The Forbidden Love of Dara

Like a Killer

On monday, his,

Early in the morning, Irvan had come to the house he said he wanted to take me to school, I who had not had time to apologize to him for the incident at the hospital at that time (*the same smile of Doctor Indra) so it is not good if it is too much to defy him, so I guess what he said because it is also the advice that Kiki gave me.

Arriving at school,

From morning until home I have not met Amira and also her bandmate Arga, because I was curious to look for each class they each.

But when I asked the classmate Amira it turns out he still did not go to school.

"Become?!"

"A-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a?!!" I'm surprised to see him arrive - come to school already this afternoon without a uniform.

"Who are you looking for?" tannya

"I'm looking for you, I want news of Arga! how is he doing now? his mother had nothing to do so I didn't know what else to ask him!" I said enthusiastically

"It's too late Ra!!" His reply was expressionless, my heart pounding very fast and strong

"Ma.. You mean what's late? YOU MEAN WHAT?!!" ask me to yell while shaking his body.

For a moment Amira was silent looking at me like she was preparing words, then her hand held my shoulder

"Because, soon after the graduation exam, you better focus on studying first, about Arga later you will also know..." He answered, then he let go of my hand and left.

"What does that mean? huh..!" My murmuring while taking a step back from weakness, the tightness of my chest made me start to have trouble breathing.

I became fixated after hearing his words just now that it was unclear what he meant,

'No, Arga can't be why - napa! Arga must have survived! Arga must be getting healthier!' thousands of prejudices filled my mind space.

"Well, where are you from, so I know you, you why Ra?!" Ask Kiki while hunting down to me.

After that, then,

The days I spent without a smile let alone joy, whatever used to be my favorite hobby and now forgotten, now I have absolutely no spirit to do anything else.

Even the appetite to choose the food that I like is no longer there, so every day I eat just to connect my life.

In addition, my job is only to learn to carry out obligations as a student and child that will carry out UAN.

It has been a month, and until now I have not been able to get any information about the news of Arga, even his house is empty, and also his parents until now there is no one to contact.

'Arga, where are you?' I murmured in my heart while daydreaming at the eating table

"Become? how from earlier the food was just stirred - just stir, baby?!" reproof mama

"Huh? (stunned) I ate mah.." I said as I began to bribe little by little, then mama shook her head while typing something in her phone.

It was not until five minutes that Irvan came in a hurry and immediately sat beside me,

"Daddy, is it hard to eat again? look at your body there's a bone wrapped in gini skin!" he said, then I looked at him.

"Mas mas, when will I take care of my life? why don't you take care of yourself, find a cake mate!!" I said, while my emotions put down the spoon and then moved from the dining table to my room.

When I got to the room, I closed the door and cried on the bed.

"HIX.. HYX.."

JEGLEK.....

BLAMME...

(the door opens and closes)

"Dad?" call Irvan while sitting next to me

"Hiks.. Why come here, not the horror I said earlier? why not take offense to my words?! Hicks.." Then he lifted my stomach up

"Here is my answer (while hugging me from behind)

Mas will not be offended because mas know adek talking like it is intentional, mas understand adek again need calm, but the way to find calm actually makes all worried about your condition, try to see the pale of your face, but the way to find calmness actually makes all worried about the same condition, thin your body, this is called self-torture and if you think the gini continues the same also torment mas as well!" Said

"No, I don't want to torture mas, so if told mamah or mother to take care of me should not want to! I've grown up no longer need to be guarded!" repay me

"Without mom or mom tell me to come see you every day, and it will be salahin until you really can take care of yourself! ....

You've been like this for a month, how do you want to take the school exam tomorrow? how to take another life test?!" Prattling

"A. I don't know mas, I don't know what else to do, with the mistakes I've made until now continue to haunt me, I don't know what my next life will be like!"

I said with a blank look ahead.

"Don't like the deck, everyone will pass the good road and each of his misfortune, if you continue to regret and lament like this when is happy?"

"happy?! how can I be happy, as far as I need right now just want to know the situation of people who have helped me who even made me hurt, and until now there has been no news, either, negative thoughts kept pressing on my mind, making me feel like a murderer! do I still deserve to be happy?!" My speech

Then suddenly there was water dripping in my arms ....

"~Mafin mas ya dek. (the voice vibrates)

sorry if it turns out that until now there are still many shortcomings, mas do not becus keep adek, do not becus be a good brother, so be a good brother, if indeed the arrival of mas only add burden for adek mas will not bother anymore, (while releasing his embrace)

the important thing is that you take good care of yourself - well, once again sorry for the deck!"

He kissed my head and left.

'Mas, I should have asked for mas, I've only been a burden to mas, mas it's been very perfect in my life all this time, but that perfection just looks useless if mas continues beside me. Because right now I'm like a broad glass, even if patched still can not accommodate well, so mas no longer need to waste precious time and energy just to take care of people who have no hope of happiness like me, because my life in the future will probably be like the undead..' I said in my heart

Two weeks have passed, though,

The results of the exam that came out three days ago are quite satisfying, yes because all I have been doing is studying, so the contents of my brain other than Arga, yes, lessons, I have not been looking for entertainment for a few months, because there is nothing that can make me entertained.

Right now I'm in an art hall, which a year ago was the first place Arga put me to shame and geer half-dead.

While sitting I watched the show that was shown on stage, although the atmosphere was very crowded with music and applause but to me everything was bland.

Even Kiki who had always been the most able to calm my mood but this time there was not a single nurse who was able to comfort me, but he was always by my side during school to watch every move I did at the request of mama and mas Irvan.

A TAP! (someone's hand touches my shoulder)

"Well, come with me for a second? Kiki too" Pinta Amira who arrived stood by me, like a mute I just nodded and followed her.

Though it's been almost two months since that day me and he never again clashed with each other or just say hello, but whatever came - suddenly he looks very precarious to me.

"Come here ." he said as he opened the door of the OSIS room which again - again I was in the same room and atmosphere when Arga shot me which of course made me miss more.

"Amira, what do you mean you brought me here?!" I just feel sad

"Not all this time you want to know about Arga?!" I was suddenly enthusiastic

"WHAT! how, how is he doing now?!" I held Amira's hand.

"Calm down, you're sitting here." he said as he prepared a bench for me and then he sat in front of me, but Kiki just stood behind me.

"Listen to me kindly - well Dara (grabbing my hand)

actually, I don't know about Arga right now!" he said disappointing

"Why did you bring me here?!" I pulled my hand from his grasp

"Because, with me first, I want to deliver a message from Arga!" immediately I looked at him seriously, Kiki who was still standing immediately sat next to me.

"Amira, are you serious? between this Dara has suffered enough just because - waiting for news Arga, you do not play him again!" Kiki said firmly to him

"I know that all this time you guys have misunderstood me and Arga, I'm really sorry for the problem because it has been selfish towards your relationship, but I was also forced to do this, and this also included a request from Arga.." Evidently,

"What do you mean? I don't understand what you're saying!" say

"So actually, I'm the same Arga we are brothers (JLEB!!), my papa is the older brother of Arga's father, which is more precisely the two of us are cousins once!"

"What, you brothers?!" I was surprised, and then he nodded

"Amira, you don't make jokes, how can you brothers and no one in this school know!?" kiki asked starting to get emotional

"Yes right, besides me and Darma at this school, no one knows who Arga really is.." He said, then I immediately remembered something

"Photo! Kiki, the photo of the alm.bu Fatma!" I said remind Kiki

"Ah, so the photo under the stairs?" tanya Kiki turned to Amira

"So you guys saw? yes it is a photo of us, a special photo of the grandchildren of the deceased who live in Kalimantan.

Our family used to get along very well, but knew - tau can be a problem that is quite complicated until - until the Papanya Arga no longer wants to recognize us all as his brother, as his brother, in other words he broke the fraternity" the story goes

"You are the famous family in this city, how can you find a problem that breaks the rope?!" ask me curious

"All I know is that because my father was against Arga's hard papa for marriage again until - until aunt maria came home to her parents' house in Jakarta, so her sister Arga was schooled there!" she replied beginning to remember

"If Arga's father has broken up the fraternity, then why is Arga in school here, is this school taken care of by your father?!" Ask Kiki

"Yes, Arga was once banned from entering this school because my father was the chairman of his foundation,

but because grandma is the owner of this school and he who asked all his grandchildren who live in Kalimantan are required to attend school here!

Because Arga's papa just broke the fraternity rope but not with his parents, so he still obeyed the request of the grandmother!" answerable

"But, how come for many years of school here we all do not know the status of Arga who is also the granddaughter of alm.bu Fatma?!" Ask Kiki again

"So, Arga's father allowed Arga to attend school here but on one condition, he asked that the background of Arga's status as my papa's nephew be kept secret right!

By photocopy'an family card Arga is not kept school distaff, so no one knows if Arga and I are actually a grandmother, at least people know we are just friends since childhood, so no one knows if I and Arga are actually a grandmother, ain't you?!" kiki and I stared at each other after hearing her explanation.

"You don't want to happen two months ago, exactly when my grandmother died? I'm the same as my other cousins who had time to find out why Arga did not go to school even did not come at the funeral of my grandmother, and after I got the info once again Arga was hospitalized because his typhoid symptoms recurred!" I was surprised

"So he's really sick, and that's because of me!!" I said while covering my face with my hands holding back a cry of guilt

"Daraa.." then Kiki rubbed my back because she knew the story.

"I know that Arga's room will be guarded by his papa aide, but because I really want to cool me with my other cousin's sister looking for a way, he said, we tricked the guards into hiding - hiding to visit Arga when his papa wasn't around.

Arga tells her that her father plans to take her abroad, living with her mother and newborn half-sister.

So fitting out of the hospital plan he wants to tell you all of your time, but ... haven't been perfect your story even accident!"

Amira's explanation instantly made me tremble, my feelings crumbled to pieces, my tongue was no longer able to hold the words so much for myself.

"I've hated him for no reason at all, but I know that nothing has changed about me.

At that time he was willing to wait for me outside the house until dawn just wanted me to listen to his explanation, until he fell ill, and after recovery he again wanted to explain to me but .... I even got him into an accident because of my carelessness!" I said while feeling the tightness of my chest, instantly I felt like I lost my soul

"Become?!" call Amira and Kiki

They immediately moved from sitting holding my body that began to look, hands to my feet immediately turned cold

"Amira, Kiki, A.. L'M.. I'M....."