The text of the Raktara.

episode 29's.

I slowly opened my eyes after a long sleep and a good dream.

I feel here and there to look for the whereabouts of my cell phone.I don't have a wall clock so only a cell phone I can need when I see time.until I get out of bed I don't see my phone. I went to the bathroom to wash my face after it went down to meet bang raka.

"bang. wiggling my phone?" I asked the raka bang who was preparing breakfast.

"jaka again minjem to play games." replied the father who sat with mom at the dinner table. I was surprised to see father and mom.

"when did mom come back?" then I went to my mom and dad and I thought they were out of town for a long time.

"around 4. mama to your room but instead molested." replied mama.

"ka janaaa" shouted jaka from the living room. afterwards ran to see me.

"why brother jaka." I replied and squatted down to be able to talk to jaka.

"there was a nelfon, he said there was a shipment."

"whose name?"

"the name is ilham." I flinched and then blushed embarrassed when he said the name of ka ilham and heard by all who were at the dinner table.

"astaga. yaudah.you play gih." jaka gave me my phone after it left. I stood up and sat at the dinner table.

mom and Dad looked at me with a smile.

"hahahaha 😂😂😂" and bang raka laughed without thinking of me

"cieee. who's the inspiration?" ask dad.

"then class." I replied.

"boyfriend" bang raka answered with a bang to make the father and mother change their reaction.

"FITNAH. what the hell bang. courtship tuh nga can be in islam." I'm upset.

"already ah. males." I left breakfast and chose to go. Entalah I was so upset when bang raka mentioned my status with ka ilham.we are not dating and only limited to ordinary friends.

"the message was in the desk drawer "cried bang raka. I went to the shipment and saw what he sent until he reached the phone.

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the clock is at 10 am.

mom and dad are going to the office. ohh iyah, I forgot to say that my dad and my mom are both still apprentice children. their SMK time is ordered to intern at the same place until it continues until college takes the same major and is accepted in the same office. so no wonder if their behavior is sometimes like a pair of friends who have been for almost a lifetime.I salute with those who both struggle to the end. until the father ventured to propose to the mother who at that time was having a lover. there was disappointment in the eyes of the father when the mother refused and did not say hello. mama came to my dad's house last night saying that he had broken up and I wanted him to marry me. I was a little surprised when I heard that line coming out of my mouth. To be honest, you know, mama has not loved father.but love comes at their year marriage when father enters the hospital.they are tested by god with all problems 'mama is sure dad will love mom as sincerely and mama is sure we will be forever'.I was also touched when I heard the heartwarming story of dad and mom. and in a time when father is critical because of his illness mama whispers in father's ear and proposes to father for the second time, and when father is healed they choose to go around Indonesia only both and for their love.

I learned one thing from them.

that which is always there has a great love compared to who has just become a lover. and sometimes friends are destined for us because from the beginning God has put the love of both but in the love of status only limited to friends. god's test is great because one of them must endure because of love even though one is with the other. so when once said directly received because there will forever be for us.

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I sat in the campus garden looking at people walking with all sorts of whims.

I myself. because nina and dawn do not enter today he said there is a sudden business.I just entered the mass communication course.

and have to wait another 2 hours to enter other courses.

it is natural that we should wait.

I also often tell my friends who are dating that just wait because later there will be a pick up. There will be small businesses that when failed must be disappointing and choose to wait after the effort. because relying on God's destiny is better, and do not impose what is not ours.

ilham sent a message.

he told me to have a happy and happy day always.

maybe this message will be sent for the next 9 days. everything he wants to say will be sent via chat or voice. We are like dating people and that is what I feel. I feel safe near the inspiration.and I become who I am. ka ilham once said 2 things on the 5th day of our journey.

he asked 1 reason why I did not date and I only answered that God hates it. he then asked a second time.if he wanted it would I accept? and I kept quiet for a while. I understood that sentence.I moved my glass of cappucino in front of him and said that I would really hate this drink if they changed it. it will feel different and I will throw it away just like me and I am inspired. if there is a change to this status I will not accept because the comfort will be different even I will not be comfortable if forced to love and have without the blessing of God.

inspiration at that moment smiled.I frowned my forehead to the point I was confused by the look of that face.

"don't lie, because Allah hates the liars" he said.

"and don't date.god hates that" I continued. I understood the phrase ka ilham. that I should not eat my own words. I should not accept other men for dating because I have basically rejected the ones I deserve.

everything is simple.and honestly, I like everything that is in you inspiration, but to change the status, God will be angry.