SADNESS OF MY LIFE

23. Choose a favor

After being distributed rapot, Elisha saw his son between his parents. Elisha was envious of mere. why other people can be noticed with both parents, while Elisha only mamah his sajah who always pay attention to him.

Elisha was asked the same theme, why are you sad? Elisha answered my father's attention, so I was eight years old. At that time I was taken from mamah, I had a sister from a two-year-old stepmother.I wanted to be noticed by my father, but the father instead noticed his son was not me, it was not me, I feel my parents' attention is reduced.Fortunately I have a mother who loves me, my mother often noticed I often bribe me if I want to eat. I was often spoiled by my mother in the same father's body.

Elisha really did not regret that my life would be like this. I was distinguished by my father, treating me very differently from his 2 children. This started me realize since I was in 1st grade elementary school until I dropped out of school. Because I had to take care of the child of her stepmother, then I was not schooled by my father.2 My brother has a private room, and I do not have a room nor do I remember it at all.

to the marin I came home from school, heard 2 brothers often invited for a weekend walk, but I was never invited as a father. I also see in their status they seem very happy brand. I was also very different in terms of clothes, once a month they got new clothes, while I was never bought at all.

Elisha can only be patient and resigned to my current condition. I don't know why I've always been distinguished. Is it because I'm a different mother, so his dear father to the child, even though I have achievements in school.

2 My brothers also hate me, They often show father togetherness and are uploaded on social media. While none of my photos were ever uploaded by my father on the sosmed. The two of them were not hostile towards me directly, but their behavior indirectly hurt me greatly. It is only natural that I am distinguished by my father,because I'm different, even I'm not needed by my own father anymore.

Don't look at it, not even in the love of money. I promised myself that I would prove it to my father with even better achievements.

Once there was a school race, a speech race about Dad. Elisha rushed to be willing to participate in the race at school to prove to dad. I finally entered the top 5

The day of the test arrived, I performed. The jury's fixated and I got the 1st champion. Seeing that, the school also gave awards. But my father further excommunicated me. It turned out that my father was jealous of my achievements and cleverness. I then became a class champion, speech champion and graduated Junior High, my father was more envious because his son was not like me.

Little by little I felt jealousy towards Elisha's sister. Elisha considered father to be favoritism and more affectionate towards my sister. Father's day and night pay more attention to my brother. I bathed every day, and I bathed myself. Every day Elisha was fed, and Elisha was never fed. If my sister cries, then my father will see the situation of my sister soon. Like children in general, I felt that my sister had taken care of my father, Elisha was upset with my father.

when she remembered Elisha's father, Elisha loved to be sad and hated him even more. Elisha always asked Mama:

mama, is it true that you choose love and are more affectionate with children in there"?my question.

Elisha saw the change of mamah's face, but mamah immediately smiled thinly, it seemed that my mama understood that I was feeling less affection from her father. Elisha wanted to be like children in general.mamah also replied :

“A mommy can not choose love, to her son because you love Elisha,” greeting mamah while stroking the love of Elisha's hair.

mamah then replied, “Why do you always love and pay attention to Elisha every day? Because Elisha is less attentive than father, so mamah gives more love to Elisha.Sedang father can not share affection well for his child,”ucapan mamah.“In the past, when Elisha was a child, father always bathed and fed Elisha .cuman since parting father was more concerned with children in there, because now father has his own family,” said his mother to Elisha.

Still Elisha was not satisfied with the reply mamah, according to Elisha his father was not fair, and not the same.

“Adil it does not have to be equal,” his mamah greeting

“Adil is dividing some things according to their respective ability . For example.. father can pay attention to the child in there while to Elisha no?" said Elisha

“Well, if the father is still united with mamah surely Elisha in the attention and in love with father” said mamah once again.

“father stopped too many children who were there in appeal to Elisha who is here,” replied Elisha innocently.

His smile grew wider. “That is what is called father and mother affection is not the same. Perhaps greater maternal affection than his father,” said mother.

Elisha began to understand that some kind of fair cannot all be equal.

mamah Elisha immediately embraced and kissed my forehead Elisha. mamah loved Elisha with more affection.

Being in the arms of mamah made Elisha believe that his mother loved Elisha more than her father.The more mature, Elisha understood.

With the passage of time, Elisha was willing to graduate from the 3rd grade of Junior High. Elisha got achievements in his school.Elisha even wanted to enter the same lecture with his teacher with a scholarship, just Elisa did not want. Elisha wants to find work, want to help his mom find money. Elisha was invited to work together in his factory.

Elisa's fate is very good, Elisha after graduating Elisha Junior High School was invited to work with his mamah.Elisa did not need to apply for a job, it just so happened that Elisha worked in the factory, so after graduating Junior High School Elisa directly worked. Without tests and without difficulty like the hehehe people. 

But in Elisha's workplace many people were jealous of me, because Elisha did not take any tests. Eventually they made trouble with Elisha, but Elisha did not bother them. Elisha kept working to prove to my father that Elisha could make his own money.