The text of the Raktara.

episode 32's.

the clock shows at 8 pm. We just finished praying Isya only me and vina because mortal PMS.

we were sitting on the bed in a circle, and now I'm looking at both of them.

"wait for jan. you haven't healed well?" ask mortal, and I nodded.

"not even likely to be able to proceed to loss of smell. "clearly I said the doctor is just the impact or effect of my accident. I used to only have pain in my head and eyes but because of my weakness was the head so everything was scattered.

"astaga. the only way is happiness" continued vina. and I just smiled.

"he who?" suddenly mortal immediately inquired about (her).

"the name is ilham." replied Vina.

"gue nanya jana, not elo. basic"

"his name is ilham.he was nga deket same me. I hate him because of his arrogance and cool pretentious.our story he started from the task given by the judge. actually it's finished after he left for 3 months, but he came back and we're in charge of doing his job with the judge.he made a mistake that made me relapse. he came to my house and found me. he went out and we went to the orphanage where he used to live and in the care. After that he asked me to make him stay for 22 days. which turned out to be his last day here.the first day was all right.There are so many memories that he loved me as a key to my comfort. until the 10th day I was the same he could not continue because he had to take care of his graduation event.on our last day to his show but stuck jam.we got there almost 9. and he has gone 😞 he chased the plane because he was in bargain scholarship S2 but do not know where. I try hard. I try to make nenangin myself, I try to make my own, believe in myself 😢 but I can not ngehandle my head. I finally fainted, fortunately not immediately die. I just coma for a week. and I choose myself. sit alone, sit alone, and I, take care of everything myself.remove him from my life. I cry every time nginget everything. I scream every time my head starts to hurt. I'm upset with myself. why do I have to be comfortable with someone who I obviously already know his nature.I-" my breath began to tight and I could not continue my story. My two best friends just relax me and hug me.

I cried in their arms as I tried to hold everything back but couldn't. They were too hard for me to hide these cries.

"try aja. I did not say 'if I want to see lo cry because of men.' surely you nga rich gini'" continued mortal who remembered his words while we were on vacation at that time.

"ngaa. lo nga wrong. emang allah wants to be like gini" I reply.

"pity? the truth is lo rasain." asked vina.

"maybe I'm in love. but I am not sure. 😞" I replied.

"jan. by the way" Vina began to see how I felt.

"gue fell in love with all the things that are in him. I am happy when he is with me. I am waiting for his chat. I slalu wish more of him.. I love him vin. But I'm afraid, afraid of the one thing I hate. I'm afraid of pain.and my scarang rasain it. he made me feel I'm the most stupid person. maybe Allah does not want me to continue this all.so Allah loves this destiny to me. Allah does not want me to do things that God does not like. every minute I think. Why did he leave after 22 days? vin. I-" and I took off my tears again. I cried to sob. I was held tightly so I could handle myself. To be honest, I wanted to forget but I remembered. and I wanted to leave but I forgot which way I should go. Because there were too many feelings and memories until I finally had trouble finding a way to forget.

"lo can. you can lupain him. slowly land certainly can. and we can make you forget." said mortal.

"allah can't make me forget. let alone you guys." they immediately fell silent to hear my words.it's true.I've tried my best. and rely on God. god does not want me to forget as easily as I can remember.

"hm. on diem" continued mortal and then throw his breath and walk towards the chair in the corner of the room.

"try pointing a picture of him to me. I'm curious." mortal sitting and acting like a boss.

"make what?" vina's guest.

"vin, I. If you look at that guy's face, I can guess how rich he is"

"behave a fortune teller lo. don't be ignorant."

"nih" vina showed the foro and mortal reacted in shock. mortal took his cell phone vina and looked at it carefully.

"this is really an inspiration?" tanya mortal and I were with vina nagging.

"isn't her name SATYA?" I was shocked when mortal mentioned his real name ka ilham.

mortal also looked at us with glaring eyes.

"why? you familiar?" tanyaku and mortal fell silent for a moment and then said.

"why does his name change?" fana

"that's not the answer" said Vina.

"no, I'm the same as you." continued mortal.

"the inspiration is the name of his sister.he has only made that name for a few years now really." I explained and mortal immediately walked towards me and vina.

"you both want him?" vina and I looked at each other as she asked, then shook our heads, meaning we didn't know her at all.

"astaga. he is the chairman of the school who is asking for 3 days in a row when the pace is only late on the first day, it was only 2 minutes late. still nga inget?" obviously mortal and my brain started looking for that memory.

and I remembered it. the head of the osis who told me to squat from the gate to the classroom and punished me on the second day by telling me to look for the signatures of all the members of the osis and the third, and the third, I was told to take photos with all the members of the osis.the toughest punishment I ever did when I first entered High School first, until I hated him so much. but is that true?

"nga. nga may.. our head of osis will make glasses" replied Vina and I corrected the answer.

"that appearance can change with the times.now it's all cool not geeky anymore." continued mortal.

"nga. nga possible" I said.

"astaga. if so you open the old FB lo skarang.lo ever enter a photo lo the same him because of the compulsion of him. let's hurry." proposed mortal. I took my phone and opened my old FB. I searched for a photo a few years ago and I made sure there was. Because it couldn't be lost if I didn't delete it, and I found it. after finding it we immediately matched the photo with the vina and the photo with me first. it was the same. it was just different appearance. it turned out to be mortal right. The mortal memory was sharp without escaping the target. we immediately fell silent to think of many things.it turns out I have been analyzing it since High School and I just realized it.

"jan, you inget nga? did I ever ask for your number for class? well, he asked.he said he wanted to apologize about the punishment." continued mortal.and I really did not expect there could be a coincidence like this. the three of us are still confused by the path of destiny that God created.it is very confusing.what is the meaning of all this? why don't I remember him at all. Is it because of my hate? or any other reason.

there are so many questions in my brain for her and can only be answered by her.

does he remember me? or he pretended not to know when he remembered everything.

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the path looks easy but it is difficult to walk and meet.