Send My Letter to Heaven's

Rela

My feet are not moving in direction. Traveling around aimlessly, this hospital. My chest aches every day looking at Dhafin's sister who never opens her eyes. Today is the third day Dhafin fell asleep. Do not wake up, but already quusili.

Normally, Brother Dhafin wakes up right away when I start to get noisy nearby. But now, he really did not open his eyes.

I breathe out slowly. Resigned with circumstances. It is up to how destiny should go. If indeed Brother Dhafin has to go, I will. Not because of want or what, just that, seeing the condition of Kak Dhafin who continues to endure pain, make me also feel bitter.

People say, if we can let go of something that should have gone, in the future we will get more.

I've asked that Brother Dhafin continue to stay by my side. But, if God's destiny willed otherwise, I can't argue at all. Make what? It is also free to fight against destiny.

“Cautious.” My hand caught the little boy who ran and almost fell.

His eyes were round, similar to Andrian's. The boy looked at me, but then ran away from me. I smiled seeing him.

“Hyera?”

Enforcing my body, I stared at a figure standing looming in front of me. Isn't that kid everywhere?

“You are here?” I asked Jovin who had no need to bring him here.

“Medicine for my grandfather.” I have, and I understand. “You, there need to be here?” His eyes looked at me, but I replied with only a faint smile.

“Something hurts?” Ask again. A simple question yet capable of making the crystal balls in my eyes almost pop out.

“Kak ku.” Reply lirih.

Jovin took one step forward. Hugged me in silence. And in ignorance, the crystal ball that had already accumulated in my eye's fertilizer went down to wet Jovin's white hoodie.

“Nangis aja if you want to cry.” His way of allowing me to pour tears in his arms I really follow.

I'm actually tired of crying. But if there's still a chance to cry, I'll use it.

Sometimes, just crying without needing to explain is more than enough to make a person's heart relieved. Crying is not a disgrace that must be covered. Crying is legitimate.

Jovin's big hand patted my narrow back. I did not return his embrace, but the boy was also reluctant to take off his arms.

Usually, if I cry like this, Brother Dhafin will definitely hug as well as calm me down. But now, different. The man who became the super heroku, lay weakly helpless on the sickly bed.

“Nangis. Do not stop if you still want to be released.” My tears broke even more hearing Jovin's words. “Crying does not solve the problem. Crying doesn't change things. But at least, your heart is a little relieved after you cry.”

Two of my hands that were originally weakly rolled on the side of my body, now I lift swiftly to return Jovin's embrace. Likewise with the child. getting closer to my body shortly after I returned his embrace.

The boy was too sensitive apparently. Not asking questions, only more tightened his embrace when I needed more strokes to muffle my cries.

Five minutes passed. My tears are now back to dry, along with my feet that feel sore. Crying standing up, I think that's the worst option.

Jovin loosened his embrace. The hand that had patted me on the back, now moved to hold both of my shoulders.

“Have eaten?” my head shook slowly.

“You eat together?” Again, my head shook.

“You met your sister?” My head looked up, looking at Jovin who was taller than me.

“Bby?” I asked, and he nodded.

“Use your chance to take care of your sister. Use your time to always be next to your sister. Not possessive, just take advantage of the time.”

I was pensive to hear Jovin's words.

That kid, I haven't known him in a long time. But, from the way of attention as well as his words to me, enough to make me comfortable around him.

He who always comes suddenly, he who embraces without me asking, he who stands beside without asking.

It's a good way to treat someone, but we don't know each other.

Our feet walked back to Kak Dhafin's room.

Jovin was silent with his thoughts. And I refused to open the question session. Still embarrassed, because he had cried and hugged her.

Although I know Jovin never made a fuss about it, but I know myself enough to put myself in a position of embarrassment.

Our feet stopped stepping, when we arrived at the door painted white. I glanced a little at Rah Jovin, the boy was silent. Not glancing or taking out a word. His gaze was straight with two hands coming into his pants pocket.

“Come in.” Take me and open the door.

We both entered with steps. Just as my eyes were looking straight at Kak Dhafin's bed, I saw Kenzie there too. Standing just to the left of Dhafin, she looked at me with a question mark.

A little clumsy, I continued my steps. Jovin followed me from behind.

“Where to?” Kenzie asked, and I looked at him.

“Wind search.” Akuku's.

Kenzie sighed softly. Then his eyes looked at Jovin. “Who is he?” Whether pretending to forget it or something, I think Kenzie already knows Jovin, but why ask again?

“Name Jovin. My friend.” Not wanting to argue, I just followed the instinct to introduce the two of them. “That's Kenzie, my friend.” And then I introduced Kenzie to Jovin.

“I know.” Answer Jovin.

Not wanting to add to the burden of thought, I chose to take a seat to the right of Kak Dhafin's bed. Hugging the arms free from the infuse hose. Drown my head on the burly arm that is now motionless.

Brother, if brother can hear me. Please open your eyes. Give me a sign if you're okay. But if it was the other way around, I would be willing if you left right now.