The text of the Raktara.

episode 34

I went through everything believing that God would give me something beautiful.I didn't even think I could be a good person like this. learning from the torturous past but giving me the most wonderful gift.

finally 3 years passed.

I finished my studies about 2 years ago.I graduated with S.KOM.and I interned at one of the television stations when I was 5th semester. finally it continued until I graduated and now I have a cafe in one of the areas near where I work. also have a studio run by rama. Rama is my apprentice friend in the tv station, but because of his talent to be a business man, therefore I hired him. he was quite close to me. mortal news and vina is fine. mortal became a midwife in bandung, he was quite close to me, and Vina opened her own practice in her home.

thank God they succeeded as well as me. ka meta, jaka and bang raka have been in poor 2 years for other business, and I was only three with father and mother. sometimes I was alone when I had to leave the city and accompanied by my mom and dad were never separated for work because they worked together for a new project.

I was once a reporter who was supposed to be my current job but I was assigned to be in the office only. sometimes I am tired of overtime but can also do office work at home or in a cafe.

I have never communicated with haikan and diana again since their departure after marriage.I do not know the news of them for almost 3 years. Fajar works at one of the broadcasting companies.and nina became a radio announcer.we only met at the graduation ceremony.that was just greeting each other and taking pictures.not chatting anything even though it is very important. oh yeah, I've read the scroll to completion.and I also understand one thing.that love does not have to have for now.There is still a meeting time that does not know ready or not. I want to meet but also afraid to meet but only be silent. what if everything is not in accordance with the expestation.My days are filled with thousands of poems and sentences per sentence belongs to ilham. No, I called him Raktara. At the end of his writing he listed the name of the raktara. where only I called him.

I also understand one thing.this is why god's reason does not let forget.because I have to find 1 puzzle to perfect my life.I often go to some exhibitions of artists. to remember the person I deserve to remember.I also have a book that has accompanied the inspiration for his life.the book in which contains thousands of words that become verses of poetry. or just writing for someone he admires.

I admit I love him because of God.

god who gave me this path then my business is just waiting after that there will be happy. Sometimes, sorry for him tucked in the wound. sometimes there is sadness also remember the incident at the cafe that night.

it was painful but I was strong.

today I have to go to the cafe because there is an event there. said rama meet and greet event from a cover singer.or usually appear on youtube. he said the event will be held in 2 hours.

"jaanaa... how? calling amanda?" ask Saras as my coworker here.

"kok you are me? it's your job, I'm just the nelfon manager and lo who handle.lo how the hell." my tirade.

"yes but I-"

"what'sih.lo often deh kayak gini. saras.. I have to go to the cafe for a meet and greet.lo do not make me go there deh."

"jan.only you can help me. Come on"

without assuring me directly to the room to handle everything.the artist who should be present to be a guest star has not been confirmed after I called yesterday. I tried to call the manager, but it wasn't picked up and we started to panic.

"elo anyway" I said to saras who had a sullen face.

"why anyway?" ask marcell.

"this cell. the saras very habit.have known amanda schedule 3 hours more.he even nanya to me schedule trus he has not been told.how nga tried." ngelku. I was always nagging at circumstances that came suddenly.

"quietly, I've handled it" said Marcell who made me and saras look at each other.

"really? hahaha thank you cell" girang saras by hugging marcell.

"do you get a handle?" my many.

" it was saras nelfon to ngehandle amanda. uh he even forgot" explained marcell and I immediately looked cynical saras.

"heheheheh so.so.sorry jan" he said with a smile and I immediately chased after him.

"don't run lo saras.lo already made me sprain.." I shouted while chasing saras.we are like this. it's funny that even all the staff here already know me and saras because of our work that is often scolded but sometimes also proud.

I went back to my desk when Saras ran until I could not catch up.

"drink first" marcell gave me a glass of cappicino.

"thanks yeah.." I continued.

"how does the photo studio have the same cafe?"

"eh rama again handle kok. only rama more to the cafe if the studio is sometimes held by one of our employees" I explained to marcell who always asked about the development of my business.

"why not do a job outside?"

"gue was his dream to be a journalist but transferred to a job that always makes me amazed. work behind the tv was exciting tau nga? if without the hard work of a creative and guest star maybe nga will be maximal.exciting really" continued dam marcell staring at me wonder.

"this is what makes me like you" he said and I immediately looked at him seriously without blinking and Marcell just fell silent.

"hehehe is joking. We are different so we can't be together." he continued.

"that's it ah I want to go. bye"

marcell once asked me to date him but I refused, not immediately but I gave him one thing that made him understand that we are different and that we will be different forever. god alone is different let alone all the affairs that must be decided together.he always joked about our relationship that can not be united said Marcell lived first but said I let the god that unites. for now I do not dare to be double from my god.You alone dare to double from your god maybe someday you will not be loyal to me.

and Marcell is starting to understand our differences.

we are different and we should not be the same.