Send My Letter to Heaven's

Goodbye

“Hyera, where are you from? Why is it soaked?”

My eyes looked at Kak Andrian who was sitting next to Kak Dhafin's bed. There was Kenzie also standing by the window. While one beautiful woman was sitting on a long sofa near Kak Dhafin's bed.

Kimi stood up from her seat. I smiled slightly at him even though I did not reply.

My attentions aren't for the three of them. But for my brother who is still loyal to his deep sleep.

Slowly, I stepped closer towards Kak Dhafin's bed. Not even did my step stop at the exact side of Kak Dhafin's bed, one hand stopped my step by pulling my body slightly back.

My eyes glared as I watched Jovin stand up while stopping my steps.

“I accidentally saw you on the street. You're rained. It would be better if you dry your body first.”

I don't even know when Jovin got into Kak Dhafin's room. The child was like the wind that entered the sidelines of a door with no sound or trace left behind.

“Kok here?” Many wonder.

Jovin scratched his nape. “I saw you on the street. I wanted to give you a ride, not to be.”

My forehead wrinkled.

“You turned to this hospital immediately. Yaudah I'm not giving you a ride.”

“Continue following me?”

Jovin nodded with a smile. “Sorry.” He said while releasing his grip on my arm. “Use this so you don't catch a cold.” Jovin took off his blue jacket and put it on me.

The man smiled once more. “Don't kick me out. I'll wait for you here.”

Again, my forehead is wrinkled with a sign of not understanding.

“Emmm... Maybe you'll need me?”

I just kept quiet hearing it. Not returning his words or just plain trite. I would rather turn my body around and stare at Sister Dhafin in her calmness.

My hand reached out to the hand of Dhafin Kak who was freed from the infuse hose.

“Hei.” Saying slowly. The sound of life support machines Kak Dhafin sounds earthy deafening eardrum. “Not wake up?” As always. There is no answer to the question I asked.

“So I went to the grave of the same father mother.” Brother Andrian stepped closer. “I tell them the same story, why fate bega our family.” Brother Andrian's hand stroked my back. “Kak, was brother dateng also yes?” Elusan Kak Andrian stopped.

I leaned my head into the heavy hands of Brother Dhafin.

“Promise, I promise to make sure of all that you said. I promise I won't cry anymore, I promise I won't be sad anymore. I promise to run to Brother Andrian or Kenzie if there are many questions that I do not know. I promise..” My words are stuck. My tears started to flow. “.. I promise to be happy after this.” My words were a little restrained because they held back the crying.

My head slowly lifted. My hand is stroking the burly arm of Brother Dhafin. “I wanted to donate my heart. I was going to take my life with my sister. But if you are not strong.” I don't know, it feels heavy to say this. But I have to say everything. “...if brother is not strong I sincere.” Broke my cry.

My defense not to cry is broken. I couldn't hold back my crying.

“I'm sincere that Kak Dhafin wants to go. I am sincere that Dhafin is not strong. I live alone in this world. I.. sincere brother.” My crying is getting louder.

“Kak, tell dad same mom. Tell them I'm grateful. Thank you for being born to me, until I met my sister. Thanks for wanting to be my sister.thank you for taking care of me. Thanks brother already want to survive me who is disabled. Thank you, because you're not complaining at all. Thanks brother.”

I heard someone holding back his crying. But let it be, I will not respond to that.maybe Kimi is holding back sobs to hear my words to Kak Dhafin.

“That's quiet if you want to go. It was already saying goodbye at my father's grave right, so my message went quietly and don't worry about me at all..”.

“. My brother's job is done. God is also very kind to give me permission to say goodbye to my sister. Not rich when my mom died. God didn't even give me time to make salim to them.”

I slowly raised my pale hand and kissed the back of his hand. Slightly trembling but I managed to kiss the pale hand of Brother Dhafin.

After that I re-establish my body and bow to kiss Kak Dhafin's forehead.

“Rest...” Melt tears fall in the right eye Kak Dhafin. “....rest....” I gather strength when the heart machine starts to slow it sounds. “.... Rest in peace sis…” And with my words spoken. The machine went off very long, indicating that Kak Dhafin's heart had completely stopped.

I cried loudly over the face of Dhafin. All inches of her face didn't escape my kiss. One Doctor and several nurses came in trying to separate my arms from Dhafin's.

Brother Andrian pulled my body and held me tight. I cried, spilling all feelings of loss in Brother Andrian's arms. Until the Doctor said…

“Dhafin Jenaro, time of death xxxxxx”

My legs squeezed and after that my body collapsed along with Andrian's legs that were not strong to support my body.

We cried. We cry hugging each other.

I cried with a little relief from saying goodbye, and Brother Andrian who cried because he left his little friend.

Losing someone valuable in life is a painful loss. Someone who always accompanies, fills the day, and there is always it gone for good.

My brother, Brother Dhafin Jenaro is really resting quietly. Both my parents in heaven.

Task finished. All the burden is gone. All the things that make up the record of deeds in the world are finished.

For that my current request, give the most beautiful place to Kak Dhafin and my parents in heaven. And one day, when my work in the world is also done, I hope that I can meet and meet with them again.

Or, if God is kind again, allow us to reincarnate and remain a happy whole family. Not loss and pain. But really happy like a harmonious family out there.

My brother, my dear brother Dhafin. Who took care of me in the place of my father and mother, thank you for the affection you gave me. All the attention and loyalty I received.

Brother, let's meet again in another part of the universe.

Come visit my dreams. Tell me your happy story in heaven. Tell me about my father and mother in heaven. Wait for me, it'll be my turn to get together and meet all of you.

Brother, good-bye. Happy resting.