sacrificial taste
Gateway
After the first week we broke up and the zafran was never seen in front of me finally in the second week he went back to doing school activities.I met him at the school entrance, saw zafran make me very happy! it is undeniable that I still love him very much.
my pleasure that I could go back to seeing her changed when I smiled at her but she turned her face to me, my heart was hurt!
zafran who used to always try to do silly things just to be able to see my smile change very drastically at that time.
he's not a zafran! his eyes and face were cold as if he did not want our meeting at that time.
I want to cry, run towards her, hug her, apologize to her and want to be with her like she used to be! through the days of great fun because there is always him who finds me, I miss you zafran! i-i'm sorry! that was the only sentence that always rang in my mind at that time.
his feet felt glued to the earth, watching him walk away from me! looking at the zafran who didn't even want to look at me, my mind was screwed, my morning was a mess! zafran hates me!
****
"it's still morning but your face is so sour, it must have failed to move on" Lana mocked me
*the tears that I have withstood from the gate I finally can't hold anymore*
"vaniaa, what's wrong with you? I was just kidding, I'm sorry" Lana
"you are lan!" junis
"you know, I'm just kidding" Lana
"no, it's not your fault lana" I tried to hold back the tears that just kept running down my cheek
"what is vania?" junis
"i just met the zafran in front"
"good dong! you miss him" yuni
"yes, but when I smiled at her she turned her face away and just left! zafran has hated me yun! zafran hates me lana!"
"not vania! calm yourself, don't think no! zafran must have been disappointed in you, and all he showed was his disappointment"Lana
"lana's right, just try to think that you are in the position of zafran! you were decided on the grounds of just pretending to love him, it's not very painful" Yuni continued
"i'm sorry lana! I can't go on with it like this yun! I love zafran"
"in that case, you just meet the zafran during the break! apologize to him, I'm sure zafran will definitely forgive you let alone zafran very dear to you"
"but nadin?"
"vania! comeon! listen to me this time! nadin is gone, this one week by deciding what zafran have you got? can you guarantee that Nadin is happy there?! come on Vaniaa, you're not wrong and don't feel guilty! you deserve to be happy too, right? you and zafran met and loved each other is that wrong? no kan! that feeling will not exist if the creator does not allow it, do not constantly feel guilty because you can not give what you want at the last moment in his life" Yuni
"uhuh?" Lana holds a yuni forehead "are you sick? how can you speak such wisdom?"
"what the hell, I'm smart to know! you're the one who always underestimated me" Yuni
"why should I be ashamed? I'm sure zafran would also want to be with you again" Yuni
"we'll accompany you to meet the zafran okay?" Lana
"alright"
****
the break bell has rung, I have gathered the courage to meet the zafran, apologize to him, and I tell him what really happened! what made me decide at that time.my feelings were very passionate by thinking that me and zafran will return like before swallowing disappointment!
"where's zafran?" Lana asks a classmate of zafran
"already to the cafeteria like him" when I saw my friend zafran immediately act strange "eh no zafran no no no kantin! heiii"
but I ignored him and kept walking to the cafeteria, where I saw Zafran sitting by himself.
"nahh that's zafran van!" yuni was excited
"you get there fast! we'll see you from here! the spirit!" Lana pushed me
*with nervousness I approached zafran*
"hi" I ventured to sit in front of him
zafran just looked at me with a few seconds and then went back to eating food in front of him
"zafran" my voice sounded trembling because it felt like I wanted to cry when it was "zafran? I want to tell you something"
"say!" a very short answer from him
"sorry zafran! i-i'm sorry! I'm sorry I treated you like that"
*zafran does not comment on my words*
I was already feeling desperate with the cold zafran attitude on me so I decided to just leave but before I left I said
"i love you zafran, still very dear" and I stood up
"wamma!" zafran held me, he held my hand! geez I miss that grip so much! but when the zafran was still holding me a girl suddenly came
"honey!" holding the zafran shoulder
instantly my heart was broken, hearing the words of affection that were thrown from another woman to Zafran.
*connect*
