The text of the Raktara.

episode 42's.

2 Days passed.

when I arrived at the house bang raka directly went to the office. met my boss to tell my problems and asked that I could leave.

he even said that my boss had to be stable to return to the office, as well as marcell and saras.they met me and asked me to stay focused on my health

actually I am very saturated because it is not allowed to work but if I do not participate it will be sent to Singapore.

today I will go to check up to find out what action I took the doctor after knowing my condition.

but well, only my father and mother met him while I was with my two best friends and bang raka waiting in the car.

"bang.. where to. time in the car alone" lamented me. who from earlier felt saturated.

"we're going to yuk's seminar." take mortal.

"what seminar?"

"later you will also know" replied Vina and the three of them looked at each other.

"my tea seminar." continued bang raka and I just nodded.

"uh, how about mom's dad?"

"can be taken care of." their compact.strangely, why can they be this compact.

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bang Raka's car stopped at the mall parking lot.

we went down and went to the seminar.I saw the title of the seminar on a poster attached to the front of the building.

'let's learn to write with heart'

I was just wasting my breath when they brought me here, probably because bang raka was invited.

"yuk in" asked mortal.

when we set foot into his room. uh, they all cheered for the presence of bang raka. tuh bang raka invited. I looked at the mortal and vina but they just smiled and pulled me into the back row.

"so this? why don't you just say that at this event bang raka also invited." I said annoyed at them.

"hehehehe sorry" replied Vina.

bang Raka said a word of welcome and said a lot about his work.I also watched it fully. Even bang raka said that at this time he was fighting for me. for his sister. bang Raka wants me to be okay and happy.

a few minutes passed and bang raka had finished saying many things.I was very tired of hearing his chatter.even my two friends even overslept while nyender together.

bang Raka came to see me.

"eh, I'm staying behind?. Because there are more guest stars." he said and aki nodded slowly.

"assalamualaikum wr.wb." Greetings to one of the authors who invited to fill this event. I was bored and chose to quit the show. I sent a message to bang raka that I was walking around the mall and bang raka sent a reply that if you want to go home just call him.

I walked while looking at the atmosphere of this crowded mall.I bought an ordinary cappucin and sat in the waiting chair.

wait until the show is over.

"ka jana." call someone and I immediately turned his head. His face was indeed unfamiliar in my eyes and wanted to say.

"hmm, who's yah?" I asked and the woman laughed and sat down next to me.

"gue girl who was taught bu dance, ka ilham, and bang satya" he said and I slowly remembered her, dinda was the first girl to be sent to her foster parents.

"lo how are you? what's busy now?"

"good idea. I am now busy with the boutique. thank God after my hard struggle at last while in college nyokap helped to build a boutique that I planned from before." he explained. and I also returned his smile.

"how are the children?"

"the children now live with me. fortunately bokap nyokap maklumin it. bu dance died 1 year ago due to a heart attack. the children had a shock but yah want giamana?"

I was surprised to hear this news.

I haven't been there for a long time and I don't even know about the departure of the dance mom.

"innalillahi wainnailai rojiun. astagfirullah, I really do not know."

"inspiration was willing to tell you, but he was too afraid to meet kka"

"when he received news from me. he immediately returned and left his job.he was 2 weeks in the orphanage.but we both always took time to squirm kaka. it's just that you never realized." obviously and I again found out one thing about him, the guy who always bullies my head and my race.

"why is he afraid of me."

"because he knows, you must hate him who has to leave you for the sake of his dreams, he realizes that he is actually a jerk" he continued and I did not react. I blinked and then I threw my breath away.

"hm" muttered.

"you will meet. because it is time. "the word of dinda makes me frown my confused mark.

"gue go first yah. assalamualaikum"

"walaikusalam's chat.

the world is full of puzzles."

I stood up and walked towards the seminar to meet the mortal, vina and bang raka.

"not rattled yet?" ask me on mortal and vina who are cool playing online games.

I immediately grabbed their phones and their faces instantly turned sour.

"jann. come on. again cool niih." groaning mortal.they put on a face of pity but I did not respond.

"which raka bang?"

"tuh" pointed at Vina and I immediately turned my head.

"yuk back. father same mom again wait at home"

"has a result?"

"maybe."

we 4 back home.on the way I only thought about 2 things. about what was told earlier and about my situation.I sat in front and leaned my head until about the car glass. I looked at the light that was currently shining on me, then closed my eyes and let the sun breathe in my race.

"assalamualaikum" greetings us.

"walaikumsalam." mama and dad were waiting with a brown map on the table. I think it was the result given by the doctor.

"how did it work?" asked bang raka, and we sat together while facing mom and dad.

"do you think there's anything different? lately?" ask dad to the point and I nod slowly.

"what are you rasain?"

"dad same mama explained first the result.if the result is the same as what I think I just explained." I said to make sure whether what they said I really experienced or not.

"from the results of the examination, the doctor said that your condition is getting worse.your sense of taste can suddenly disappear without symptoms.you will get worse with activities that make us a lot of thoughts. said the doctor gilang, what's worse is that your vision will be impaired." explained father.

I just fell silent while bang Raka and my two best friends felt a little regret over my condition.

"if in a month your condition gets worse then you can not refuse to make it to Singapore." continued father.I still without reaction. honestly, now crying is what I want.

"i want to rest first. I'm tired.." I said and left the serious talk.

bang Raka had held me back just that I ignored him.

I entered the room without locking it because mortal and vina must have caught up with me.

I took all the items related to the inspiration for me to burn. I also picked up the poetry that I read every day. I felt annoyed to think that inspiration was the cause of it all. right now I was pathetic. I immediately took the line and walked to the back room to burn it. momentarily stared with falling tears. I cried with a sob.

when my hand wanted to take off those things, suddenly the mortal and the vina came and prevented me by taking me away from the fire. I had a physical argument with them but I alone could not defeat them both.

and I immediately cried in Vina's arms.

"jan.already burning all this can not make you back again" said mortal by taking back the goods and put it in the cardboard place originally.

"maybe he made me this way" said I who may be very selfish.

"no, no.." continued vina.

"what you said I always rasain lately, but I don't want to go to Singapore vin. I don't want to go. I'm afraid of failure that will make you all lose me. and if indeed I have to go I just want in the last time I have the same of you." I explained with a sniffle. mortal hugged me who was in the arms of vina. they tried to calm me.

"no jan. you have to be positive aboutking" said mortal.

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I was still in their arms with a terrible cry.I was still trying to awaken myself to not be reckless. afterwards they took me to the room.soothe me and I lay down. I smiled at them and grabbed their hands and began to close my eyes.