The Forbidden Love of Dara

Full Worry/Ralue

Of course the most is the chat from Arga sentinnya from this afternoon.

While eating food on the plate, at first glance Darapun so the thought that Arga also certainly has not eaten anything until now, plus he has a history of typhoid a few months ago.

Dara's non-tense nature made her think and keep asking questions in her heart, 'do I have to offer her a meal first?' but, uh,

"if I came and bargained him for food he would think I still care about him. Not only that, he would also surely think that my breaking up speech was just an emotion a moment ago and then he assumed that I was still his girlfriend again!" thought doubtful

"It's this storm! no one will ever see my face!" mendumel himself while opening a face mask that is still attached because it makes him uncomfortable when chewing food, then again the same mind Arga who has not eaten:

"Aaah, later if he bargains he eats fear I melt again with him and there are ends - he will end up repeating the same mistake because he thinks I am stupid and easy to play! Just tell him he's outside, he'll be able to until when? even if he goes hungry for a lot of money to buy food, I have to learn the same people who hurt me so that next time I will not be fooled and bullied again!" He felt his own sprain

While continuing to devour food, Darapun began to be confused himself with the two different thoughts in his head! Because on the other hand he does not have the heart but on the other side he hates! And after quite a while of thinking - think what he should have done finally...

"I ask if people have never been sick typhus it should not be late to eat, later it could be a relapse again the pain, earlier was already too late shoots his face! in essence I can't bear if he gets sick because of me, because this is actually still dear to him!" dara said unconsciously

"ups! no - no! I don't love him, don't eat! if I go to Ge'eran, and he thinks I'm gonna get better with him, keep giving him another chance, and keep going... He will stomp - stomp me again, aaach no - no! " as she shook her own bell, she began to listen to the evil side of her heart.

Then he put back the phone whose message was still unread all on the table and stood up while carrying a dirty plate to washtufel.

While washing dishes Dara's worried mind still continues to think about finding the best way how safe and does not create an impression that makes him misunderstood.

THE CLENTING!! THE CLANG!! SHHUUUR!!

"Yaaa So!" sleepy - sleepy themselves

"I've thought carefully, though,

I made up my mind, though,

and now I know what I should do to Arga!!

that definitely won't make him misunderstand and think I want to be better than him!"

Finally after long enough to think Dara also got an answer that he thought was right!

(Yakin Dara? you're still a big boy, still unstable? nyesel

"Knew!" answer)

After finishing washing the dishes, Darapun rushed:

"Yes Dara, you must be right, you can!" encouraging themselves who are still very doubtful about the decision taken

Clenched his hand and took a deep breath, He quickly took a small basin from the dish rack, and filled it with half a bottle of cold water in the refrigerator.

His hurried step took the cellphone and mask that had been placed on the dining table, then immediately set foot towards the stairs,

"yes.. head straight to my room again!

Because I have decided not to come to him, for various reasons in the future, even though it is very pityful and also not hearty to ignore it!

Because if not so afraid of my feelings that easily waver this will melt again to him, even I who intend to avoid even can - can not be able to escape from it again. Because actually in my little heart, I admit that I still do not want to let him loose and away from me, I still love him!"

With a basin filled with cold water, of course, Darapun directly sat in front of the mirror to compress the swollen part on his face.

While daydreaming:

"Why do I keep thinking? I know that what I did was not only cruel to Arga, but also to myself because of course my mind was also tormented! but Arga, you're the one who's already taken care of me!" dara gregetan

Then he convinced himself and his heart to strongly resist the longing for some time until really time and disappointment this will pass by itself and buried by time!

"Arga, I have absolutely no intention of holding a grudge against you, because you have always been kind to me and my family, sometimes even in your very busy schedule you still have time for me, even this afternoon you still follow me home even though I've been riding ojeg!" Remember Dara until her eyes began to look glassy

"Arga, what is it you are? on the other hand it hurts but on the other hand it remains a hero to me, and the clever way you cheated all this time that I didn't know, you deserve to be called an excellent cheating because it is very smart to share time and feelings for me and Amira!

But just calm down, from now on I will try to do it and try to think positively with you! because maybe you're not my soul mate. It's just that I still need time to remove the shadow and disappointment of yesterday afternoon.

Surely today cannot be forgotten, but this incident could be my learning someday!' thought Dara was calming her own heart

(Become)

After finishing compressing, I also want to relax immediately, but because I just finished eating, then I did not immediately go up on the mattress, of course it is not good if you lie down, immediately, so I just sat next to the bed.

I leaned my back against the bed, I put my head on the bed, I put it on the bed,

With the phone next to me, I continued to read texts from Arga one by one, which there were more than twenty chats that I still felt curious if I had not opened all.

Some whispered words that were so resigned and subtle to make me sad, so they thought they would come to him to apologize and return to him.

But there are also those with words rather protested and disappointed because of my decision earlier, feeling still need an explanation from me, he said, which of course makes me so annoyed again if he still pretends to forget what he has done with Amira!

And, there are also some texts containing poetic words that washed away the feeling to almost make my heart melt again want to immediately forget his mistakes, he said, and somehow arrived - suddenly terbesit feeling uncomfortable in the heart when reading it until it runs out.

Then the fad I opened the gallery album on the tape, I saw so many photos - photos of us when we were together, ranging from the beginning of the creation to the day after tomorrow, many photos of memories while in the school environment, and many photos of memories when in the school environment, home too as we walk.

"Maybe I made the wrong decision? or is it true?! how is there still a sense of unwillingness anyway..?!" ask me to fret

"yesterday morning we are still good, but why did you act?!

is all this time what you've been doing with me a fake?!" questions in my heart

The hatred and longing to be one, the turbulence in my heart made me lose the desire to do anything now, my helplessness began to flow again in the blood, making me feel shabby.

"SARGA! YOU'RE SO DAMN IT!!?" I growled again, even grinding my teeth.

I put the phone just like that still plastered photo Arga, back I close my eyes.

"May this be the first and last for a sense of heartbreak." I hope, this time I surrender, I will try to be strong and sincere, he was my first love but that does not mean my love will end this way if it is not with him, of course God has prepared the last for me! aren't they?

"It's enough from Kindergarten to SD Dibully because of my physical weakness, from childhood I was often sick - pain without clear, yes pokonya range get sick, from small, so my Kindergarten friend often shunned me because his parents forbade his son to play with me for fear of contracting, as well as when I was in Elementary School, because I rarely get in because I often get low grades and then my classmates make fun of me the sick, but who wants to get bad grades especially illness?

If only it could be exchanged or could choose my own fate, surely I would choose a good one - good for my life right?

fortunately for Junior High I have a brave KIKI kayak friend, he always protects me from oppression, and lends me notes when I miss a lesson, also he always cheers my worst situation all this time, if it used to be Irvan mas who always was, but he is now busy, anyway Kiki my first best friend to date!"

And Arga, huuft!

While adjusting my breath to stay calm, I try to think what tomorrow and so on I will do next, because of course from tomorrow my days are different, my days are different, without him again who always asks me where and what, without him again who always invites the way if again for, and without him again who takes me home!

Of course from tomorrow I have to find a new activity so that I can soon forget the events of today and also get used to living without him again!

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THE GRILIYING!!!! THE GRILIYING!!!!

(Hape ringing sound)

Hmmm? with the eyes still closed, kuraba - the source of the ringing sound that sounded shrill until piercing in the ear...

"Ouuuuh...?!" frowning because it feels dizzy to hear it, it still feels lazy to open my eyes, immediately I turn off the cellphone alarm that I deliberately set every half-five in the morning, the goal is to wake me every morning, yes to wake me up every morning, in order to get used to getting up early for exercise for a while before activities.

Finally, I had to open my eyes that were still narrow while looking at my position right and left, too, then I held my head to observe the body that had unconsciously fallen asleep again in the last position that is still sitting leaning beside the bed.

because it still feels sleepy I'm a little dreamy,

HOOAAAM!!!!

"It is soon dawn, when it feels new ajamin mata..!!" I said while yawning.

While collecting my life, I put my head back on the bed while watching the ceiling before me, thinking back to what I did last night before falling asleep, a little I remember that I was.....

"uuugh pegelnya, why do I sleep in this position?" pain and stiffness in the back of the neck.

But now my headache has been somewhat reduced, maybe it was too much crying and also because I have been late eating all day!.

"Aah, eat?" surprised to remember something

"Had he been home last night? don't tell me he's still in front of the house!!" I hurried up from my seat.

I who was still sleepy arrived - suddenly so it immediately felt fresh in an instant, then rushed out of the room to go down just to make sure that he really had gone home or not, while going down the stairs one by one I hope he is no longer in front of the house like last night.

With a very heart - my heart began to peek a little from behind the curtains, which of course I became relieved after seeing he was no longer out there, just that

the atmosphere is still quiet and dark even though there are some lights from people's homes but still a bit gripping.

I observe the surrounding environment by paying attention to all directions, indeed Arga and his motorbike are no longer in front of the house, but suddenly terbesit strange suspicious feelings.

The wasp - was starting to lurk, plus there was a fear that suddenly appeared in the heart making my heart so slightly pounding - thumping.

Get caught in the mind if for example there is something that shows itself right in front of my face how?, or maybe it arrives - someone holds my shoulder from behind...? iiih amit - amit deh don't take it! I said in my heart

You know what I mean? something I don't want to see in front of my eyes or anyone else,

that's Ghost!!

It sounds a bit silly but other than me, there might also be some people who think the same as me when faced with a situation like me at the moment. Dark, cold, silent and gripping...

(Take on Dara! I actually have seen something like cigarette smoke flying towards him under the bridge of the river next to the house as the sound of the morning Adhan was reverberating, it is normal that the smoke flew upwards, yes!

#autocurhat

Dara: Ah what the heck nambahin afraid!😭)