The Illusion I Can Have You

Dear Letter to Ayesha From Alesa

Aisha Assalamualaikum .

Today Alesa greets you through this little note .

You have considered yourself like your mother .

You have loved yourself like your mother .

Though this self is only a stranger who is not intentionally present .

Sorry if all this time Alesa likes to disturb you Aisyah .

You are such a sweet and very spoiled girl .

Love your sorrow you always give to Alesa .

Alesa is so lucky to know you in her life .

Alesa sees little Alesa is on you .

You are lonely because your whole family God took back .

It's okay if it's all divine destiny .

Pass them, that they may be quiet on the divine side .

Do not be grieved for a long time .

Surely your sorrow will be lost if you smile .

Your smile on your lips can change your world .

It is true that there is no cure for pain .

But remember only yourself can treat that wound .

Wounds should not be allowed to continue so , should occasionally be treated with sincerity .

Don't you know about this science ??

Surely you already understand, it's just that when it happens you yourself are not ready to face it .

Aisha, My child .

Although Alesa is not your birth mother, you are also not my flesh and blood .

But believe that in my heart there is an abundant love for you .

There is no rush to benefit the existing situation .

Even if you are falling apart with treasure, it is all yours .

And no one will take it all away from you .

Take care of everything as best you can .

It is true that as much treasure as anything is meaningless if without the presence of family .

But it is all God's plan, which no one can change .

Strong of your heart My child .

Someday you will grow up to be a mature girl .

At the moment Alesa's eyes look at you, you still look like a teenage boy² in general .

But dear you can't bamaja² anymore with your mama .

Your mother has been gone for so long from this world .

Alesa, whom you know only through A Rayhan, is now the most important person in your life .

If you think Alesa is your mother .

So suppose every utterance of Alesa is the utterance of your own mama Aisha .

Strange indeed our introduction is .

Strangers but can be this close , do not even want to be separated or kept away .

It feels like this self wants to be with you Aisyah .

But Alesa was self-conscious of who she was .

An evil person like Alesa cannot possibly meet a good person like you Aisha .

Thank you very much Ayesha, you have made room for yourself Alesa .

Alesa learned a lot from you .

So broad is the insight of religious knowledge that you have studied, so that this self is ashamed if faced directly with yourself .

This letter was written directly Alesa when Alesa missed you Aisha .

Is quiet without you Aisha .

Ayesha if you have time to read this Letter, then at that time Alesa's longing for you is quite a lot .

Alesa can't say what² again .

Can only pray , may you be well² only and always in the protection of Allah .

Aisha, if you make a pilgrimage to the tomb of A Rayhan, your mother, and Joseph .

Say hello to them, tell them that Alesa here misses them a lot .

Tell A Ray, if the farewell is not forever, right ??

Tell A Ray, will he meet Alesa later ??

Please get to A Ray Aisyah .

And tell him if this second is , that sense will continue to exist and will always be .

Until the end of Alesa's life .

Until allowed to meet by God, then at that time Alesa will seek the existence of A Ray .

Can it be like that Aisyah ??

Is Alesa Dimata your Aisyah ??

Yes, Alesa is a dirty woman also hina .

It is only natural that the nickname is attached to Alesa .

Thou Ayesha , take care of yourself good² .

Don't be so sad .

Remember there is still Alesa here that will make you happy even if only virtually .

Cannot directly , just usually like that .

Be happy you are Aisha .

If you ever read this letter .

Then be assured that you are the one whom Alesa desperately longs for .

Signed : Alesa .