SADNESS OF MY LIFE
65.Selfish 3
The next day I go to the house of in-laws, want to see Naura. I can't wait to hug my son , Before meeting my son, I want to stop by the toy store to buy a doll for Naura.
In the toy store I bought some toys, there were dolls, there were doctor's toys, and there was also a toy Fhising game.
When I finished at the toy store I went straight to my in-laws house.After arriving at the house of in-laws, I knocked on the door no one fussed and no one opened the door.
I tried once again knocking on his door:
"Tock"
"Tock"
"Tock"
Asalamualaikum, this Naura mother came dear, I also call my in-laws, this mother I Elisa come. mother open the door. Elisha said while knocking on the door
But no one opened the door, I waited, afraid that in-laws, Naura, and her father were afraid to leave. I kept waiting, I did not want to go home before I met my son.
The clock kept going
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I keep listening to the sound of the clock ticking, not because time has shown 8 pm.The doors are still not open and they have not yet returned home. Elisha asked: where well, not usually mother does not open the door for me, do they go to your house and stay there?
Finally I went home again, because at home in-laws there is no one. maybe continue again tomorrow to here again out of the fields/fields I came straight here again.
I came home to nothing, my heart was sad. Because I did not meet my son today. When I arrived at my house, I met my parents. my parents also asked me" where your son did not come, why was his toy not given to Naura?", asked Elisha's parents .
I also answered a question people know me:
"So Elisha went to Ridwan's house, but on tap knock on the door no one opened. I had wanted to hug Naura, I missed so much mah?, I waited a few hours even they had not come home".elisha said while sad.
Elisha's parents replied; "maybe they are going, take Naura by the road or go to her brother maybe.Tomorrow they will go there again who knows tomorrow they have gone home. the words of Elisha's parents.
My sense of kangen to Naura, not restrained anymore. until until I can not sleep, because I always remember my son. on the phone was not active, was not active, the more I worry about my son's whereabouts.
Morning arrived, I was immediately ready to help my parents to Sawah/sometimes.I was in Sawah/in the field I was not focused, because I remembered Naura continues. at 11 pm I go home first, because I want to cook for lunch mamah and my uncle. cook even I do not feel/good because I remember my son continues.
Even the uncle said; EL , if you do not want to cook or are thinking a lot do not cook first, better buy aja to the stall.uncle know you again a lot of thoughts, more, if more of uncle's mind is afraid of what's wrong with you in the kitchen.
Elisha answered; yes, uncle
at 2 pm Elisha, his father and his parents went home, they came home from the rice fields/fields just with me who hunted his way, hunted, I'm going to my in-laws' house again to see my son.
arriving at home I hurried to take a bath, want to go to my in-laws' house again. Before leaving I say goodbye to my mother, want to see my son. because her parents Elisha was worried about her children, eventually her parents Elisha also joined Elisha, because he wanted to meet his grandchildren. Me and my mom went to Ridwan's house to see my son, not to forget to bring the toys that were made yesterday by Naura.
"Tock
" Tok
"Tock
Asalamualaikum ma'am, open the door, I want to see Naura.
Asalamualaikum ma'am ma'am, this is Elisha coming to see my son
Naura's mother comes dear, mother misses the same you na. Elisha said while shedding tears
My mother also said; where is it? ko not open the door EL?
Mamah became worried about Naura, did they go to take Naura to EL? the words of Elisha's parents.
After that I cried hysterically:
It might not be mah
don't let them take Naura from me mah
Open the door
Open the door
I cried out in tears to open the door, but no one opened it.
Ridwan's house until now no one has opened it. I and my mother waited until 10 pm, but they did not come home from yesterday.
I was worried, afraid I could not see my son again.not much different mamah I also called Ridwan and my in-laws, but his number was not active at all.
I am very sad, why Ridwan brought Naura from me. whether they have no feelings at all I. I am trying to give birth, take care of my child, or not, now she's as good as they took Naura from me.
Ridwan is selfish, he wants to feel good on his own. what is my sin until I am not found my son again. whereas all this time who tried to die to die for the child me, not Ridwan/ my husband.where else do I need right, even if I want to give birth he does not want to accompany me, continue as long as I give birth to baby from whom? it was all from me and my mother. Ridwan/Suami I do not spend a little /dime money for me to give birth. boro boro spend money to watch me while pregnant never.
Now he wants to stay away from me with Naura, it's good.Ridwan is really selfish, I'm trying to die for my son.even he who took my son as good as he.
What's my fault?
until I can't see my son again?
Do I have to unite again with him, while he has no work and never pay attention to me even a little, even giving a living never even he asked me back.
Is that household to be maintained? , I have cape and tired, I am no longer strong with him, I have a rich husband no husband. Elisha said
" all right I leave it to you, I believe in you, I am in love trials continuously there will certainly be the best way for me. o Allah I want to return my son Naura beside me. I am not strong far away with my son. grant all the prayers of servants. Amen YRA's. Elisha prayed with tears.
