sacrificial taste

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after the worst of it, me and Zafran felt further and further away.

even after the suspension was over I saw a different zafran than I knew.

several times also my classmates who happened to be an apprentice place with me who certainly also know my story with zafran often report to me if they have seen a zafran berbonggan with a girl who none other than our classmate at school.

but I always try to think positively towards zafran, I will not easily believe in them because I know the zafran still has the same taste as me.

I'm sure that, I can see from his eyes when we always cross each other at school. the way he looks at me is still the same as before when he looked at me even though his attitude was not as warm as it used to be well maybe because I had hurt him and I admit it.

but in the end I was sure that zafran might have been able to open his heart to others when his bandmates told me directly that zafran was close to the younger brother even zafran already expressed feelings for her, I tried hard to accept that fact.

what Zafran did was not wrong, he had the right to continue his life and seek his happiness again even though I was very hurt by it.

I realize that this is all a hundred percent my fault, this is my will.

it was me who had decided him for not wanting to live with the shadow of my guilt on nadin so this was the consequence I had to accept from my decision back then.

long story short our SMK period is over, while carrying out the last ceremony honestly I was eager to run towards her and hug her to say goodbye and there was so much I wanted to convey to her but it was all just a wish that I could not fulfill.

seeing him singing in front of the students at school I felt so proud of him! proud to have had a story with him, to share a laugh with him.

although on the other hand there was a feeling of being crushed when I saw many girls who were so idolizing, I still felt jealous back then but there was nothing I could do! her position at that time I had no right to her to be jealous or angry when the girls approached the zafran.

if only there was a chance for the zafran I meant to read this, I just wanted to say that

I know I'm the one who decided to stay away completely but that doesn't mean I stop thinking about you.

I'm not saying I miss it doesn't mean I don't miss you, I always think about you. miss it and hope it's almost completely faded.

all that remains is a question that comes from a fundamental human need - the need to feel meaningful, to feel valuable.

and that question is :

Are you sad about our situation now?

Do you expect us to return to the way we used to be?

finally we graduated, a very pleasant SMK time! I never regretted knowing him, I was even so grateful to have had the opportunity to get to know the zafran and get through the days with him! people say that internships are tough times but I disagree with that statement!

for me the internship was the best time, and if I could I'd really like to feel it twice.

For zafran, the,

Thank you for the chance to get to know you

it was one of the greatest gifts of my life, love need not be found

love will find us.

Thank you, man, thank you,

The old advice is absolutely right! I will never cry because something has ended but I will smile because something happened.

The past, the pain, the future, the dreams will all pass like a flowing river. Let my life flow like the river of life.

Thank you for making these lips never stop smiling, and most importantly thank you for loving me.

 

- TAMAT