The Forbidden Love of Dara

Decisions

Then when it was behind the door, with a feeling of was was I began to open slowly the land and sure enough what Doni said just now.

I was right to see Arga who was still in school uniform earlier and even he did not wear his alma mater, even though the air outside was cold enough in addition to the mosquitoes that scattered where.

I slowly began to memorize it, although in my heart I still asked questions because I did not believe what I saw before me now.

Seeing him who turned out until this hour still standing in front of my house, while leaning beside his motorbike which was still stuck exactly in the same position when the last time he drove me this afternoon.

It's just that what's different is the color of the sky that was orange now turned dark night.

With her paled face, she looked at me expressionlessly which made me even more confused to ask and say what. The resentment in my heart because of his actions with Amira mixed with also the feeling of not being able to see it now.

The sound of my heart beating began to accompany the footsteps that were getting closer to him, stiffly my lips tried to ask him a question.

"You, when's it been here??" in the hope that he will answer that he has just come from somewhere and come back here again.

"I called from earlier but you didn't pick up, neither did you open my chat, I need your explanation!" with a soft voice from her thin lips that dried up.

"Ma,misthat? you're here da.." My feelings are getting bad making my tongue go crazy

"Yes, I've been here since I sent you this afternoon, and I'd like to take care of everything, I don't like it if I have a protracted problem!" clearly, for a moment we looked at each other, the soft blink of his eyes plus the look of his face that looks tired growing pity in the heart, he said,

CTAAAR!⚡

I was really surprised because my suspicions were indeed true, I knew that it was already half ten in the evening, and he had been here from about half six in the afternoon.

Of course his confession made me feel beaten and guilty, I was trying to stay away from him but I was not the kind of person who let people wait outside for hours.

Because I was still angry and my mind was also in turmoil, I had absolutely no intention of offering him entry into the house, although I knew besides being tired he would also be very hungry and thirsty, but that can't be a reason for me to be merciful to him because of course he always brings money and money.

"Where would I like to explain if one text from me you haven't read yet, please explain to me the truth why?!" he asked again, I really forgot my phone all day, from starting to go to class this morning until now must still be silenced in my bag.

"That's because sms belom read you wait here!! I was sleeping, because you're still here at this hour Doni until wake me up, you go home there I want to rest!!" my reasons are rude and pretentious so he can go home quickly

"Where can I go home quietly, if you're angry with me for no apparent reason!?" he said as he began to stand straight in front of me, I was actually nervous but I tried to stay calm.

"What do you say, I'm angry indistinctly? you really don't know or pretend you don't know anyway? it should be me who needs an explanation from you, what is your relationship with Amira?!" ask to the point with a relaxed tone even though the pain begins to feel again.

And because I don't like to look weak in front of anyone including my own family, then I will hold my emotions so as not to cry.

He shook his head and then sighed, he said,

"Huuuf! Amira again Amira again, beib I have no cheating on her, do you hear from who the hell?" he asked innocently as if he had never done anything

My feelings that had not had the heart to see his current state suddenly turned into uncomfortable, because he who still did not want to admit.

Our relationship has been betrayed for a year and at least I thought he chose a good friend among us who became his third person.

"Not hearing from whom Ga! but I saw it for myself you and Amira beside the back class this afternoon, even I heard what you guys were talking about!" I said obviously

"Yaaa aampuuun, did you see what beib? you hear what?? I did have a chat with Mira for a while, but we had a normal conversation and I had nothing to say to her!" with a panicked expression he still denied me.

Actually I just want to repeat the words Amira said with him as an example, but I was already disgusted to discuss this problem again.

"It's Ga, whatever you say! I don't want to talk about it anymore !" I said I was starting to give up

"What do you mean beib?!" he asked while both hands wanted to hold my shoulder, but I immediately brushed it off.

"Do you still not understand?!" ask me to press

"No, I don't want you to make the wrong decision, because you just misunderstood me and Mira!" said

"uhhuh! misunderstand me?! misunderstanding how, this is not the first and second time, you and he are often alone, before I did not suspect anything, but this afternoon what?! I'm lazy!" my tone began to rise and then I turned around

"I've been confused by your attitude that is still trying to lie to me, I can't stand to see your holy face!" I said as I stepped towards the door of the house and decided to end the matter by severing ties with him.

"Beib! please listen to my explanation for a moment, I'll explain everything!" call him while following me

"Don't call beib again! I don't want to hear that call from your mouth!!.. GO!!" I snapped, but he still stepped forward

"Beib, you're completely misunderstood, this is not what you think it is!" said beg.

"Are you sane?! it's been caught still!! keep now want to be clear, clear what else? IT's STALE! I didn't expect my true nature to be like this!" I said firmly but my voice began to hoarsely resist the cries.

GREEKS!

"Beib, please listen to me for a moment!" the door while holding my hand

"REMOVE!! I TOLD YOU NOT TO COME ANY CLOSER!!!" I said yell again and he took my hand off

I opened the door and quickly entered and locked it,

"Beib listen to me for a moment, I have nothing - say to Mira this afternoon, yesterday, or anytime!!" he said in a soft voice but still sounded very clear. Let alone emotions, the way of speech is not high like last day only, surely he does not want to sound noisier night - night in front of my house.

"Go back, Ga, I don't need any explanation - what, I really understand that I'm nothing - what compared to Amira, she's more beautiful, and has a great background, I am not rich here. Actually I wonder why you shot me? there are so many beautiful girls who like you!" I said, closing my eyes,

"Beib, I like you as you are, for me you are already the most beautiful among others, I do not need the material or background, I like you because you are good, you are simple, you are simple, and me too......"

"It's Ga! your mouth does not need to praise - praise me who does not fit your heart! you chose me because I'm stupid, right, so you play it easy?"

"No beib! I really love you, now you open the door first yes, let me explain all your power! ayoo beib's..."

'What did I see and hear this afternoon what was wrong? plus he has also maki - maki Kiki in front of many people, if there is nothing - what is it up to emotions, and now just want to persuade me again later he continues so again? no I'm not that stupid, that's enough!' thought

With me rounding my throat and gathering courage, I decided what I should do, taking a deep breath and throwing it away slowly

HUUUUFF......

"Arga, there's nothing more to discuss, it's clear everything." I said calmly from behind the door.

"We better BREAK UP!" continued,

TOK - TOK - TOK!!! knock the door quickly.

"Beib, open the beib...!! what the hell is this beib, can't be convinced!! open the door, I'll explain what happened actually, beib open first, please beib, horrified my explanation first dong!!" he panicked while continuing to knock on the door.

The real me also still did not believe what I had said just now, somehow I became disappointed with myself until unconsciously my tears dripped.

I took my hand off the door, unable to bear the sound of Arga continuing to call me back and step away from the door.

"Here you go, Go home!!" My message, then I ran up the stairs to my room

Arriving at the last step of the stairs I passed by my sister who had just come out of her room, luckily she was busy with her cellphone in her hand so did not see that I was crying.

"Oiyaa, my sister just called!" call him, then I stop stepping but don't look at him.

"What did mama say?"

"Mama said tonight did not come home, he still made a cake order Aunty Ria made tomorrow in.." not finished my sister explained I immediately cut it.

"Yes" answered briefly with a position still behind him then immediately I entered my room because I did not want anyone to see me in a state of crying and weak.

Arriving in the room I leaned behind the vibrating door set my breath that felt heavy, I felt my whole body start and limp.

And I finally let my tears flow to the fullest, really still can't believe what happened today, so many things that passed, disappointed, sick, shocked, shocked, and not believing in my decision just now, suddenly I felt like I had fallen from a high place and was smashed to pieces.

In an instant my being with him ended just like that because other people, my disturbing thoughts and feelings, being annoyed and sad being one made me powerless with myself.

'I should what? what should it be now?' ask yourself

My sobbing cry - sobs added to the tightness of my chest, and again I started to feel dizzy in my head. My whole body was really feeling pain without bleeding but getting weaker and more helpless.

Blood flow feels blocked closing the path in the veins, even though the heartbeat sounds very tight pumping, bones and joints feel powerless to make the knee tremble.

Even when you just want to reach the pillow on the bed, it all looks very far when it is only three steps away. With my vision starting to blur because it was covered in tears, I reached for my favorite pillow to cover my face and scream inside it to vent all the feelings that block in my heart.

"God help me...." Shouted me

Because at this time only He is able to calm me, I also continue to call and ask forgiveness from Him in my soft whisper.

My heart is turbulent in its direction, there is a sense of craving someone, there is a sense of hating someone, there is a sense of trusting someone, and also a sense of disappointment to someone.

'Aren't you actually thinking about the last words for me?

So I said it first, because I did not want to and could not hear it even for a second from your lips.

But at the end of the day I am the one who is deeply wounded, and will I continue to live with these wounds?!

Now you will be a memory before me, but your old love will always be with me forever with my empty heart.

Although maybe one day I'll see you with the others,

And for me it was the cruelest thing in my love story..

And for your shadow, go! please don't come to me again....

Because I know that one by one part of you will leave me, even now I am beginning to feel the coldness of a loss.

It's as if a part of my body has been taken away and do you know it's very painful. So, please bring back the part of me that you have taken away..!!

There is a past memory, where it is a time when we smile at each other funny, joking, and laughing together.

Always do anything by always giving news to each other and always share our happiness as if we will live together forever, even though we know that eternity does not actually exist.

We are accustomed to greet the morning sunshine with a sweet greeting through the phone, and so also deliver a dark night before going to bed to welcome when we can still see tomorrow with enthusiasm.

But unfortunately we never think and feel that an end is so close to us.