sacrificial taste
episode 16
"if I can be honest, I'm starting to love zafran lan! I've tried not to involve the heart with any attitude but I lost lan, I lost! I don't want to be happy with hurting other people's hearts what else is my own best friend" I hugged Lana and cried without noticing the people who saw me
"we are Vania's friends, nadin also does not know that you love him. Try to explain carefully to him, if he is a good friend, he will forget the zafran and let you be together"
"but I've been stuck lana, I already told nadin that me and the zafran have nothing to do! even I'll help him get close to the zafran"
"from the beginning I warned you Vania, stop playing if there is nothing between you and zafran! this is wrong, nadin is just a hindrance to you! sooner or later a broken heart will slap him, precisely this play of yours that will break him again"
when I cried and hugged Lana suddenly my sister had come to pick me up.
"vaniaa, your sister"
"astaga, how's this?!" I immediately wiped my tears but my eyes were already swollen
I let go of my embrace, saying goodbye to lana and her boyfriend who had been waiting for me. when I approached my sister she asked me why I was crying and fortunately I could answer without being nervous that I was crying because I was moving schools so I and Lana were sad, there's no way I'm saying that I'm crying because my overprotective brother warned me not to date before school.
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all night I stared at my phone that kept ringing but just a notification from the grub, hoping that zafran contacted me as usual but tonight no, no phone or message from him that somehow made me very disappointed. fucked mind! especially with lana saying that Zafran wanted to go with me and shoot me but I forced him to go home with another woman.
I looked at the ceiling of my room
"forgive me zafran! if only she wasn't my best friend, I wouldn't be like this"
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the next day at the office
actually today I want permission because I'm ashamed of my puffy eyes due to crying all night but soon this office hut so I have to keep practicing. when I entered the training room I passed the zafran, I looked at him but he immediately turned his eyes to not look at me and just left? what's wrong with her? she was not as ordinary as this, even before we got close when we passed by her she must have smiled at me.
"vania, what's wrong with your eyes? you must have cried, right?" yuni pulled me to sit down, I didn't speak the word yuni because I was thinking why the zafran was acting like that to me
"mimelaa!" yuni surprised me
"yeah yuni?"
"what happened huh? you must have been crying all night, right! lookyour eyes!" he took me to the mirror
"it's okay yun, I just remember with hera and feel sad because she's gone"
because his yuni person is indeed innocent so he easily believes my words.
Lana comes "astagaa vaniaa, look at your eyes!"
"iyaiyaa" I shouldn't have come today! look at their reaction, I murmured in my heart
"there's no way you're going to show me with those puffy eyes"
"i'll have permission on the FD (Floor director) section not to take part in the show today, I'll just help you get ready for the show"
*on top I asked permission on FD that today I will help wardrobe, because I saw my swollen eyes then they allow me*
"sister today I'm going to help brother" I spoke to my senior who was part wardrobe
"ah, baikaa! I just happen to be alone today"
"hehe yes brother"
"then can you ask for help?"
"yes, let's just say it"
"you go upstairs well, bring this shirt to the zafran and help him get ready"
"uh uh?umm" Why zafran anyway
"yes, because I have to prepare these clothes for the children who will show with an Indian theme. You definitely will not be able to put these clothes on them right?"
indian theme clothes are very complicated and I certainly will not understand how to install them so inevitably I have to bring clothes and help zafran wear them.
"my sister, I'll help the zafran"
"thank you yahh" gave me the equipment that would zafran used for live music
I climbed the stairs very slowly, when I got above I saw the zafran was sitting with an empty look.
"zafran" I stood in front of him
he was shocked and immediately stood up "what are you doing here?"
"today I'm part wardrobe and I'll help you get ready"
he looked at me but I turned my face away because I didn't want him to realize my eyes were swollen.
"put my clothes on the table, I'll get myself ready! you can go"
whahuh? what's wrong with you, zafran? I speak in my heart.
"i'll help you, this is my job"
"no need" he took his clothes and equipment from my hand and turned his back to me "now you can go, if you feel this is your job then just assume it's done! better help the others get ready"
zafran changed, usually he always wanted to be close to me but today he even rejected me. What happened?
*connect*
