sacrificial taste

episode 17's

"zafran what's wrong with you? why do I feel so sick with his attitude? was he angry because of yesterday? ahh, I know yesterday I was wrong but I had to do that! hffftttt, should I please? with his attitude like this I don't have to bother to stay away from him or judge him, but why does it feel so broken, his eyes are so cold when looking at me! what the hell is going on? do I have to talk to him?"

as I muttered to myself, Lana surprised me

"hey!"

"lanaa! what the hell!"

"why are you talking to yourself, like crazy haha"

"i thought of zafran lan, she changed"

"changed? you mean change how? is the zafran now a monkey?"

"that's not what I meant"

"hahaha, then what?"

"her attitude changed for me lan, she felt like she was staying away from me maybe even hating me"

"no way"

"i'm serious lan, I was told to help the zafran get ready upstairs"

"wahhh, dong dong y'all haha"

"but zafran kicked me out lana, she refused me to help her! freakin' out? zafran who used to look for an opportunity to approach me today rejected me"

"maybe he was mad at you Vania, yesterday he had everything ready to shoot you but you forced him to drive nadin! he must have been disappointed"

"but before she was fine, even when I hugged her because she was happy when she wanted to take nadin instead hugged me tighter and smiled at me even though the parking lot was all tight"

"or maybe the nadin said a no-no on the zafran?"

"time anyway? but what did nadin say?"

"it is possible that Nadin deliberately said a no-no to the zafran so that the zafran hates you and he got a chance to get close to the zafran! the proof today is that he did not enter because we must be suspicious of the change in attitude of the zafran and will ask what happened yesterday with them"

"but what's the point of nadin talking about me? he will know me and zafran there is no relationship whatsoever. after all he should take advantage of his two moments with the zafran not to talk about me right"

"maybe he already knows that you and Zafran have a relationship but he just pretended not to know that you feel bad for him"

"since when can you have negative thoughts so much less on our best friend"

"or do you want me to talk to Zafran? she'll tell me because she trusts me"

"believe himself haha"

"yes, the proof is that I'm the first and only one of your best friends that he told you that he was going to shoot you"

"don't, she thinks I'm telling you about her! my plan is to talk to him if I can"

"why did you corner me, you know what my situation was like"

"yes I know and I told you to end your charade but you don't want to hear me, now everyone's hurting right? you, zafran and sooner or later nadin will feel it too!"

"why do your words hurt so much, instead of helping me you cornered me"

"i want to wake you up!"

"come on, you're mean to me" I left lana

"i'm not evil! I just want you to realize that you're wrong!" Lana screamed as I got away from her.

come to think of it Lana's words are true but she's not in my position so she can easily talk like that.

"eh this is the time for zafran to perform" I rushed to the stage where the zafran would sing and when I arrived it was true he was getting ready to sing, I just saw him from a distance because I didn't want him to know I was looking at him. when he started singing the scene as usual that many women who stood on the stage to shout unclear and this time the zafran not as usual! zafran invited the short-haired woman who was very crazy about him to go on stage with him to sing.

"what the hell, why don't I feel like seeing that!"

***

when she finished singing she got off the stage and I approached her.

"zafrann!" I called him as he passed by beside me

he only saw me for a moment and kept walking

"zafran wait!" I held her hand, this time I had to try to be able to talk and be close to her

"let go of your hand !!*

"uh, sorry" I immediately let go of my grip "I want to talk to you zafran"

"say!" he spoke but turned his back on me

"have you had lunch?"

"what's your business?"

"i want to have lunch with you and talk to you, can you?"

"sorry, I promised you I'd have lunch with lidya"

"lya?"

he gestured with his eyes, I turned my body and saw that he had his eyes pointed at the short-haired woman and when I turned back the zafran was gone.

"astagaaa, it hurts so much. zafran who was not the zafran I knew, not the zafran who sang to me in front of the crowd, not the zafran who had promised to always be there for me, not a zafran who always forces to hold my hand! he's completely different"

*connect*