Send My Letter to Heaven's

Prologues

"I wrote this letter to my best friend Kenzie Masashi, a strange man with all his manners yet very kind and considerate. The man who can remain faithful is beside me. A man with a million advantages that make me captivated in silence.

Hey Ken, can I just say that I like you? Don't laugh, just think of it as just a single feeling from me for you.

I like you how I stand with you under the rain, how you become a rainbow after, carrying a million beauties that hypnotize me every time I look at your face and fall asleep in your smile.

Ken. I often ask the creator. What would we be, if we didn't forge bonds of friendship? A bond that brings a story of love from me to you at the same time. But sometimes I also wonder, are we able to join hands in the rain if we are not bound in friendship?

Every second I imagine you, your cheerful figure can make me smile in silence. Between the chants of the ballad song you always listen to, I smiled. When I remember you I was happy, but I was also tormented.

Ken's... When later I can loudly voice my heart to you, I hope you are not disgusted by me.

There are so many people on earth who are so perfect. And I, one of them, was not perfect but hoped to have perfect love.

Selfish if I want you. You are free to have the perfect love of your life. You're free to get the perfect companion like yourself.

Sorry to like you so much. I'm not a good girl who can make you smile all the time. However, your existence can make me calm the burden of life that always makes me anxious.

I often ask the Creator. Why did he create me with such a pathetic destiny.

Left by parents, hearing is damaged, everyone is squeaking when they see me. Painful...

Being imperfect is hard. However, you have come to perfect my imperfections.

*You came and you dared to appear by my side without protesting with me who was disabled, yes.

Many times I wish I could bond further than just a friend. But, do I deserve*?

I'm a disabled girl.

I have many shortcomings.

I'm different.

Can I have you?

I think the answer is, no.

My destiny in the future is not my destiny. So is your destiny.

But hope is not a mistake, right?

Ken's... In the future, promise to live better and happier.

Whatever happens, please don't blame yourself.

I don't know, you're standing next to me because you want her or you just feel sorry for a disabled girl like me. You should be free to leave me, whenever you want.

Even so, I'm happy Ken.

Your presence makes me smile. Your presence can give color to my life.

Whoever's gonna be your partner, I'm sure she's a very lucky girl.

Ken's... Tomorrow, when you open your eyes without me, please don't worry. Stop grieving. I'll stay by your side. Monitor you from far away.

One day, when you find this letter, I just want you to know one thing.

L like you.

*Although presumptuous, although late, but my love is sincere to you.

Although I am flawed and imperfect, but my feelings are sincere and perfect for you*.

*Don't be uncomfortable knowing the fact I'm presumptuous to put a taste in you. I hope you still want to be my friend.

Whatever our status, whatever your purpose is close to me, I am very grateful for the time you have given me.

For the day I spent with you.

I thank you*.

Ken's... Live better. Live happily. Live in peace.

Allow me to keep this feeling. It's okay if you don't return my feelings. I'm even very grateful that you allowed me to stand beside you in the rain.

*Thank you to everyone. Thank you for your time. Thank you for choosing me as one of the people who watched the rain and rainbow with you.

Thanking*

*From me, that imperfect girl who kindly likes you."

- Hyera Jenaro*

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