where, Mas?" he asked, looking at the attention of the husband who sat next to him.

"The pretty one, where?" ask Adi.

"Sleep.." Alisya brief. "My question has not been answered.."

Adi smiled, embracing his wife warmly. How romantic.

"Berez. Letter of our move, it's all done."

Alisya allowed her back to sit upright. Her eyes turned on her husband's empty hands.

"Where do the letters go?"

"In the car." replied Adi, immediately responded to the astonished arm of the wife.

"Hat habit!" alisya protest, then rise. "Let me take it, for a second."

Adi nodded, which was in vain because Alisya had already left without seeing his nod. Adi smiled faintly, looking at his wife's back that was starting to far away.

Helaan breath escaped from Adi's mouth just like that, his back he rested comfortably on his sopa. His eyes were fixed on the ceiling of his new home.

The shadow of Agnia had once again flashed through his mind, there was a guilt he could never say when he saw the girl for the first time after such a long time. The incredible guilt that made her mouth shut to apologize, as well as the guilt that made her unable to look at Agnia's black eyeballs three years ago. He felt very embarrassed even to say goodbye at that time.

But seeing the girl's smile today, she calmed down. Seeing Agnia was fine, made her relieved. Without knowing how heavy the three years Agnia had missed to date.

Since the events three years ago all knew Agnia was not okay, Adi and Alisya knew that. So for the sake of seeing how the smile was painted on Agnia's face today, made Adi sure, the difficult time had already passed.

Who wants to fail to get married? A woman risks everything when she loves.

"Agni. sorry. What happened must have hurt you. mas have no defense, all your hatred, you accept.."

Adi rubbed his face rough, straightening his sitting position. Recalling the last words he said to Agnia over the phone. He was so embarrassed that he could not look directly at Agnia's face to apologize.

Not getting an answer, Adi continued his words. "But don't think that you don't love you, by Allah, you will have a place in your heart forever.."

"It's a mistake mas, let the mas who carry this guilt for life." Adi's voice began to tremble at that time, the infinite shame and guilt that he got. Agnia never returned her words.

"For what happens, let me tell your parents. Let them decide how this relationship will be.."

"Don't." there was a soft answer at that moment, with her trembling voice Agnia replied without hesitation. "Just go.. Relationships built on these lies need not hurt more people. Just go. It might be better..."

Adi sighed, Agnia's words at that time seemed to hang. Today it became unthinkable, better for whom did Agnia mean?

"Oh, yes.. Want tea?" tawar Alisya, directly walked towards the kitchen after a while from his room.

"Can.." Adi got up, followed his wife to the kitchen.

"I think you're so tense, what's the matter?" alisya asked, as her steps did not stop looking for a place where tea and sugar were. He still forgets a lot apparently, with the layout of the new house one week they occupy.

"No papa." answered Adi with a sigh. Of course it is only reinforcement if something happens.

Alisya nodded, Adi would not like it if forced. Choose silence, anyway if you feel the need for her husband will talk to himself.

Silent for a moment, Adi was thinking what should he say?

"Totally.. Mas had seen Agnia." said Adi later, could not hide even a small thing from his wife.

Degs..

For the sake of hearing that, Alisya's hand unconsciously stopped for a moment while stirring the sweet tea she made for her husband. It turns out that it really happened, slowly they came back to meet Agnia.

Adi looked at his wife's back, trying to see Alisya's reaction at that moment.

"But he looks fine." added Adi.

Alisya turned around, smilingly bringing tea before her husband.

"i know's.. A few days ago, I also met him." said Alisya, again showing an indecipherable smile in Adi's eyes. "And he looked so messed up as soon as he saw me" he added, with his eyes lowered. It is undeniable if he also has guilt on his past friend, but the fear of losing Adi is greater. Until he always tried not to bring up the old story. Try as hard as you can fear if the memories arise and damage the household that is like nothing short of anything at this time.

Adi was silent for a moment. "When? You didn't tell me?"

Adi's curiosity, managed to ignite Alisya's jealousy. "Make what, Mom? Is he still important to us?"

Adi who realized that, looked at his wife fixedly. Not understanding why just mentioning the name Agnia always makes Alisya jealous. Whereas the one on his side right now was Alisya. Agnia is only part of their story. "You know better if he is still important to you or not" said Adi, trying to remind if Agnia is his own best friend.The relationship with him did end the day Agnia told him to leave, but the relationship between Agnia and Alisya should still leave memories even though they have not been established for a long time.

"No, I mean... Does he always have to be in our relationship? He's important to me, but that doesn't mean he should be in your heart.."

Adi ruffled her hair in frustration, how many times would she have to say that Agnia was already a part of her past. He was tired of every Alisya demanding the same thing in every debate.

"I'm cape with you.. Agni.." Adi hung his words, feeling it would be complicated if the name he called. "That woman, that part of my past. But whatever, he's your best friend."

"But I'm just asking..."

"Yes, no need to be extended.. There's no point in me explaining it a thousand times, if you don't want to believe it. I'll always be wrong."

Alisya was silent, furious how her husband did not understand what she meant.

But Adi just did not understand, how should he say if all he cares about is himself. The jealousy completely blinded his wife's eyes. He was always made emotional, Alisya's jealousy made his loyalty and love seem meaningless in the eyes of his wife.

The two sour faces, with the debate that ended in silence, did not know if the fires that lit between the two were being witnessed by their only daughter directly.

***

Agnia who was at her brother's residence was dumbfounded for a moment, her hands stopped. He who was eating meatballs with Puspa and Zain felt like his name was being mentioned in other people's chat.

Puspa frowned, looking at his sister-in-law in surprise. "Why?"

Agnia shook her head slowly, she herself was astonished.

"My ears are hot.."

"There is another gibahin." said Puspa origin, making Agnia smile.

"No, Ma'am, it's like.." replied Agnia sure. while touching both of her ears covered with hijab. Do not know, if now he is not just a topic of conversation of others, but unconsciously and involuntarily become a spark of debate in the household of others.

If you knew, Agnia would not have accepted. Where's the mistake there? Why Agnia seemed to be the third person at the moment, while Alisya was clearly the third person in their past.