The Forbidden Love of Dara

Don't Be Again

(IRVANS)

"Why am I here again?

Why repeat again?

Again and again at the same time,

when I found the bedsheet that Dara had hidden in her dressing table, the bedsheet with bloodstains that turned out from her vomit, which instantly made my heart burn with anxiety, he said, this pair of my feet always seemed to follow wherever he went, only to find an opportunity to ask him :

"What are you feeling?

where's your pain?" however,

when I got the chance, you just kept avoiding me, why?

why did you cover it up with me?

is there something wrong with me?

or do you not trust me anymore?

Sriing! (In an instant switch of place and time)

Aah, why else is this, why is it now moving in this situation?

The situation when I was crouching right in front of him who was sitting in the chair, he was covering his face but I was fixated when I saw a deep red liquid seeping through his fingers, cut into his fingers, and when I woke up from my stubbornness, it turned out that he had already run past me. Because I was worried I immediately wanted to chase him, but either because I lost quickly or indeed because I was too long stunned to know he had locked the bathroom door from the inside.

Not only until there, again I made him tremble in fear, how not? now I stand on a brightly colored doormat that I just changed after finishing cleaning his room, this afternoon this mat was clean without any stains but why now there are red spots on it? out of curiosity I touched it just to make sure and hope it was just a drop of dirt, but why, it's not like my expectations but it's just like my anxiety? My finger that had touched the stain was now stuck in the red liquid at the end.

'Let's say.this, actually he why, why would he not say anything and to anyone he feels? why would he rather bear it himself?'

I just wait for him at the door and call him every once in a while just to make sure he's okay inside.

last night he did enter the hospital but the doctor in Balikpapan did not check the whole, the history of the disease was indeed stored in Citra hospital where Indra worked.

Mamah Aina said that from the birth of Dara this physical is already weak because of premature birth, but, but for me this is not the main reason because out there many are born prematurely but not to this extent continue!

From the first I did know that he is often sick but I did not think about it much, most just visiting while still studying it without caring too much about what happened actually, because I used to focus too much on school and my sports hobby.

But somehow since when I so desperately want to be near him, want to protect him even I really want it if only I was by his side both on his side and in his mind, and I hope only me. only I'm in his heart! Maybe the violence is crazy because I like my own sister, I who until now have never felt love for women even though so many women around me, but I don't know why when I was with him my heart was pounding, my heart was happy, even I wanted him to be born for me.

"By my sister, I really love you!

Can my hope be realized?"

Is this ridiculous or reasonable? I don't know either!

Huh Geez! why is this kid so long in the bathroom? my feeling was suddenly unsettled plus there was no sound from inside! is she.....

TOK TOK!

"Sir, why are you so long? just now, was here all bring mother-made chicken soup later if the cold is not good!" the reason I put my ears on the bathroom door

"Yes for a minute!" Nyeeeees. wasku immediately deflated with the sound of water gurgling from within when he heard his speech.

Not long after he stood in front of me, I looked carefully from top to bottom just to make sure he........

'Ah that, there was a droplet in his pants, a droplet that was the same color as the one he was testing right now!'

"Why is your grandfather?" ask me for worry

"Aa..I don't why napa, why? ayoo sneak down I can't wait to eat mom's cooking!" the answer is hurry.

I know you're lying because it's your habit to cover up your pain just so people don't worry! but I, I feel like I've been partially enslaved, whatever you're hiding, whether that's what I know, the evidence is that bedsheet!

Sriing! (In an instant switch of place and time)

and finally without a second thought I gave my breath to him, yes I gave artificial breath through my mouth to his mouth.

I felt the coldness of his lips touching the side of my lips, in the cavity of his mouth so dry that it was empty almost airless, in every breath I took for it I offered a wish not only for my blood, but my breath and half of my soul are also for him, as long as I am alive he must live to be with me.

Sriing! (In an instant switch of place and time)

Aah why am I here again? on the hospital bed right next to him. I can't believe that my blood is still lacking enough for her, even now she's still cursing without the slightest reaction. My head was so dizzy, I began to sleep...

No, I can't sleep or faint, I want to stay awake so I can keep her company, I don't want this to be the last time I see her, I don't want him to go far without my knowledge, I don't want him to forget me, I'm not willing, not willing!

But what's with my eyes? no, please don't shut up, don't let him out of my sight, don't..

"DON'T!!.." HUH..HUH..HUH..

"Irvan wake up son!" the call of the mother who knew she was standing next to my bed

"Huh.. huh. mom? me, me.." said I woke engosan engosan

"You're having nightmares again, son?" mother asked worriedly while wiping the sweat on my forehead

"I don't understand ma'am, why do I keep dreaming the same thing and even the same fear? me, me.." I replied as I thumped

"Call to call it! it's been almost a week since you've been here until now you're still dreaming of Dara like that? honestly with mom, did you make a mistake with Dara at the last moment before she got sick? let's talk?" insist mother

"No ma'am, I don't do anything weird weird, I really just want to help him as fast as possible! can I ask Doni and Reza if they don't believe me?" I said press

"Yes yes, I believe, I have asked them yesterday and according to the mother you sell it is only natural, even everyone will definitely do the same if in such a situation, it's just that I'm surprised by the dream you're having, it could be a hunch that....."

"Udah ma'am don't go on, I don't want to hear anything!" I cut off the unfinished mother's talk. Although I actually don't know what you want to say, but I've been chasing parno first afraid that you're saying bad things about Dara.

TOK TOK! JEGLK!

"Van you're awake?" greet Indra as she enters my room with Rina behind her.

"Dra, have I been able to get out today?" I'm not impatient

"Why, you don't feel at home until every time I come, it's mute?" indra replied as she began to examine my shoulder

"If it wasn't for your cunning that forced me to make this unimportant promise I would have gotten out of here last week!" my mouth is irritated

"Oowh so the information about Dara turned out to be unimportant huh?"

"ah! ma'am.it's not like that, it's just.it's just..."

"What's free? just stress, right?" he said mockingly but I couldn't reply, because it was true.

I noticed from earlier that Rina just smiled her own smile at me, I couldn't read what the psychologist was thinking to me and even she could certainly read my mind at the moment.

"Your wounds have healed Van, earlier said the bone specialist also most later a bit of pain a little but over time lost itself really and you can go home tomorrow!" indra said giving glad tidings

"Thank God that's it! yaudah, now I'm home, I'm afraid that the night will still have to close Dara's mommy shop first, Reza will be here soon at least!" mom looks relieved

"Yes ma'am, my heart is!" I said, accepting that his kiss was accepted by me.

"I also want to make a report first Van, later if there's anything to say soon, okay!" pamit Indra

"Yes, thank you, bro!" I know who has become very familiar with him.

Then when Mom and Indra left so I stayed together, Rina also slowly began to approach me in this quiet room air-conditioned. Cool, calm and comfortable, the current atmosphere is perfect for both of us......

Footage:

Whoa, I thought Rina would do something with Irvan? where was the smile of his own smile from earlier while geliatin Irvan.

If you think they think they want to do something?