SADNESS OF MY LIFE

59.Waiting for the baby to come out

After finishing 7 months, Elisa tidied the baby clothes into a bag. and cleaned all the equipment in the closet until neat.sambih waiting for the birth of the baby/fetus out.

Elisha also did not forget to prepare a name for his child, because I had prepared from far away the day the name for his son when he was born.

Even though I was sad with my husband, but I went to comfort with a kick and movement in my stomach. I always invite to talk, in elus elus my stomach. even he knew to my lips, he moved my stomach as if he answered and understood my words.

The condition of my stomach has grown, I really want to be noticed with my husband.from since I was pregnant never noticed with my own husband. as if I would live alone without being accompanied by a husband.

Fortunately for her in-laws I always understood in my current condition.if there are no parents I, I always confide in my in-laws. Sometimes in-laws I like to be embarrassed by the behavior of their children.

Including me was also embarrassed by the behavior of the husband.all baby equipment including yesterday 7 monthly it, his money from my parents all.

While my husband raised his hand and there is no responsibility to me. If I do not have parents, I am not strong enough to live this life with my husband. 😢

The bigger my pregnancy with a bad taste, because my stomach became big. In the 8th month I felt a new experience, which is a baby/fetus kick in the stomach.  The unforgettable experience was when my hand was stuck to my stomach, and at that time the baby/fetus I kicked strongly. Maybe he knew he was close to his mother.

During my pregnancy, everything went well. I don't even have any more nausea in the morning. Sometimes I have cramps, but they can be overcome in the same way my parents taught me. But all women will experience like that, with this enlarged pregnancy, I am very happy because there is a movement in my stomach.

Although to my great pregnancy I still help my parents, bringing lunch to mamah and uncle to the garden and to the rice fields.

Sometimes I'm sad, what's all by myself.Sometimes when seeing other people friendly and always in between with her husband.I like to envy😢, I once thought "when I was noticed like that my husband" 😢take Elisha while shedding tears. I want to be noticed with my husband, walk every morning in to a big pregnancy like this, want to be accompanied by the husband. this mah bro bro nemenin his wife, had a mind to please his rich wife was not there.sad terribly to my life, when did my husband understand.

Sometimes I dream:

"Cool in the hug, caress, kiss, and covet with my own husband. Those concerns will help calm me down, as well as make me feel loved and cared for by my husband . Want to listen to every complaint from me, in the form of a husband's attention that means a lot to me, because there will be many challenges and discomforts that will be felt during my pregnancy. As a prospective father is also expected to pay attention to the baby/fetus in my stomach. Torturing my stomach and inviting talking baby/fetus can foster a baby/fetus bond with his father"it was just a dream I just😢.

In fact, I hate my husband more, he even gathers friends with friends who are not important, he is more concerned with his theme than me. instead of looking for a real job, he said, good nature even every time asked about work he was always angry, he wanted to feel good himself. Rich did not have the slightest burden.😡

I can survive because of mamah and to the pregnancy that makes me excited. I will try strong to live life like this. if you obey my ego, I will try to live life like this, I want to be angry every time I see my husband coming home, go home instead of giving money to my wife/me, this is usually just ask and ask every day. I just need to be patient and be patient in the face of such a husband's attitude.

Even though I was sad, did not forget every month to check the birth, let the baby grow healthy.I also always eat artificial fruits, vegetables that much and always drink milk 🥛 pregnant women.

My parents always remind me continue, if again pregnant big do not sleep much should be a lot of movement. let the baby in the birth grow good and healthy.

Don't know why, I baban her sleepy continue.every clay pillow bolsters her pengen tuh keep the pillow bolsters, my eyes can not be opened if it has been a pillow bolsters.

Sometimes I like to wonder, or baby babes who are in the womb so. if where to see the pillow bolsters already bring sleepy.

Sometimes every night I always pray, listen to music and read funny stories.I look for my own busyness, because every night I can not sleep. with the pregnancy I get bigger, I get bigger, I can't move freely.

Every night I could not sleep, than I had to daydream mending I prayed while cringing stomach.as my husband understood I was happy.

I pray every night,

yes Alloh :

"If my husband cannot be a perfect husband with all his merits, at least be him a good father by keeping his trust for me and my son".😢

"I can only pray to you, O God, may there be a good miracle to my husband.I leave it to you, only you are omniscient".

may my prayer be granted all because I want to have a harmonious family.

It was a grievance that felt the same Elisha all this time to her husband.His husband's promise to Elisha can not be proven, because the husband came here the more there is no responsibility to Elisha at all.

Though Elisha had told her husband many times, ask to find work, if not to find work, help my uncle and parents in the garden and in the fields. he would not accept and would not listen to Elisha's words, would Elisha still be willing to endure with her husband, after Elisha gave birth?