The Illusion I Can Have You

Living in memories

Alesa's children are now growing up well .

Alesa lived her days with a sense of half-life .

Alesa likes to daydream and reflect .

love to sing la la la in silence ..

In a blank stare, Alesa sings the song ..

Alesa just followed her heart .

When his soul and body were tired of facing this world, there Alesa was acting strangely .

Alesa wanted to scream, and occasionally her tears came out on their own .

Alesa likes to make Vidio with a blank stare, and like a lifeless person .

alesa's life means nothing more .

If it were not her children, then it would have been long gone from this mortal world ..

Alesa was tired of living a life full of pain .

All the good Alesa did was full of sincerity .

Sometimes I am tired of doing good .

Because every Alesa was difficult or needed help, there was no 1 person who helped her .

Alesa face it herself .

Alesa likes to sing so softly .

The chant described how hurt his heart was left for Rayhan for so long .

#Love Shouldn't Have

#Love can't be beautiful forever

#Love can also turn into pain

#So I feel now

#my heart is still broken

#I never imagined

#And never thought

#Your love and my love will be separated

#But I have to let it go

#For your life to be better

#I'm sorry

#Set your heart

#My departure was not my wish

#Take care of your parents' other choices

#Don't be sad about this situation

#If you cry

# I also cry

#Take care of all this

#for you

And the second song

#I'm Not His Mate

#It's my fault

#Too thinking about my ego

#Can't make you comfortable with me

#Until you leave me

#Slowly already

#Now you have found him

#Someone who can make you happy

#I'm sincere you're hanging out with her

#I put him away

#Next my fight for her

#Because of her, you love her

#Like I love her

#Kan I released him

#I don't deserve to be with her

#And I accept with my chest

Alesa's tears were dripping so hard .

remembering the figure of a person who is so dear .

her soul mate is the best, not the bad Alesa .

Alesa was self-conscious, why did God not bring Alesa to Rayhan .

Because Rayhan is not his match , Rayhan is a good person , while Alesa is a very bad person .

There will definitely be someone accompanying Rayhan there later .

Maybe it was much better .

From the on with Alesa .

Alesa continued to pray: may Rayhan be there happy, calm by the creator's side .

And hopefully in a movement to meet the real soul mate .

Although she was so painful to Alesa, Alesa's affection was more than that .

It's okay if Rayhan later prefers someone, Alesa will be happy .

although in his heart only written the name Rayhan Only .

But what can be changed from Destiny .

If God himself had interfered in the affair .

Man can only surrender by his will .

Alesa will only live with Rayhan's memories .

Let the memories will continue to live on yes .

Until Close this Age, only Rayhan will he remember ..

" Wait on me, if we can meet at that moment, then I will hug you very tightly . Do not leave this weak woman .

Half my life, die with you .

wait for this self , wait , until my work in the world is over , I love you because of God , and permit this self to upload you in this channel for ever - long ..

this story is over .

and only history abides, that in this world there is such a thing as love can not always be had .

but that doesn't mean, you can't love someone else .

the love of both is wrong, Alesa who has a family does not know what God's plan in his life .

If it is sinful, it is obviously a sin .

Alesa realized that it was a sin .

But the heart always demands to continue uploading the figure of Rayhan, even though Rayhan has gone first .

this story is not just to be kept by Alesa .

Alesa decided to make a novel for this story .

So that the story of himself and Rayhan does not only arrive at him alone .

But it can also be read by others. .

The incredible love that Alesa had with Rayhan .

Even though she is a wife, but her life is not happy .

Matchmaking, selfishness, anger, insults, insults, always being cast out, having nothing, and being thought to mean nothing Alesa was always silent and crying .

during that time Alesa will live with men whose emotions are high .

Husband and wife relationship is only in the Marriage Book and KTP only .

Alesa's life is colorless .

And it was Rayhan who gave the new color to the life of Alesa .

Alesa was very grateful to Allah, because it was good to allow Alesa to know people as well as Rayhan .

" Thank God, thou art giving new life, after so long dead . Living with new people .

Although the beginning was full of lies, but Alesa was prevented after being honest with Rayhan .

And Rayhan forgave all of Alesa's mistakes .

Alesa knew that, surely Rayhan had forgiven his mistake .

Rayhan is a good person and a good religion as well .

surely Allah has delivered an apology from Alesa ..

" I'm sorry, this filthy, despicable man, deliberately bragged of you, O God, every x Adhan reverberated this heedless of your calling , this is the reply to every mistake I have made . Sorry for your servant, God "

So much and thank you all .

For taking the time to read this story from beginning to end .

thousands and thousands of words thank you for my love .

May all be healthy always and in the protection of Allah Almighty, Aamiin Allahuma Aamiin