The Illusion I Can Have You

The Lost Feel of Love

Alesa felt useless, and meaningless ..

Alesa is aware of who she is, and maybe Ardy has started to be disgusted with Alesa .

Therefore now Ardy prefers to be angry with Alesa ..

Maybe because Alesa doesn't have what to be proud of ..

Since that event the love was lost ', hope was foundered . Alesa doesn't want to depend on what each other is ..

For him all just stop by and go ..

Just want to know, after knowing they will stay.we when we no longer deserve ..

That's what Alesa is for .

Alesa who is very young, should already be able to think under her living alone ..

All that makes him strong is his son ..

If Iia had no children maybe it's been a long time since she lived Ardy ..

But Alesa's heart is so good . However, Alesa never lived Ardy even though her bahtin living like not being fulfilled when Ardy was sick for 4 months ..

Alesa doesn't want to sue for anything ..

Now Alesa has no dreams whatsoever .and her life is ruined and long dead ..

Life but death ..

Alesa just survives for the sake of her son ..

After a year of contracting in that house, Ardy finally had a savings ..

Ardy jula jula jula , and narik money as much as 10 million ..

then iia lunas was her rickshaw ..

Keep looking again , there are people who give land but land of government ..

So land is not official . But rather than contract a year 3 million . better that's all in the wake .

So Ardy decided to build a house on the government land ..

After almost 80% of the house was also lack of zinc and toilet WC . so Alesa's father who bought it ..

after it closes everything ..

Finally Alesa and Ardy had to move .

Even though the house is only 80% but must move immediately . Because her rented house is due ..

so in the state of the floor is still ground ..

The well is also still outside . but Alhamdulillah the zinc is closed .

and no rain . and no more heat ..

Alesa doesn't want anything either ..

He was always grateful for what he had. .

In the middle of waking up the house Alesa also had a storm with Ardy . Until he had to go home to a walking contract . With his son who is now 7 months old ..

Alesa walk from market 4 to market 7 ..

Sad bangget has a husband the more here the more painful ..

In the afternoon Ardy came home and rich people did not sin ..

Because Alesa males storm . iia Alesa as usual ajha .

Alesa never said it was the same with her parents .

For him it was his choice . And no one cares the same about his life ..

That was the moment before they moved into the house that Ardy made it ..

About 10 million ..

Alesa's child is growing more active, and now he is 12 months old .. And have started learning to walk ..

Ardy always likes to be angry with Alesa .

Alesa was silent and could only cry.

Because Alesa has no effort whatsoever ..

There is no treasure to be proud of ..

So it can only be ..

After a long stay in the new house .

Alesa was given anughra again God .the second child ..

Alesa also did not know why she could get pregnant ..

His son was only 20 months ..

She is no longer breastfeeding, but still too small ..

But if it had been God who set it all up . could Alesa refuse her ?

Alesa also felt nausea, and limp the second child ..

Ardy also Uda know if Alesa already pregnant again .

Because Alesa told me she was pregnant ..

Ardy no longer cares .

The time of Ardy's first child was so attentive . but the second child . Ardy so cuek ..

and Alesa could only be silent ..

Alesa is also familiar with Ardy's current attitude ..

Don't know what makes Ardy so .

If angry always call your mother so . then you are so ..

Ehm sad to say so .

But you can only cry and be silent ..

Alesa's life is long gone ..