Send My Letter to Heaven's

Cinderella and Childhood Memories

I let my feet tread on the hospital grounds.

The smell of the medicine gushed into my sense of smell.

For the first time after Dhafin's departure, I set foot in the hospital again.

My eyes are staring straight. Refused to look in any direction. It's still the same hospital where I used to entertain kids with cancer.

Approximately, how are they doing?

I hope that good and good luck will cover their lives.

My feet continued to step into one of my destination's rooms. Reluctant to exchange greetings with one of the hospital employees even though in fact I still remember who they were.

Not arrogant, but the hospital is one of the places that holds thousands of painful memories for me. So, I tried to avoid that one object.

I took it to one of the rooms in the corner. The whitewashed quiet room that I used to open and close when I visited those who were sick.

Before entering, I looked at the woman who was sitting on the sickly bed while opening the thick sheet of book.

A little less sure of what he was reading, but I think it's something pretty interesting.

“Hai.” Sapaku while smiling.

Kimi raised her head and returned my smile.

“You're coming? How's Jovin?”

I let my eyes look at the room for a glimpse. “Jovin good really. Her bruises are not severe.” My answer.

Kimi nodded her head. “Sit here, I want to talk to you.”

Not to argue, I obeyed Kimi's orders.

Pull one of the benches nearby, then sit right next to his bed. From here I could see that Kimi's short hair turned out to be fake hair.

“Why?” Realizing to have noticed, I threw my face away while shaking slowly. “How come yes, because this is not real hair?” He asked while taking off his wig and showing off his hairless head.

I am not surprised at all, because I have often seen children who are big with no hair on their head because of the effects of hard drugs to eradicate cancer.

Wait, cancer?

“I'm sick with leukemia Ra.” That surprised me enough.

“Sorry, I don't have a crush.”

“Nothing really. It was a long time ago, too, to heal but the cancer appeared again. Yes, maybe it is my fate to live in the shadow of a deadly disease.”

My eyes are pointing towards him. “Do not talk that way. All trials have their own silver lining.” Obviously me and him laughing.

“How can Ra you answer. Often yes?”

Frequently what?

“Ahh yes, I found this in Kenzie's wallet. I thought this was a picture of Kenzie with his brother, but he said it wasn't.”

Kimi handed me a medium-sized photograph.

A picture of two smiling children staring at the camera holding a book. The book is now in Kimi's hands.

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“This book right?”

Kimi nodded, then closed the book and handed it to me. “Your fairy tale book right?”

Yeah, that's my fairy tale book my dad bought when we went to the bookstore. A book that has been missing for years. It turns out it's still in Kenzie's possession.

“Kok is on you?”

Kimi confirmed his sitting position. “That time the doctor said that my cancer was growing again. I'm down, I'm almost crazy, I'm even gonna kill myself. But Kenzie came, he made me. Keep telling him all the stories in the book. He said, there used to be a child who could not sleep if not in fairy talein, and now if I can not sleep, I become dependent on the same book.”

Kenzie still remembers it well.

“You're lucky Ra, to be close and to know Kenzie. Not rich me.”

“Max you what? Are you her boyfriend?"

"Hyera, Hyera, not everyone's dating likes each other." His laughter and smile faded. "There are people who live together, often together, in relationships but have no feelings at all. They coexist only because of coercion."

"I'm sorry I don't understand your max."

Kimi straightened her body. "Don't pretend to be stupid Ra. You may not get Kenzie's girlfriend status, but all Kenzie cares about is Kenzie's feelings for you. Everything for you!"

Kimi's anger suddenly exploded. The boy suddenly snapped. Honestly, I still don't understand the situation. What's Kimi's max?

She is a good girl, she is graceful, she is meek, why is she suddenly angry and snapping?

"Kim you??"

"Do you know?" The boy got up from his seat, made me wake up from my seat. "You didn't? Do you realize that Kenzie has always liked you? Kenzie always put you together. I'm the one whose boyfriend has to pretend to be in pain to let Kenzie stay in place to take care of me. You know how I woke up to Kenzie's attention? You know what?!"

"Kimi you why? What's your max? Why say gini?"

Plakkkp...

Spanking from people I didn't expect at all.

That soft hand, landed beautifully on my right cheek. That girl is 360° different from the Kimi I know.

The meek Kimi, always smiling sincerely, acting cute, today she is different from the Kimi I know, from the Kimi I know.

Kimi who is in front of me now, turned into an evil Kimi like a half-brother in the story of Cinderella.

"I guess I'm way above you. I got everything. I got it all. I'm normal. I have complete parents. I'm not handicapped. But why would Kenzie choose you over me, why?!"

His hand was back. I'm lucky I have good reflexes. I managed to deflect his hand.

"Kimi, seriously I don't understand what's going on with you. I'm the same Kenzie from childhood. We know each other from small, and big. There is no feeling more than just friends. Why are you angry and say that?" Because I like it only I feel it.

"Mitos if there are no feelings between you. Don't be a hypocrite Ra. I am a woman, just as rich as you are. I know you like Kenzie from the way you look at him!"

God, all this time I've been trying to make Kenzie's eyes normal.

"Kimi, calm down. You calm down..." Bujukku and Kimi even laughed quite loudly.

"Quiet down? Heh, you know Ra? Every time I've been with Kenzie, he's always been telling me about you. He was always proud of you in front of me. If I'm angry, he says I'm a kid. Never once did he tell me about you that he didn't tell me. I have Kenzie, but his heart, Kenzie's heart has yours Ra. I won over Kenzie's body, but Kenzie's soul you won. You're Ra, you!"

Hearing Kimi's words, made my tears come down.

All this time, I thought I was alone in loving. But in fact, my love was retorted in silence.

"Ra, you know? I once thought that I, who was far more perfect than you, could get all of Kenzie's attention and attention. I guess, you who are handicapped rich gini will not be able to get anything. But I was wrong." Kimi's tone swallowed. The boy wiped away the tears that melted down both of his cheeks.

"I think Kenzie just loves a friend or a brother. I guess, Kenzie likes me perfect. But it turns out I was wrong. The perfect Kenzie prefers you to be flawed."

Kimi's last words were quite painful.

I walked closer to Kimi. Embrace the child and embrace him slowly.

"I'm sorry that I ruined your relationship with Kenzie. I'm sorry I was so bad to love Kenzie. Sorry, because I even make Kenzie less considerate of you. I promise, I promise I'll get out of your lives, I promise Kim."

Kimi let go of my embrace and shook her head very quickly.

"No Ra. Don'tgo. Pliss I beg you not to go. I'm angry because Kenzie's been paying more attention to you. I'm angry because Kenzie likes you too. But it's not entirely your fault. Here even I'm wrong, I miss you two, I don't know myself taking Kenzie from you."

My head shook in response.

"Hyera, I'm not much longer. I don't know when God took my life. It could be later tonight, it could be later in the afternoon, or it could be tomorrow morning. I can go at any time. And before I go, I beg you. Please take care of Kenzie. Please live happily with Kenzie. I know it's a silly request, but you guys love each other. You love each other, your feelings are perfect for each other. Pliss, with Ra?"

I did not approve or deny Kimi's request. On the other hand I was relieved that in fact my love did not clap one hand, but on the other hand there was a strange feeling that I was somehow confused to interpret it as what.

The love I used to fear had the same feelings as mine.

Should I be happy and obey Kimi's request?

If you recall, there are many stories that I went through with Kenzie. Regardless of sadness or happiness.

I realized, all this time every time I was in trouble there must be Kenzie around me. The boy always comes on time.

And the loneliness that I felt all along, was in fact the pseudo loneliness that was provoked from my mind.

There's Kenzie wherever I need him. There's Kenzie who's always helping me. But I, close my eyes and don't consider Kenzie's whereabouts right.

That kid always took all his time for me, without me noticing.