SADNESS OF MY LIFE

75 A child's remorse for his or her mother

It didn't feel like time was passing, a child

a man named Ridwan is thinking about his mother, but unfortunately at the time of his mother is still alive Ridwan never invite/happy as long as his mother lives. Ridwan is the only child owned by his mother.

Ridwan's father died when he was still in Elementary School, only Ridwan who became the dependant of his mother's life so he was strong to live life. At one time Ridwan said to his mother : “ Mother, I am sorry I have not been able to make my mother happy and have not been able to prove to be a successful person, I have not been a good child for mother, I have not been a good child for mother,and I've been troubling you, now I'm sorry mom, I lost you so much. If only mom was alive, I would fix all my actions and my behavior ma'am, I'm really sorry.

Ridwan Hearing the words that came out of his friend's mouth, his friend said : “ Ridwan, I suggest you, now you do not need to be regretted anymore, because your mother is now gone, now you regret all your actions to your mother, you are useless to regret continuously, because your mother no longer exists. if you really love your mother, you must pray for her continuously and ask for forgiveness to Allah, may your prayer be granted.

Ridwan replied : “ well, I will pray my mother continuously, now I realize the bad beta of me. Even now I am much the same as my son, it is all because of me. I've been mean to Elisha and my son, because I wanted to keep them both away.

even I have hurt Elisha, he has suffered with me. I did not hurt my parents only, but my son and Elisha have also suffered with my work in this”.Ridwan was so beaten and crying, but nevertheless the theme still gave advice to Ridwan, Biar Ridwan realized.kareuna his behavior was wrong and Ridwan was unceasingly ber’a continues for his mother.

Seconds change minutes, minutes change hours, hours change days, finally Ridwan was turned into a very nice and quiet person.However his friends are proud to see his Friend Ridwan has changed into a better person, he said, no need to sacrifice Ridwan so far to pray for his mother.Ridwan tireless to find work even in a state of a grieving heart.

Then came the long-awaited moment, when Ridwan and a friend got a job in the same place. His friends Ridwan and other friends re-assembled, but Ridwan did not forget to pray to pray for his mother every day.

Finally Ridwan can gather again with friends friends, arriving at Ridwan's workplace immediately work, Ridwan did not join the get-together again rich first,because he likes to be alone without being with anyone, because he is very embarrassed of his friend's friend, but if his break likes to be together and eat together.

At that time, all his friends approached Ridwan while joking with him and his boss Ridwan asked him : “ why are you so alone now?Ridwan did not answer and just remained silent. Finally his friend said that he had now changed boss, Ridwan finally smiled down on his boss.

After finishing chatting with Ridwan finally the boss went home to room /to work again. But Ridwan and his friends continued work again, when about to work Ridwan remembers his mother again who has died.Ridwan also looks sad he is always in the shadows with mistakes and regrets that are very deep.

While waiting for his boss, Ridwan was given an envelope from his boss.he also opened the envelope, I guess my letter of expenditure was not. pas di see it turns out that the contents of the envelope was money.Ridwan was very surprised, saw the envelope was filled with money. at the time Ridwan was put out of work here his boss had not given him severance pay with Ridwan, and how surprised Ridwan saw his boss's attitude was.

After that Ridwan immediately took ablution, while thinking about the money.Ridwann immediately prayed and read a short letter. after finishing Ridwan prayer permission to go home because he was not feeling well.

arriving at his home, he cleaned his mother's room, he cleaned clothes, bags, and sandals to his mother's possession.not to forget Ridwan cleaned his wheelchair, it turns out that in the corner of the wheelchair Ridwan found a letter. Ridwan also opened the letter:

“ Anaku Ridwan that I love so much, my little baby that I love so much, how precious you are in the heart of my mother son. Even if you do not love your mother, but I love you very much, you are the most beautiful gift that mother muliki. Son, this is the last letter that I wrote, because tomorrow I can no longer write words on paper.Do good with others, give a good example to your child, love your child, your child the grace God has given you. Son someday if mother is gone, pray for mother”.contents mother's letter to Ridwan.

Finally, without tears Ridwan flowed and it was too late for him to make his mother happy. Ridwan remembered all the actions he had done to his mother, he just sat quietly in front of his mother's wheelchair, which stood in front of Ridwan. It all happened, and now her mother is gone forever.

“my mother taught me how much love a mother has for her child, without expecting anything in return. Mother always sincerely gives everything she has including her own soul “.Ridwan said in his heart.

Ridwan promised to always pray for mom, just this is what I do for mom. I feel useless to be a child, now I'm sorry with all this.

Even I have chosen the wrong wife, now I live with my own wife. My wife went with other men after my mother died.My wife treated my mother disrespectfully.I actually regret the mother, now the mother lives memories.

is this the law of karma for me? 😢