The text of the Raktara.

episode 31

2 weeks passed.

right now I'm in the villa of his aunt vina and I'm alone.

I'll tell you about it a week ago, when I came out of my coma for a week.

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1 week ago.

as I slowly opened my eyes, my head still hurt.

I looked at my mother and meta who were crying as well as the jaka who was in my father's arms while bang Raka was sitting beside me while shaking my hand and kissing her.

"assalamualaikum" my greetings to them. I somehow chose to say hello instead of greeting.

without answering my greetings they immediately approached and looked at me seriously.

"alhamdulillah" my mother thanked me and kissed me.

"i'm fine" I said slowly.

"all right? you've been in a coma for a week.trus critical.how do we not worry?" namel mama .

"i'm in a coma but I hear the cries, prayers and the sounds of the najai from this room" I replied.

"how is he?" ask dad.

"it's light."

"his head still hurts? her eyes?" bang raka.

"you can hug me scarang?" I said to bang raka.and she helped me sit down and we hugged.I cried with my loud voice.I don't even care what they think when I cry like this. and after my heart and my feelings started to break I took off his embrace.

"are you all right?" ask me meta.

"gue just wants to eat."

"what do you want to eat?" continue mama

"want special fried rice.and 1 dad's cappicino." dad and mom looked at each other as I mentioned the food and drinks I shouldn't be consuming.

"i've been better. later I told the doctor was brilliant to get me to consume food and drinks made by my mother and father." explained me and they smiled together.

"if so we go home first well. later come back again bring what you want" continued the father and hugged and kissed my forehead as well as my mother.

"jaka come" said Jaka and we laughed together.jaka chose to come with father and mother.

"you two sit next to me. I want to talk." ka meta and bang raka change their sitting position and face me.

"gue nga will ask about the next incident after I fainted. I just want to cry. I just want to scream. and I want to fight a martial arts match with someone. don't ask me why because I also don't know the answer. I just want to hug and cry on the shoulders of both of you." I explained. if you were in my position maybe you wouldn't be as strong as me. I even want to get away from this world but I dare not leave those I love.

ka meta and bang raka ran into my arms. I hugged the two of them tightly.My voice slowly sounded and my tears drenched their clothes.they stroked my head and body so I could be fine.

"jan. want to nga? wujutin 1 my request?" bang Raka held my hand and looked at me.

"what?"

"want nga? stay alone. in a villa owned by tantenya vina. alone and nga no one can disturb you. because you like yourself and you are afraid of many. can?" this is the real bang raka. who knows the contents of my head who understands what decisions I will take later.

"gue kan lo"

"but the same father must not nga mama ngizinin." said ka meta who is right. mama same father will certainly not allow let alone I am still sick.

"everything can be said later

and I make sure they agree, too."

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I lived my life while in the villa just fine.I never had a mind to myself and did stupid things.

bang Rasa sent me the ingredients so I wouldn't eat out of the villa.he sent me everything I needed. actually the word bang rakaanya gave me 3 days and she believed I would be fine in 4 days. but I have not come home a week. I feel not okay. the first day I was here all I did was scream and cry. Come on, my heart hurts so much.

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I heard a knock on the door from outside.

maybe the driver ojol sent bang raka.

I walked towards the door and the voice was familiar to my ears.

"who?" ask me and open the door.

"renjanaaaa" cried mortal and vina then ran to hug me.

"kangennnn" they continued.

after the hug was released I just looked at them without saying anything.

what are they here for? even when I was in need they didn't answer my phone or call me back.

"lo why sih😏" said mortal.and they entered without my permission. I kept looking at them.

"😅 jan, sorryy.. 😞 we are sorry." said vina.

"what are you two doing here?" my many.

"we're really sorry. if bang raka nga nemuin we will certainly lo alone continue. until when jan?" I looked mortal seriously.There was something I was thinking about.

"whyn bang raka nemuin y'all?"

"he was worried because he thought at most you just need 3 days to be alone but until now you are still not okay" explained vina. and I nodded slowly then went to the kitchen to make 2 cups of tea for them.

"jan. you nga papa?" I shook my head to answer mortal questions.

"go again nga alright.even I still take a long time to smile. my illness is worse. I still want to cry. still want to scream and want to turn around time." I said with a sad look on my face, they came up to me and took me to sit down at the dinner table together.

"jan. we're sorry. I should have come home sooner than my duty. trus should have been busy with his business. should we be the same lo on that day." mortal felt very guilty. the two of them looked at me and put on an apologetic face.I nodded slowly and stroked their shoulders.

"there you guys here maybe I'll be better off, but to go home I can't yet.

the events that I experienced when falling unconscious continue to haunt me. I even ask God to make me well-baii aja but I have not been able to rise from my slump. " I continued and shed 1 tear that had accumulated as I began to speak.

they held me and held my hand.

"later the same story we. now we cook. after that eat. we clean and go to the room to obrolin everything.lo just need a person who can hear elo. and I'm sure. with a story, your heart must be soft. okay?" vina convinced me to tell them everything, and she thought that by telling her I might be okay.they care about me so much and I have to respect that.