Want a Life of Heaven

117. Alisya

Let me be one

There are many reasons that make you smile.

So you don't have any more doubts

Tuk made me a part of your home

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Adi vented his disappointment on Alisya with silence. It's not just about his feelings, but isn't his wife already outrageous?

Now that one question in his head, did all these revealed facts also mean that he had fallen into Alisya's trap? And if it's planned, doesn't that make it look pathetic?

"Mas.it's not what you think it is.." Alisya could not bear to linger, this morning even before Raina he begged expectantly to be heard.

Must how? Adi doesn't know how he should behave. He was angry, annoyed, felt himself pitiful, and disgusted with Alisya's behavior that was beyond his expectations. All that arouses regret in his heart, he is increasingly aware that his behavior makes Agnia not only lose her love and a friend at the same time.

"Bag.."

Adi grunted softly, look at his pitiful ascetic now. And Alisya, even more pathetic. The woman who had given him a daughter was pleading. Just when every wish is asked to be fulfilled. Adi was fed up, he couldn't take much longer to see Alisya. No matter what Raina was, her disappointment could not be hidden.

"Bag.." Alisya again called out softly, now while holding Adi's hand. Don't want her husband to just leave with a misunderstanding.

"Deliver!"

Alisya more and more glued her grip on Adi's arm, shook her head quickly. "You know for yourself that's not true, Mom. That. it happened so. I never intended to hurt Agnia just like you.."

"Then the guy?" Adi turned his head, drawing a sharp look at his wife. "Why did you keep him away from Agnia? It's not a matter of misunderstanding, but your pathetic attitude.." Adi sighed, he did not want to say too much that could hurt his wife. "You're outrageous. If you intend to make Agnia alienated the sign that something is wrong in you."

Alisya closed her eyes for a moment, why was her heart so sick at this moment. "Experience again and again.why did everyone say that? Not you, Indri even Gian.. Why continue to judge me? You think I don't feel guilty?" tanyakanya. Alisya is now trying to defend himself, everything he wants to convey seems to be coming out by itself this very second.

"I was a teenager at the time, okay I admit that I deliberately kept Gian away from Agnia but.. it was because I liked the man, and.. what's wrong with liking?"

"And about the city. You think I'm happy? Every sadness I feel comes from regret, should I say that?"

"None of us wants to hurt Agnia, Mas.. Don't forget that day we met to say goodbye. And if Akbar hadn't come that day it wouldn't have been like this. You must be with Agnia today, happy." Alisya paused, looking in the eyes of her husband who was now flirting again returned his gaze. "That's what you want? Are you sad because of Agnia? And what makes you angry right now, is that regret?"

Alisya held her trembling lips. "I have no intention of hurting Agnia." she repeated. "But after the marriage you failed, and after we lived together.was it wrong for me to keep you? Am I afraid of losing you?"

"Mas..every time I see regret in your eyes, and I'm sick because you know what you expect is Agnia and not me."

"But..what can I do? That fact drives me crazy all day.. I'm afraid of losing you, that's all.."

Alisya could not help but cry in front of Adi as well as Raina, her voice grew quieter at the end of her sentence. Raina who sat down to eat her breakfast joined in gawking for a moment to then focus on eating her, not caring about the drama that was presented before her eyes.

The cry was constantly softening Adi's heart, her chest rumbling painfully. Can't deny if what Alisya accuses him of is true, if time can turn around then the desire of his heart will not let go of Agnia. But this time it was different, his impossible desire aroused guilt in his wife. All this time he did not know if the guilt and remorse in him was seen by Alisya, a fool he was.

The hand of Alisya who had just removed her grip was pulled by Adi, making Alisya's body land in his embrace. His eyes were in tears, his heart was sliced. The only thing that is important here is himself, he can blame Alisya and let his wife bear the burden of sadness for a long time alone.

"I'm sorry." said Adi.

Alisya was still sobbing, sounding a terrible pain there. "I'm not that bad." - Alisya again, now clearly the feeling. He who hit the burden as the usurper of his best friend is now at the peak of tired, hoping that after this all his complaints end.

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Adi clasped Alisya's hands gently just before his wife got out of the car, a warm smile he showed. Appreciating what we have is the best, and Adi chose so at the moment. Rather than assuming the unattainable, it is better to love the one that has been given to him.

Alisya smiled back, grabbed her husband's hand and then kissed the back of Adi's soft hand. To then go out with Raina.

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"You want to snatch her lover, at least you let me get close to her."

Alisya sighed riled, Gian's speech was right. But not exactly either. What he did to Agnia by keeping Gian away had nothing to do with Adi.

His love for Adi grew in the days after Gian showed his disinterest, only when he liked Gian he was jealous of Agnia. Ever thought if he didn't get Gian, then Agnia also can't.

The regret is the fact that his behavior hurt Gian. The man looked annoyed as he said that he had given up Agnia for the second time.

If he had not lied before, would Agnia be happy with Gian while he was happy with Adi?

Alisya gave a long sigh. Should he apologize? Alisya again argued with herself. The crowd around was ignored just like that, in his ears only sounded whispers of his heart that seduce convincing if he did not need to feel guilty. And his other self chimed in, saying that he had gone too far.

"Raina's mother..What's wrong?" a young woman, among the group of guardians, asked. Can see the daydream on the face of Alisya even though the same opportunity chimed in and even smiled.

"Yes?"

"What's wrong? Any issues?"

"ah! It's nothing.just lack of sleep, I'm tired."

"Lack of sleep? What time is it?" ask the other student guardians along with the oddity, deliberately creating ambiguous sentences.

"What?" the other timpal, purposely fishing. Their eyes suddenly sparkled, indeed liking it the most when ridiculed each other.

"Yes that. watch TV." the other timpal, accompanied by laughter broke out of all.

Laughter filled the group of young mothers, in contrast to Alisya who only smiled faintly. Tired eyes with a slightly black eye's lower circumference did not help, making his smile so useless.

"Oiya, Ma'am, said Ms. Agni. yesterday did not hesitate. she was kidnapped." Another topic just popped up, remembering that Agnia happened to be out of her class and caught eyes walking towards the other class.

"Hemh?" Alisya turned her head quickly, her eyes round.

"Yes, that's why for days I didn't teach, right? He said that's why."

"Yep?"

"Yes, my gutter that the nurse told me that, he knew his sister-in-law Agnia who was a doctor. So he said he was taken to a hospital in apprehensive condition, whether it was kidnapping or captivity."

"What's possible?" Their minds instantly twisted, observing the condition of Agnia simultaneously in each other's hearts. "But why not call the police?"

"Either, he said it was the person they knew. Maybe they're at peace."

There was doubt in each of their eyes, which believed that because Agnia was healthy, she did not look traumatized. Isn't kidnapping scary enough to be a reason for trauma?

Unlike Alisya, his heart became more and more unbecoming. If this is the case, then it is certainly difficult for Agnia. Indri is right, Agnia is not someone who likes to complain. But what makes it so closed? No one knows for sure the news.

"Ah.. hard to believe" said one of them in the end, still not expecting. For later they were busy looking at Agnia's face when she returned from the other class to her class. They compactly sought certainty about the news, of course Agnia was made to wonder herself with it, while Alisya began to think about her mistake.

The moment that was spoken of came out, the mothers of the stock were spontaneously silent. And throw a smile.

"Mom.."

Agnia smiled, nodding politely. "Continue, ma'am." he said that immediately made the mothers look at each other, whereas Agnia was just chatting, nothing more. but they actually thought that Agnia heard their chat from a considerable distance