sacrificial taste

episode 20's

I immediately dropped myself on the bed, staring at the ceiling of my room.trying to calm my heart that was heavily disappointed with all the reality I heard today. I don't want to see Nadin for the next few days, my disappointment is ripe! even crying will not relieve my heart.

it's a perfect break, a break made by someone I've been perfect to keep.

in the midst of my daydreams staring at the ceiling of my room I chuckled at the knock on the door

"vaniaa, are you sleeping? your phone rang all the time" Mother knocked on my door pretty hard

I opened the door "iya ma'am"

"are you crying son?" I wiped away the tears at the end of my eyes

"uh, no ma'am"

"if you have a story problem, son, what's wrong? why are you home so soon?"

"i got a job from quite a lot of offices so I was told to go home sooner so I could finish it tomorrow ma'am"

"how about these tears?"

"maybe my eyes are watering from staring too much at the laptop screen"

"oh yasudah, do you want me to make you some hot chocolate?"

"no need to mom"

"mom wants to go with sister to stay at grandma's house, you want to come?"

"it's not like ma'am, I have a lot of work to do! I send greetings to grandma yah"

"yasah, adekmu also did not come he said he wanted to learn tomorrow he had a quiz at school"

"oh yes ma'am"

"my mother left first"

"yes ma'am, be careful"

***

because it dissolves in my daydreams to not hear my phone, who is calling.

"uh uh? 39 Calls from zafran? at best he'll apologize!" I was shocked when my phone rang again and again zafran called me "i'm disappointed, give me time alone" I refused the phone and accidentally turned off my phone.

not long after that my sister knocked on the door

"sister, sister"

"there's no one outside, maybe brother's friend"

"who?"

"don't know, I just saw it! sister try to come out look, mom's not there"

"jas"

***

"vaniaa" turned out to be the zafran who came, when he saw me he immediately held my hand

"what's it gonna take?" I stomped my hand hard enough for him to let go of his grip

"sorry van, I know I've gone too far with you"

"come on, I'm tired of needing a break!"

"Vania heard me first, I was wrong for not finding out the truth but I thought Nadin wouldn't lie because he was your best friend. I also felt very disappointed when Nadin said it was you who forced him to want me to drive home when you knew at that time I had prepared everything but whatever I knew here I was was wrong! I'm sorry"

"i need some time alone, go home"

"i won't be home until you forgive me"

"selfish! one week you ignored me! reject me! hating me! just because of the words you don't know the truth, and when you know the truth you want me to forgive you so soon?! today I was broken with two precious people in my life, my first best friend! the friend who betrayed me! second, the man I think is different from the others! the man who had promised would always be supportive and be there for me in any situation turned out not to keep his promise! can't you give me time?"

"sorry" zafran looks pias and lowered his head

"now go home, go home zafran"

he just kept quiet and said nothing

"have, whatever! it's up to you to stay" I left him and went inside the house

an hour had passed, I peeked at the window to see if he was gone or not.

"basically stubborn, this time I won't be easy for you to persuade" I went into the room and slept, I think he'll be home soon.

***

Lightning and heavy rain woke me up, I saw a clock that had shown at half 3, I woke up to see if the zafran was still there or not.

" surely he's home" when I opened the window curtains I saw the zafran still there, even he had not moved from his place when outside was raining heavily with lightning

*connect*